Hello comrades and welcome to the first megathread of November! 
It's a good time to set your intentions for the month.
As usual, some discussion ideas:
- Do you have any goals or plans for November?
- Do you want to share something you've done in the previous week? Everything counts, nothing is too small.
- Do you have any streaks? For example, "sober for one day." Feel free to post your streak every day in this thread.
- If you don't have a continuous streak, did you manage to abstain from something for a day or more?
- Did you come across some useful information or resource that might help others?
Poster caption: "Criticize the old world and build a new world with Mao Zedong Thought as a weapon"
Top right corner: "All erroneous ideas, all poisonous weeds, all ghosts and monsters, must be subjected to criticism; in no circumstance should they be allowed to spread unchecked."
(凡是错误的思想,凡是 毒草,凡是牛鬼蛇神,都应 该进行批判,决不能让它们 自由泛滥)
Good luck with your goals! 
End of the year coming up fast my goal of doing a pull up I think on track, been hanging in there to get my body used to it while doing I guess incline pull ups.
diet
I'm still not calorie counting since that's too much brain work but I am dealing with hunger better through out the day and some nights going to sleep hungry. Family says I'm slimming down but I don't see it, still as long as I don't overeat I should get there. Might try Intermittent fasting again since I got good results last time I did it.
Also might have a job coming up, place my mom works is having a shortage of people and they taking anyone with a pulse. It'll be seasonal but hell I'll take it, lot of places here haven't called me back and I'm tired of doing so many personality/career quizzes for nothing when applying.
End of the year coming up fast my goal of doing a pull up I think on track
OKAY NOW @Wmill pull up!!
roll call
@SeventyTwoTrillion@hexbear.net
@TraschcanOfIdeology@hexbear.net
@LGOrcStreetSamurai@hexbear.net
@Tomorrow_Farewell@hexbear.net
If anybody else wants to be added to the roll call, just let me know
This week has been a mixed bag for me. I had a few days where I didn't drink at all. I also had a few days where I started drinking basically as soon as I woke up and didn't stop until I fell asleep. Falling off the wagon is difficult because all of my worst habits feel like they got dialed up an extra notch or two. I've been entertaining the idea of smoking weed again to stop drinking but I can't tell if I'm just deluding myself to start smoking weed again after ~8 months. On one hand, when I smoke I don't drink anymore and I'm genuinely worried that I need the assistance. On the other hand, is this just falling off the wagon v2? I guess I'll see how well I do this week to know if I need the help or not.
On a positive note: I've been lifting more. I often forget how strong I actually am. Turns out having a physically demanding job just naturally builds muscle over time. I weighed myself at 195 the other day, which is the most I've literally ever weighed. Most of my gains are probably liquor weight and cooking at home more. But I still have a 4 pack bordering on a 6? I still have cum gutters? I just need to get my shit together on the drinking and keep lifting and I'll be my goal of a Communist himbo.
I went running on one day and hiking with a comrade this week.
Made a bomb-ass lentil and chickpea stew for today and the next 3 days 
I got my old account banned for something stupid, I'm not sorry, the mod got their feelings hurt and powertripped. I dont care if what I said was stupid, it wasnt bad enough for permanent ban.
Technique:
[ ] Pinky Middle Finger 75bpm. Rhythm scale.
I'm trying to diagnose whats up with my left hand, not strong or even enough, so I'm trying to get the stick stroke to stabilize by omitting certain fingers.
[ ] KRKR 60bpm. Rhythm scale.
Kick Right hand x infinity. I can do RKRK up to 90 but it seems like one of those things you need to put years of daily effort in to master. Even to be able to do it correctly takes a few years of deliberate study of the limbs.
Brush Groove:
[ ] Groove with Backing Track
The new pattern i'm using sounds good but the comping I realized isnt in the pocket so I need to shed it. When I comp, i prep the motion for too long and it stretches the beat out and makes it feel heavy.
Groove:
I'm working with a bass player every weekend to get better at playing time. I took a lesson and the guy talked about feathering which I'm taking very seriously now. It grounds the beat. It shouldn't be heard, only felt. Luckily for me, I've spent nearly three years isolating my foot technique.
[ ] 15BPM. Click is the one of every 2 bars. Feathering and hihat only.
[ ] 15BPM w cymbal.
[ ] 20 BPM. Click is every 1 bar. Feathering+HiHat.
[ ] 20BPM w cymbal.
[ ] Play time with backing track, feather. @ 195
[ ] Backing track 215
[ ] Backing track 75
My two feel sucks.
[ ] 120 BPM, click on upbeats. 2 feel.
[ ] 30 BPM. Click on 1 and then 4.
Transcription:
I feel like I got PJJ ride cymbal sound down. I'm also learning a couple of choruses of PJJs comping language.
[ ] Philly Joe Ride Cymbal - Pot Luck 0:14-49
[ ] Comping Pot Luck 0:14-49
Active Listening:
[ ] Suggested Albums
Were listening to Everybodty Digs Bill Evans
Tune Learning:
[ ] Skylark
Oh man, this wasn’t a good one. Drank way too much caffeine and fucked up my sleep as a result. Didn’t manage to leave the house 3-4 days, at least spread out. Did a depression porn binge. Had a shit-ton of anxiety. Executive dysfunction. Got stuck fiddling all night very haphazardly with a useless, irrelevant, stupid and annoying little tech project. Ate shitty luxury food all week because it was on sale and I have no self-control.
I did however manage to do some shopping, and went for walks, 2 proper and 3 short, and did some laundry and vacuuming.
I’m gonna really try to get my thick skull that a slow morning doesn’t necessarily have to mean I can’t try to salvage something of the rest of the day.
Pulled back just a bit on gym visits this week and opted to workout at home for the most part. Weight has been trending in the right direction for a couple weeks now.
Looking to keep the momentum I've had going with my crush going. We both like baseball and we were texting while the playoffs were going on and it was a lot of fun. But now that the season is over I really want to do my best to keep getting to know her. We have a date tentatively set up for this upcoming week.
I'm still getting my teeth kicked by life. However, I remain resolute in that I will find positive way forward. I'm not in grave or dire condition or anything like that, but things just aren't going my way the last 30 days or so. Regardless, I'm going to find a way forward, a way to grow stronger from this. I'm not gonna get salty from my negative experiences anymore. I'm going to take the L (though to be frank I'd like the L taking part to be over
), examine the L, reflect on the L, study the L, harness the hidden power of the L, and ultimately turn it into a W through the alchemy of optimism. It's kinda corny, but I have really been on some "yeah shit is bad, but I'm not gonna give into that" wave. Not sure why or what, but I'm determined to become greater than my conditions. Am i romanticizing my own misfortune? Maybe. However, I think it's truly good to see yourself as the hero and overcoming the bad stuff without becoming a bad person is rad to me. Don't get me wrong I love being a hater, but I'm done hating on me.Corvo is technically a fed, but I love him anyways. The art/visual/city design of Dishonored is unmatched. Love those titles so much. They are in my journal of games I want to take influence from in my hobby development for sure.
hope it's clear from here on
