Same. I feel like I’ve never felt euphoria or dysphoria but I can’t tell if it’s because I’m just that good at ignoring shit. But also I really enjoy playing as a girl, presenting as femme in a way that is girl-adjacent in digital ways, etc. but real life make up just makes me sad and different pronouns make me feel awkward, even though if I interrogate myself I feel like it’s just because they’re different, and I don’t really care that much either way.
Is it cis for calling myself trans to be more affirming than these things that are supposed to be? Is that weird?
Edit: I feel like if I took HRT there’s a high chance it would be extremely affirming but clinics don’t let you do something as significant as that as a TEST
That's kinda what I did, I mean I wasn't 100% sure when I did it. Puberty is puberty is what I'm telling myself now though, but like after 2 months I'm kinda like no matter what I'm gonna keep taking estrogen.
Honestly? I think that should be more normalized, across the board. A month or two of hrt (usually) won't cause massive physical changes, but it will change your mental state, and seeing whether that change is good or bad can give a lot of self-knowledge.
I legit don't think it's silly to "test" hrt at all. I wish it were normal and doctors were cool with it
Same. I feel like I’ve never felt euphoria or dysphoria but I can’t tell if it’s because I’m just that good at ignoring shit. But also I really enjoy playing as a girl, presenting as femme in a way that is girl-adjacent in digital ways, etc. but real life make up just makes me sad and different pronouns make me feel awkward, even though if I interrogate myself I feel like it’s just because they’re different, and I don’t really care that much either way.
Is it cis for calling myself trans to be more affirming than these things that are supposed to be? Is that weird?
Edit: I feel like if I took HRT there’s a high chance it would be extremely affirming but clinics don’t let you do something as significant as that as a TEST
Just don't tell them it a test lol
It feels silly to do it as a test too though
That's kinda what I did, I mean I wasn't 100% sure when I did it. Puberty is puberty is what I'm telling myself now though, but like after 2 months I'm kinda like no matter what I'm gonna keep taking estrogen.
So no its not silly but also do you
Honestly? I think that should be more normalized, across the board. A month or two of hrt (usually) won't cause massive physical changes, but it will change your mental state, and seeing whether that change is good or bad can give a lot of self-knowledge.
I legit don't think it's silly to "test" hrt at all. I wish it were normal and doctors were cool with it
This is very validating and also based, thank you