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I have barely watched Breaking Bad
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Let's have another good week everyone 
It still manifests. It's a tendency of my mind to try to protect myself from bullying, shaming, and harassment for being feminine. It's a maladaptive coping mechanism that comes with gender dysphoria, chronic body tension, vulnerability to brain worms, and disassociation. The energetic intention is good (to protect us from harm), but it's not a very enlightened part.
I get this. For me being a boy feels safer cause like I don’t care about manhood so if I “fail” at being a boy it doesn’t matter and it’s almost like boy-me isn’t the real me so I’m not as vulnerable and what people think of me doesn’t matter as much