I think what helped me was reading other trans people's experiences with self-discovery as well as the ways some of us tend to deny our own feelings and even fiction about the trans experience. Talk, listen, read. Find someone or a group that will listen to the ways you feel. Rant or vent in the spaces that you can.
It's a trope at this point but something that really helped me was reading through Nevada. Specifically the second half of Nevada that deals with denial, repression, and trying to rationalize the feelings away.
The trans experience is vast and diverse and your journey is just as valid as someone who may fit the image of the trans person that the media sells to society at large. Sometimes we just don't have the words to know what specifically is wrong, only that something is wrong. Sometimes we only begin to acknowledge that our normal isn't the normal until we have whatever knowledge may have been missing.
I think what helped me was reading other trans people's experiences with self-discovery as well as the ways some of us tend to deny our own feelings and even fiction about the trans experience. Talk, listen, read. Find someone or a group that will listen to the ways you feel. Rant or vent in the spaces that you can.
It's a trope at this point but something that really helped me was reading through Nevada. Specifically the second half of Nevada that deals with denial, repression, and trying to rationalize the feelings away.
The trans experience is vast and diverse and your journey is just as valid as someone who may fit the image of the trans person that the media sells to society at large. Sometimes we just don't have the words to know what specifically is wrong, only that something is wrong. Sometimes we only begin to acknowledge that our normal isn't the normal until we have whatever knowledge may have been missing.