dualmindblade [he/him]

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Cake day: September 21st, 2020

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  • Yeah was also a little iffy but told that it got very good actually. Just finished season 1 and it has indeed continually gotten better and better, my kid assures me the second is even moreso. Well defined characters, lack of black/white, good/evil narrative, actually interesting plot line with twists you won't see coming. Animation is really unique, especially the fights have a quality about them I haven't really seen before. And it's pretty gay.

    I still don't know what LOL is except some kind of video game or something, also I don't like the intro credit theme song



  • Interesting read! So they have never significantly tapped into your chemistry or science knowledge? I have a college kid who doesn't love taking money from me and randomly lost a bunch of financial aid this year. Thinking of forwarding this info to them but I'm a little worried it would be demoralizing as a first non-work-study job..







  • Omg, that experience with your psychiatrist beating you for self medicating with moclobomide is like my worst nightmare. I have a very strict policy of lying to my doctors about that sort of thing and also recent recreational drug use (except cannabis) and I'm sure it has saved me some pain, but that said it seems like you got tremendously unlucky there, I can't imagine too many of my doctors reacting that way. It's hilarious though, you can confess to all kinds of "self medication" and they won't bat an eye, but if it's actual medicine it becomes super concerning!

    I am a burgerreich citizen unfortunately, also tried moclobomide a while back since it was easy to get on the gray market. It's really remarkable how different it is from the two I've recently been on. It was definitely activating for me despite, IIRC, it being slightly selective for mao-a. There must be some really complex pharmacology going on here, usually I find most drugs in the same class to have at least something in common in terms of how they make me feel but so far I'm not seeing any similarities whatsoever. The thing about inhibiting GABA does make me a bit concerned about trying phenelzine but maybe I'll get lucky, or who knows maybe this horrendous side effect will go away with the one I'm on. I really need to do more research here, I never went that deep since I never expected to be allowed to try these things. Gillman is a name I've heard in passing on the forums, sounds like that's a good place to start.

    I didn't know till relatively recently that selegiline was also easy to get online, since my main "pharmacy" doesn't carry it, but that is also going to be part of my backup plan, I assume I can crush it up and take it sublingually if it fails to be effective orally.

    Thanks for the detailed response, depression is a fuck and I also hope you end up winning the battle/war on the coming years!




  • Cycling through various psych meds is so unbelievably frustrating. Turns out my current psych doc is willing to prescribe MAOIs which is great because I've always wanted to look into that class. Started with selegiline patch, it actually seemed like it might be helpful, I at least had more energy and motivation, but turns out I'm allergic to the adhesive and I kept reacting to it more and more until it was basically one big hive underneath when I took it off. Doctor is unwilling to prescribe oral or sublingual form, saying there's not enough evidence for its effectiveness on depression..

    Now I'm on removedlcypromine (parnate), which is actually what I would have picked for myself to start off with. After 2 months ramping up it couldn't be more different than the last med, I'm sleepy all the time, 0 motivation. I haven't gotten a single thing done for like 3 weeks and have called in to work 3 times. I'm not sure whether to try and power through or taper off but either way I'm in for quite a bit more of this since, unlike selegiline, you cannot quit this one cold turkey. Next up would be phenelzine (nardil), which is also very likely to make me sleepy.

    I want to give these a fair shot, after the MAOIs there's basically nothing left to try, over 20 years I've thoroughly explored every other class of depression med, but I also have to weigh that against my functionality, I can't just take a year off of work to dick around with drugs that each only have a sliver of a chance of being effective. I guess I should feel lucky, there are a lot of jobs I would already have been fired from for tardiness and absenteeism, and getting a doctor who's willing to prescribe supposedly dangerous stuff instead of just yet another ssri, SNRI, tricyclic, is difficult and expensive.