That's the thing about all this. It's very clear that she's sacrificing her core beliefs (which is strange to me considering we're poly) for my "happiness." It's like, which one do you want it to be? Either way, I'm not coming out on the other side of this tunnel feeling any good about this whole situation.

ngl, moments like this make me feel like she's either settling for me for whatever reason or using me for life stability. I really wish I could say this was the first time something like this has happened.

And thank you for the kind words as well. I hope that I can stop feeling shame over this whole ordeal. It's got me all fucked up.