More people have begun trying to gender me correctly at work, and it's very nice. There's one coworker in particular that's been absolutely wonderful about using the name I requested and using fem coded language. It felt so unbelievably nice when she gave me a copy of something I had asked for in the group chat and right at the top of the page was my name hand written. Idk it's such a small thing but it felt so nice.

Also, I made a key for my midterm review in the cute handwriting I've been working on and I had a student compliment my handwriting and uhhghghghghghghgh no one's complimented my handwriting before!!! People have made neutral remarks about my old handwriting, like how it's very tall and skinny and consistent, but no one has ever just told me they liked it until now. It was neat being on the other end of that, since I've told soooooo many women I loved their handwriting lol.

Also also, I'm not so sure about the idea of calling my birth name my deadname. I think I still like it and might end up wanting it as my middle name, even if it's kind of aggressively masc. I say that, but it might be my extreme sentimentality talking. I mean, I literally still tell people my favorite color is green even when it isn't, because I considered it my favorite color for so long and it feels weird to just sort of ditch it. So it's very likely that the same kind of thing is happening with my birth name, where I don't actually like it that much, but the sentimentality makes me feel like I'm losing something by giving it up. I will say that my chosen name has all of the components that I like about my birth name, but has the additional benefit of my liking the name itself. I wish I could share my name with you all, because it's sooooooooo cute.

As soon as I consider the thought of making my birth name my middle name, I'm immediately smacked with the realization that I could instead pick something cute as my middle name and that already sounds much more appealing to me. This whole time I've been simping over the overwhelming cuteness of the first name I've selected, but neglecting the reality of a whole ass other name I can consider.

This post is a bit of an amalgamation of various random ramblings haha. Perhaps I could have made each of them their own post to boost our post count...