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I have a total of like 3 years' worth of memories of the past 15 years of my life
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Effects_of_stress_on_memory
I think that's also because we are post history. Nothing will happen again that doesn't fit a template we're accustomed to.
Sometimes I get creeped out by how little I remember of certain eras, but then it's like, do I really want to remember extra details about the months of laying in my college dorm room with roaches darting across the bed?
the Chad living in the moment vs the virgin continuity of consciousness braincel
I have almost no memories of my childhood. I don't know what happened then - I don't think it was that bad.
Anyway, who knows.
Trauma does this too. I feel like I was born the year I left home because my memories prior to that point could fit in a three minute video. And it took me two years past my move out to realize that my childhood was not, as I believed, "perfect in every way."
If you're wondering if you've got missing memories due to trauma, check where the holes are. The brain hides the parts that you can't cope with. The few memories I have from my childhood are at school because most of the abuse was at home.
I don't think days blurring together is necessarily depression. It's just that life is "go to work, come home, sleep. Go to work, come home, sleep." cycle that everything blurs together on that front.
Depression (and Anxiety?) DOES have an effect on memory, though. The "go into a room and forget what you were going to do there" type of memory. It's linked to Alzheimer's.
I have flashbulb memories of the past, but a lot of it is just this blur. It all sort of melts together and it's hard to tell what was real and what is just my brain filling in the gaps. Certain traumatic moments in particular, where remembering the time someone hurt me makes me feel like I'm making it up.
