Hope it was a great week everyone. Hopefully this one is even better. 
hello trans people of hexbear.net
yesterday i have taken my 4th shot of estrogen :)
Every single thread that talks about misogyny on hexbear becomes a cesspit of “enlightened centrists” on fucking gendered oppression. Ugh.
Oh no. Is it happening again? I haven’t been online much today so I haven’t looked around. Legit might leave the site if this shit isn’t reined in.
Was considering not revealing anything for opsec reasons but I haven't told anyone IRL and feel like I'm bursting at the seams about it so... I started (DIY) HRT! I don't really know what I want out of this exactly but I think I'll like all of the physical changes and hate being seen as a man so here goes! At this point I'm aiming for "transfem enby" but honestly I think I might be okay with anywhere from "man with tits" to "binary trans woman" lol so I'm feeling it out as I go.
Only a few days in (I can still feel slight tenderness at the injection site lol) so probably nothing real changing yet but I'm so excited, and I love the biohacking angle of mixing my own shit. I have no plan for the social aspect if I'm being honest, besides just a) officially coming out to my more chill friends soon, probably around pride month, b) not coming out to my family and c) trying to just be myself, even with the knowledge that I might discover I'm not exactly who I thought I was
Not sure how much people IRL are going to freak about the safety aspect of DIY but I just don't care I don't think. I trust myself more than I trust doctors, and I can afford blood tests if needed.
You don't understand, ma'am - I NEED those headpets!! I deserve it! But that also doesn't mean I'm unwilling to debase myself by draping myself all over you, headbutting you, making dumb little gay sounds, so on. And I'll make autistic little "mya" sounds when I get the headpets!! I'll be very satisfied and luxuriating in the head attention! It might put me to sleep, and I'll be in bliss, that shit's just like pure dopamine to me. Might end up becoming scritches or cuddles as well, I will lay across your lap or be little spoon. I'll be gay and affectionate, a complete lesbian simp. I desire and require headpets, miss, surely you understand.
This needs to be one of those Hexbear titlebar things!
Edit: They're called taglines, and I knew that, but I blanked because my brain is a mess
just saw i saw the tv glow. the best trans movie i've ever seen, never felt more seen by a movie. sitting in the theater as the credits roll and just crying because that could have been me
effort post coming later, genuinely mandatory viewing if you're transfem or questioning
fuck.... i keep hearing about how good it is but i absolutely can't STAND horror anything. it took a very,, very large carveout for me to finish Omori
it's not really horror? it's a tragedy. i mean it's horrifying, but it isn't scary
the real horror
is the main character just living her life presenting as male forever, too scared to transition
shit, I had no idea this was a trans movie, now I gotta see it.
A24 really coming in hot with the queer rep this year, releasing a lesbian movie and a trans movie back to back.
you GOTTA
cannot emphasize enough how good this movie is as a trans movie
as a trans movie
oh wait, so is it not explicitly a trans movie?
no it's explicitly trans but in ways where it's really hard to talk about without spoiling. more details coming soon, once i'm done figuring out how to write about this
very vague spoilers
the main character is trans but closeted and too scared to transition, and spends the movie talking around this fact. but it's the text of the movie even though those words are never explicitly said
you're piqued my interest.
if I don't see this in theater I'll at least rent or buy it when it hits home video.
yes
you should do it though, it will wreck you
spoiler
you should meet the main character where she's at, she's also boymoding the whole time!
getting hrt on monday finally, but in the mean time why the fuck does my voice sound the way it does oh shit oh fuck
i hate that never speaking again feels preferable rn
Had the greatest thing happen to me today. So I had to get a procedure done by one of my surgeons today. Had to get there early this morning. So it took a while to get called back to get ready but I had an extremely affirming thing happen to me once I got back. The second I got back, I got asked if i had given a urine sample yet. I answered no and asked why. The following conversation took place.
Nurse: It is a urine sample for a pregnancy test.
Me: Oh. That’s fair. I’m definitely not pregnant though.
Nurse: We have to do this. All women must take a pregnancy test just in case. (I assume it was for anesthesia or something)
Me: I promise you. I can’t get pregnant. It is not possible.
Nurse : *visibly confused*
Me: I don’t have a uterus, so I can’t
Nurse: I see. When did you have it removed?
Me: I never had one. I’m trans.
At this point you can see the light bulb flicker on and she stammers a little. I told her not to worry cause it kinda made my day. I then proceeded to not be asked again, lol. Sometimes it’s the little things that happen that make one feel great. I never knew I passed so well, but when you have a nurse insisting on a pregnancy test, well yeah, ya pass ya dingus. Lmao.
I got sent a cervical cancer screening letter after I changed my gender marker. It made me laugh too!
Mood swings are crazy honestly last night I was like "AHHHHH I'm gonna give up I'm gonna detransition I can't do this" and this morning I'm like hmm I look really cute I'm def trans what was I thinking
Saw the new philosophy tube. Abigail did a boy voice very very poorly. I laughed and chuckled and then thought... hang on did I lose my fucking boy voice too???
And I tried... and I did apparently. Now I sound like a girl doing a boy voice very poorly. Wtf???
Oh yeah that happens without realizing it. I’ve completely lost the ability to talk like I used to. Hells, I’ve actually forgotten entirely what I used to sound like to the point that my memories have retconned my voice.
lol nice. Sometimes in my dreams I remember myself as a little girl if I'm like reliving some early memory. Which occasionally jostled me when I realize "no wait I transitioned in my 20s hang on"
I still can do an Elvis impersonation just fine - but I've lost what I once thought was my permanent voice... I can imitate Elvis better than I can imitate how I sounded like 5 years ago
Shoutout Dr. Girlfriend for giving me the confidence to speak with my half a pack a day voice <3
Half a pack a day voices are so attractive, sorry, I don't make the rules
I just realized today that it’s almost Pride Month… I wish I was more excited for it tbh but I won’t be able to go to any of the Pride events because none are COVID-safe so I don’t really have much to look forward to.
I’ve never cared for pride month. Nonetheless, if it’s outside it’s probably safe - wear a mask if you like.
Since I'm fuckin unemployed as fuck now maybe I'll see if there's cool stuff here, finally...
Hello everyone, I hope yous are all having (and will have) a great week, much love as always!!! 🥰🥰🥰🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🥰🥰🥰
Bit of a less serious worry than usual, but I keep wanting to finish that fashion effortpost that I have drafted up to post here but I keep procrastinating it. It's mostly since I worry my advice isn't actually that helpful or good since I'm still very new to this. But I still want to get that post done sometime soon since I find fashion really exciting now that I've started to actually present femme and I feel like it would still help at least a few people here to read.
Omg omg omg OK I would love to help with this I have been having so much fun with fashion. If you like I could read it and give you feedback??
Oh that would be perfect actually! I'll DM you it once I've got it edited into something actually coherent. Thank you very much for offering to help! 💜
This type of effort post would be hugely welcome. Fashion and the like is one of the very few major issues I’ve had with my transition. Just can’t figure it out to save my life.
Please do! I have zero fashion sense and can use all the help I can get.
Thank you to everyone who responded, it made me feel a lot more excited about the effortpost again. I can't wait to work on it again tonight!
I would love some coordinated advice! I am unearthing my love for fashion and know almost nothing haha
Incredibly valid, that was basically me just a few months ago lmao
i'm still stuck at like 3 pieces of "femme" clothes and otherwise i got terminal egg drip. literally any pointers would be great
