I've noticed that in recent months it takes me hours to get started on work each day. Like, I might try to start at 7:00 but I'm not really getting much done till like 10:00 or 11:00. It's a problem since I'm paid piecemeal and not hourly, so the sooner I start the sooner I get done (and I want to be done as soon as possible). But I find that I spend so much time screwing around in the morning. Eventually I do get going and I'm pretty focused. But the first few hours are rough. Every day I kick myself for not getting started sooner, and every day I repeat it.
It's not depression. I do (relatively) enjoy the work I do. My current theory is I'm just majorly sleep deprived (I have little kids), so my brain is kinda mush and unfocused when I wake up. Curious if anyone has any ideas or if you have something similar going on.
Have you been assessed for ADHD?
I have ADHD and was diagnosed as an adult. When I'm not medicated it's kind of like I have too much inertia, it takes forever to start on tasks and it's really hard to stop when I want (I can sit on the couch playing a game I can pause at any time, recognize that I'm hungry or thirsty or have to pee, and still not get up to address it for an hour)
I also have a really hard time deciding on things like what to have for dinner, i have a hard time sticking to a schedule or keeping a calendar or remembering tasks, and i have trouble estimating or keeping track of time. I also tend to focus much better if I've had stimulants like caffeine or alcohol (or the fun drugs that I'm now prescribed), and I have a very hard time forming new habits
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I feel the exact same way. If I don't get my funny drugs my brain is like an engine that won't start whereas I can actually get shit done (both the shit I have to do and the shit I want to do) if I'm medicated. It's not a miracle cure and I still have times when my brain just grinds to a halt but it's much less than before.
Drugs are good. You should do them.
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