I know I just made a post about male failing in the last mega, but it happened again today and when I got home I started crying from happiness.
I was specifically wearing a sweater and jeans from my old, male life, and no make-up, because I was at the post-office picking up a package addressed to deadname and I was worried they would need ID, so I wanted to appear male. Everything is normal until I give my signature, then the guy looks completely confused and asks "deadname is you??", and I realise he thought I was picking up the package for someone else, and I have to explain that it is in fact me and I didn't write the wrong name.
At first I was like why the fuck would this guy be suprised I'm the package recipient when I'm the one picking it up???, then in about a minute I realised it has to be because he thought the name didn't fit me, which could pretty much only be because of gender.
When it happened once last week it could have been a fluke, but now it happened a second time just days later and it feels like it can't be a coincidence. I read so many places to keep your expectations in check and that often you won't see too many changes from HRT until at least 12 months, but it hasn't even been 12 weeks yet. And while I know timelines are very individual, I just internalized that it would take a long time for me because I didn't want to be let down from high expectations, and now I don't know how to deal with this insane amount of gender euphoria.
I know I just made a post about male failing in the last mega, but it happened again today and when I got home I started crying from happiness.
I was specifically wearing a sweater and jeans from my old, male life, and no make-up, because I was at the post-office picking up a package addressed to deadname and I was worried they would need ID, so I wanted to appear male. Everything is normal until I give my signature, then the guy looks completely confused and asks "deadname is you??", and I realise he thought I was picking up the package for someone else, and I have to explain that it is in fact me and I didn't write the wrong name.
At first I was like why the fuck would this guy be suprised I'm the package recipient when I'm the one picking it up???, then in about a minute I realised it has to be because he thought the name didn't fit me, which could pretty much only be because of gender.
When it happened once last week it could have been a fluke, but now it happened a second time just days later and it feels like it can't be a coincidence. I read so many places to keep your expectations in check and that often you won't see too many changes from HRT until at least 12 months, but it hasn't even been 12 weeks yet. And while I know timelines are very individual, I just internalized that it would take a long time for me because I didn't want to be let down from high expectations, and now I don't know how to deal with this insane amount of gender euphoria.
Nothing ever feels better than malefailing in the old zero effort dude clothes imo.
Manifesting even more gender euphoria for you!
Yeees, I need all of it
Let’s gooo