I feel you. I'm a Gender non-conforming guy. Before I discovered my gender identity, I was actually known for my beard. It was real weird for people once I started cutting it off.

My face, in particular, would cause me major dysphoria, especially after shaving. I felt like I really needed to femme it up to achieve gender euphoria and it just wasn't happening.

These days, I keep some very short facial hair, but I wear mostly women's clothing. If you would have told me that would happen years ago, I wouldn't have believed it, but after years of trying, I finally found a look that works for me, and everyone else likes it, too.

This is all to say that you have a long period of experimentation in front of you. You're probably gonna feel like shit now and then when a new gender expression doesn't work out the way you like. Try to keep in tune with what you actually like instead of what you think you're "supposed" to like. It'll save you a lot of stress. Eventually, you'll find and love it

Wish you the best!