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  • sappho [she/her]
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    4 years ago

    Me too. My food restriction was always about not "deserving" to eat, so anything moralistic is really tough to deal with.

    • aaaaaaadjsf [he/him, comrade/them]
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      4 years ago
      CW: discussion about potential eating disorders

      Yeah it was a bad day for me to log on to this website. I'm currently struggling to even get two meals a day down. Between the shit tier vegan bait posting and the reactionary, r*ddit brain arguments against veganism I think I'm going to log off for a bit.

      • sappho [she/her]
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        4 years ago

        I should probably follow your lead and log off too. I just started a more intensive trauma therapy modality and it's been wearing me out, I really don't need to add any extra stress.

        disordered eating stuff

        I just spent two days full-on bingeing/dissociating after a difficult session, and then until I saw this comment thread I hadn't even realized that I hadn't eaten at all today. It's always one or the other extreme for me.

        • aaaaaaadjsf [he/him, comrade/them]
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          4 years ago
          CW: more eating disorder stuff

          Yeah the binge eating followed by not eating anything really gets to me sometimes. The other day during a binge I managed to eat fucking 4000 calories in one day. Then the next week I don't eat till 5 in the afternoon. I'm really trying to find something that works, I'm over 6ft/183cm tall and weigh in between 110-120lbs/50-55kg, I know this isn't healthy but fuck I'm really trying y'know?

    • crime [she/her, any]
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      4 years ago

      Oh mood, me too. Hope you're hanging in there comrade :heart-sickle: