Had to lie to fam that I was def going out and meeting my old school friends cuz my family is going out to a boomer party and I don’t wanna go there but they wouldn’t let me be home alone.
for what it's worth, anyone that knows all the lyrics to escape from the city is cool with me
You got a good streak going there comrade. Keep it up (unless you don’t want to, in which case :meow-hug: )
My partner and I are going to an all you can eat sushi place and then hopefully doing some kink (:volcel-police: in shambles:) I cut most of my friends off a few months ago, a few of them were "socialist lite", but one has a Zionist roommate who kept popping up at group hangs and another was fucking a cop and it just made me angry to be around them.
I've heard first responders and bar staff call it amateur hour. People who usually don't drink much suddenly drink way too much.
It’s wild how there are so many lonely people. Like, it seems like a fucking contradiction.
Capitalist alienation is a hell of a drug
Also never learning proper social skills as a kid and feeling woefully inadequate and hollow inside when I'm around other people
Find a local anime or RPG group on meetup. As it’s a mix of awkward or those who tolerate.
There's like one meetup group for D&D near me and they meet when I'm at work
Out here it's mostly whitebread boomer shit and everything closes at 9 PM
Going to karaoke once a week with coworkers gives me an hour drive home and gas is expensive
So even with my social skills training I paid good money for (it did in fact work) my prospects are limited, I don't seem to have anything substantial in common with anyone irl except for one real friend I can see in person.
There was also a good chunk of years where I had given up on life entirety so it can make for very awkward conversation, diving into that part of my past where I felt like a prisoner of life itself and I longed for death but refused to give it to myself and hated myself all the more intensely for it. I don't have many positive things to say about my own life other than "it's been looking up lately"
People like small talk. Low-level social bonding without much emotional or intellectual investment. It's rude to rush to the oasis of social contact and drink greedily from it like a man crawling in from the desert. But Jesus fucking Christ am I thirsty. I've been deprived of basic social contact by my poor communication skills for so long I don't know what to do or talk about, and riding the vibe can only get you so far.
I crave something deeper but don't know how to begin seeking it. Desperation is a social turn-off. So is being hyperactive and impulsive, my two most consistent traits. Inattentiveness, also a turn-off. So starting on the back foot already. People talk about taking risks, making yourself vulnerable, but blind trial and error has left me with a lot of scars, and risk does not necessarily correlate with possible reward. Running into traffic is pretty risky, after all.
The entire point of geek culture is to have that shallow shit to talk about with strangers/near strangers.
I just don’t know what to say. Shit sucks.
Not to be snobbish but a lot of geeks have awful taste too. Pure Bazinga brains who think more lightsabers = more awesome
I am super picky with media but try to take a "okay sounds cool man" approach to stuff that doesn't interest me now
So even with my social skills training I paid good money for (it did in fact work)
Was this therapy? Or something else? Just wondering because I think my social skills are below average
Social skills coaching in a group setting over Zoom. Really helped me pinpoint the rough spots in my presentation and conversational skills. Practice is super important for this shit. And other adults are, by and large, unwilling to the point of hostility to tolerate someone who's figuring out the ropes after missing out.
So having a safe space to practice with targeted feedback from a professional was really helpful in building up my confidence for a basic conversation.
But now I don't want a simple conversation, I want to build relationships, and I'm still struggling so hard on that.
If I go out and do literally anything someone else I know is doing, I have 75% chance of relapse :deeper-sadness:
I've always felt very much like a peripheral friend, I have people around me but when it counts, when people have their inner circle, I'm not in. I spent a lot of new years alone.
So this year I'm alone by choice a little bit, just felt right. Might volunteer with a suicide hotline or just get high.
i was going to get up to my usual Antics™ this new years, but because of ridiculous inflation, i'm going to spend it getting hammered on discord lmao
two rum and cokes at my usual bars would buy me an entire bottle of rum from a shop
shit's getting insanei will miss having a :train-shining: run on me though :sadness:
sadly i can't blame it on the senile old fuck
am english so it's the tory pricks for me
it's sunak's fault i won't have my bussy blown out by strangers tonightThe Anglos are just a part of the Amerikkkan empire tbh.
i will miss having a :train-shining: run on me though :sadness:
I know that feeling
i'm going to be working, which is pretty normal for me at this point :shrug-outta-hecks:
I was gonna go somewhere tonight, like see a show or something, but I'd probably leave early and barely talk to anyone. I'm still afraid of covid and I don't have any local friends, so it's not so bad. I wanna work on my art projects tonight anyway, since I finally got time off work.
Alone but not lonely. I'm going to enjoy a whole day of peace without my housemate or work up in my business.
:soviet-heart:
I'll be with family but I can recall plenty of New Years Eves alone. It's not fun.
Here's to a future for humanity where we in socialism we discover real community and our common humanity, so no one ever has to feel like they're walking alone.
no one ever has to feel like they’re walking alone.
Socialism is that one English football club. :rat-salute-2:
My old school friends are having a party as we have every year since highschool. My family and I won't be going because we're all sick but I think I'm relieved, I'm just not feeling social lately
I’m just not feeling social lately
Same. But “lately” for me has been my whole life lol.
I got laid off from my job earlier this month and am in a new city to begin a new job. It’s a city I’ve never been to and know no one in. I’ve had to move around so much this last decade. I just wish I could be in one place long enough to put down roots. I was able to make friends and have a community in my last city, I saw myself buying a home and moving in with my girlfriend, but I guess I have to just focus on what’s ahead and make the best of it now.
