(i ripped this off wikipedia real fast so sorry if it's lib)
In October 1776, the Public Universal Friend contracted an epidemic disease and was bedridden and near death with a high fever. Their family summoned a doctor from Attleboro, six miles away, and neighbors kept up a death-watch at night. The fever broke after several days. The Friend later reported that [deadname redacted] had died, receiving revelations from God through two archangels who proclaimed there was "Room, Room, Room, in the many Mansions of eternal glory for Thee and for everyone". The Friend further said that [deadname redacted]'s soul had ascended to heaven and the body had been reanimated with a new spirit charged by God with preaching his word, that of the "Publick Universal Friend", describing that name in the words of Isaiah 62:2 as "a new name which the mouth of the Lord hath named".
From that time on, the Friend refused to answer to their deadname, ignoring or chastising those who insisted on using it. When visitors asked if it was the name of the person they were addressing, the Friend simply quoted Luke 23:3 ("thou sayest it"). Identifying as neither male nor female, the Friend asked not to be referred to with gendered pronouns. Followers respected these wishes; they referred only to "the Public Universal Friend" or short forms such as "the Friend" or "P.U.F.", and many avoided gender-specific pronouns even in private diaries. When someone asked if the Friend was male or female, the preacher replied "I am that I am", saying the same thing to a man who criticized the Friend's manner of dress (adding, in the latter case, "there is nothing indecent or improper in my dress or appearance; I am not accountable to mortals").
editorial note: I think this is a very cool story and I really love hearing it. We've been around forever and we've been doing variations of this forever. It's really beautiful
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I don't know why this is the case, but I hate how hard calling myself a woman is. Maybe with time/transition progress it will be more natural feeling? I definitely want to be, so I guess I am, idk it still feels wrong.
What happened? I remember a few months ago you really liked the term and didn't consider transfem or other queer stuff useful to you. It was all woman all the way!
I have no idea what is happening to me anymore. I remember really liking woman/girl. I don't like feeling disconnected from that. I can't think of a (good) reason. I don't feel it. I don't look at myself and think woman. I don't know. I'm having a hard time feeling like a woman lately. I don't know if its in like a not enough gender affirmation way, but also someone calling me a woman would feel off...
I know this is disjointed, I'm having a hard time explaining or even really understanding.
I get you
No, I understand completely. I was having the same issue lately. Not feeling it. Earlier, I made a post that mentioned that I want to want to transition, but sometimes I just can't bring myself to see it, and I confuse this with disinterest.
For what it's worth, actually taking steps to transition has alleviated this. Coming out to people, wearing fem stuff more often, doing voice training, hair removal, hearing my new name, etc.
I figure all of this trans stuff is sitting in your head but without any actual changes, it feels stagnant. It can be depressing