I'm depressed 😞

      • ButtBidet [he/him]
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        5 months ago

        Wow that is rough. You do deserve your own space. Is this just temporary? I know that it's tough economically.

        • FearsomeJoeandmac [he/him, he/him]
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          5 months ago

          Yeah I'm not the happiest when I'm here. (Can't exactly invite women over to mommy's house) and I just feel directionless everytime I end back up in the guest room.

          I'll break out again. Just may take time.

          I'm not ashamed I'm struggling because it happens, it's just irritating and makes shit difficult ofc.

          • ButtBidet [he/him]
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            5 months ago

            When I'm home, I'll fall into exactly this pattern. And I'm fucking middle aged. Solidarity, comrade.

              • ButtBidet [he/him]
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                5 months ago

                What would Stalin do?

                https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/1907_Tiflis_bank_robbery

                spoiler

                j/k, please don't go to jail

                  • ButtBidet [he/him]
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                    5 months ago

                    Agreed. Still, you shared the same experience as the greats (Lenin, Stalin, & the left newspaper guy)

                      • ButtBidet [he/him]
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                        5 months ago

                        I've been in jail a few times for protests. Never prison. Probably lucky that I'm 200% white, and this was war on terror times, before the West ratcheted up the repression.

                        • FearsomeJoeandmac [he/him, he/him]
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                          5 months ago

                          Im lucky in that regard as well. Or at least that I'm white adjacent (mom is native american, dad's white dude)

                          I Also grew up in a comfortable lower middle class household and area.

                          Either way both certainly have saved my ass in this suburban white shit hole. Seen black dudes get railroaded in this court system unfortunately

                          • ButtBidet [he/him]
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                            5 months ago

                            Ya one of my white as fuck friends from school got arrested for possession of hundreds of pills. Another had multiple arrests for not small amounts of coke or weed. Neither fucking went to trial. Granted they didn't deserve prison (although they were both massive knobs), but it still shocks me to compare the stories of way more innocent non white people.

                            • FearsomeJoeandmac [he/him, he/him]
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                              5 months ago

                              Yeah that's how it goes unfortunately. They don't ever come out and say it, but the court systems are biased against non-whites and especially black people.

      • AndJusticeForAll [none/use name]
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        5 months ago

        Same. I got fired a couple months ago now and had to move back in. Although my parents are basically emotionally separated from each other, don't talk to each other, and my dad's living in a camper trailer in the front lawn. So it's almost like I live alone most of the day. Don't think I'm going to get out of here though, society's current operations are shoving me down into being jobless and poor and I can't really bare to resist it anymore. Could barely get dates or romantic interest before IRL so I'm straight-up giving up on that and having that stuff off my mind's going to be nice. Really want to get back into being creative with either music or drawing but I'm too depressed or unmotivated to do anything like that.

  • Red_sun_in_the_sky [any]
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    5 months ago

    :( I hope it gets better for you, I've felt that way for almost 10 years now.