My mom telling me I goaded my brother to dress up as a girl when I was 4 so my sister could have another sister to play with - also I dressed up as a girl. I don't know why I also had to convince my brother to do it lol

When I was young I was always grossed out by my penis, it felt weird and wrong. I didn't understand it at the time but eventually I realized why. I never had any urges to wear lipstick or makeup though, I actually hate makeup, and don't really care for wearing dresses or feminine clothes. I thought I was a weird person because of it, and it's part of the reason I was stuck in denial as long as I was. Thankfully I was able to break the egg, come out, and eventually get on DIY HRT (my doctors refused to prescribe it to me because I wouldn't "dress as a woman" like they wanted).