I didn't know what I was feeling was gender dysphoria until after I cracked my egg. It was one of the reasons it took me so long (late 20s), I didn't get what people were describing as dysphoria for my life. Of course looking back, I totally did and there were plenty of signs. But at the time I didn't know.
You're allowed to experiment and see what makes you happy! If it gives you euphoria, do it. You don't have to put a lable on it right away, lables are mostly for medical stuff anyway like HRT or whichever surgeries.
I came out to my friend this past weekend, and it was easily one of the happiest days of my life. I was euphoric all day, and it felt like my entire life fell into place.
Every day since then, I've been deeply depressed to the point where I don't even want to be awake. I don't know why, and I don't know where my happiness went or if it's even true anymore.
Edit: sorry to dump. That kind of just fell out of me. Thank you for your experience
That's so awful, I hope things brighten for you soon. Between dysphoria and depression, there's obviously a lot of interplay. Being that down for over a week sounds more like depression to me judging by the bit you've said here. Especially if nothing is making you happy or the things that used to just aren't cutting it.
There's not really a short cut for depression or any mood disorder, but many people have and it's possible for you too. Some of the "easiest" (nothing is truly easy when you're feeling as down as you have) is to keep a regular sleep schedule and meal schedule. Meds can help but it takes a minute. It's weird but sunshine and the outdoors can help too.
For gender dysphoria, the treatment is transition - so whatever that means for your gender identity is what you should keep doing and trying to do/experimenting with. Binding if breasts bother/painting toe nails if you wanna femme whatever it is (I didn't ask earlier lol, don't wanna assume) are things that can be done that are more easily hidden if you don't feel safe in public. Having a friend you're out with is great because then you can hang out with them as out as you feel ready for!
I'm trans femme. At least I think I am. I should lose the he/him pronouns.
I actually came out to my friend recently, but I've been out to my wife for a while, so I can be myself at home when I'm not being crushed at work.
I think one issue I have is that often I don't WANT to do those gender affirming things when I feel this way. Probably depression.
Actually, I decided I was going to shave and do my make-up after work today even if I'm still depressed. Even if I don't feel up to it. Thinking about this has made me feel a bit better.
coming out almost always creates a rubber band effect for me. it's like the vulnerability of it all is extremely triggering? and depending on my closeness to the person/people it can take me anywhere between a couple days to a week or two to emotionally recover. i think this is somewhat common bc i've seen trans people on reddit talk about it too
wait is it, like, not normal to not have a sense of self? is the way everyone does things by leveraging a preconceived notion of themselves that includes gender? oh god
I didn't know what I was feeling was gender dysphoria until after I cracked my egg. It was one of the reasons it took me so long (late 20s), I didn't get what people were describing as dysphoria for my life. Of course looking back, I totally did and there were plenty of signs. But at the time I didn't know.
You're allowed to experiment and see what makes you happy! If it gives you euphoria, do it. You don't have to put a lable on it right away, lables are mostly for medical stuff anyway like HRT or whichever surgeries.
I came out to my friend this past weekend, and it was easily one of the happiest days of my life. I was euphoric all day, and it felt like my entire life fell into place.
Every day since then, I've been deeply depressed to the point where I don't even want to be awake. I don't know why, and I don't know where my happiness went or if it's even true anymore.
Edit: sorry to dump. That kind of just fell out of me. Thank you for your experience
That's so awful, I hope things brighten for you soon. Between dysphoria and depression, there's obviously a lot of interplay. Being that down for over a week sounds more like depression to me judging by the bit you've said here. Especially if nothing is making you happy or the things that used to just aren't cutting it.
There's not really a short cut for depression or any mood disorder, but many people have and it's possible for you too. Some of the "easiest" (nothing is truly easy when you're feeling as down as you have) is to keep a regular sleep schedule and meal schedule. Meds can help but it takes a minute. It's weird but sunshine and the outdoors can help too.
For gender dysphoria, the treatment is transition - so whatever that means for your gender identity is what you should keep doing and trying to do/experimenting with. Binding if breasts bother/painting toe nails if you wanna femme whatever it is (I didn't ask earlier lol, don't wanna assume) are things that can be done that are more easily hidden if you don't feel safe in public. Having a friend you're out with is great because then you can hang out with them as out as you feel ready for!
Thank you :)
I'm trans femme. At least I think I am. I should lose the he/him pronouns.
I actually came out to my friend recently, but I've been out to my wife for a while, so I can be myself at home when I'm not being crushed at work.
I think one issue I have is that often I don't WANT to do those gender affirming things when I feel this way. Probably depression.
Actually, I decided I was going to shave and do my make-up after work today even if I'm still depressed. Even if I don't feel up to it. Thinking about this has made me feel a bit better.
coming out almost always creates a rubber band effect for me. it's like the vulnerability of it all is extremely triggering? and depending on my closeness to the person/people it can take me anywhere between a couple days to a week or two to emotionally recover. i think this is somewhat common bc i've seen trans people on reddit talk about it too
Thank you. This makes me feel a lot better, and I can brace for it now
I'm actually feeling much better today
wait is it, like, not normal to not have a sense of self? is the way everyone does things by leveraging a preconceived notion of themselves that includes gender? oh god