It might be (depression is really terrible, I’m there and I sympathize ) but also it’s also not an uncommon trans experience to feel disappointment after trying to shift presentation and not feeling satisfied with it. I’ve definitely experienced it; I think I have a post in this thread talking about it actually (how I was initially feeling quite dysphoric after giving myself a haircut I thought was more masculine.)

The act of transitioning can actually heighten feelings of dysphoria by bringing what was a background discomfort into focus and exacerbating a feeling of disconnect between the experience and the ideal. This is definitely the case for me. Honestly I personally do not feel much gender euphoria like ever and I don’t think I really will until I begin HRT. This stuff is tough but I believe in you