Me while explaining where I post to a normal person
That's whats cool about this place. It's got that sense of web 1.0 comradery and weird and wonderful personalities. Shit you don't find anymore in the atomized hellscape of web 3.0
But if we don't record every post in an expensive to hash blockchain how can we have trust among one-another!?
BTW, I have a
picturehashed URL to sell you. Act fast, because the prices are only going UP!
i had a therapist that told me to leave you guys so I left the therapist. edit ok i left yall first but I came back!
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You think just flowers can make it up to me? I still don't forgive you
Was life better when you were not using hexbear? Sometimes I think of all the time I spend on here and think it's a waste, even though I mostly use the website at work and at like 2am when I have a midnight snack lol.
I mean I spent more time on tic tok and tumblr instead which was far far worse for my mental health, and when I wasnt on social media at all life got kinda boring and i was just as depressed. also I tried "being less angry" (thats what the white therapist told me to do at the time) during this time, I stopped reading the news in general , tried to "focus on real life" which yeah nothing is better for my mental health than going to leftist stuff and being around people who think im cool and smart and not crazy. but then im still bored the rest of the week and now im ill informed and not mentally stimulated and I was going to dsa meeting and sometimes the people there suck (the men can be gross and chauvinistic). i started going to PSL stuff and Food not bombs stuff, doing mutual aid is truly a game changer, I no longer feel like a useless piece of shit. I came back here at some point and found a very different community. The edgelords and stupidpol types had been purged and everyone was trans now and I re-came out as nonbinary (i was out in high school before irl bullying and the transmedicalist online got to me) so it was an amazing fit. this place is far less toxic before and has AMAZING mods. Now this is not to trash the old sub there was a time where cw suicide ideation
spoiler
I was so hopeless and I made a post on the original sub after bernie lost a second time. I had plans to kill myself they gave me so much hope and encouragement. they called me comrade and told me about all the struggle that has come before and how the fight for a better world isnt over. they legitimately save my life.:::
my old therapist was wrong, yall are great for me especially when my depression hits yall are so understanding. this community has ruined my sense of humor lol. I just also have to do real life things also not being poor and skipping meals in college helped most of all. my new therapist likes yall and calls you my "internet community" and says that this can be apart of a healthy balance and that queer people often have to turn to online spaces and thats ok. also Ill be honest its embarrassing but I used to like, pretend to be a cis man online here and yeah that was bad for my self esteem but its fine because no one misgenders me or calls me a girl on here (and if they do they apologize immediately). the last thing that has been great for me is the block button and my new blocking philosphy, im horrible at disengaging so I now block people when ever I get too heated and unblock them once I forget why I was annoyed in the first place. its a fantastic system. so yeah I love this place and im never leaving. Only thing im struggling with now is that i have moved recently and all the leftist orgs are an hour drive away AND im soooo anxious, like having panic attack anxious, ive been to my local psl once and they are TOO cool man. I feel so awkward, so many of them are bad asses who have actually saved local lives and i have panic attacks when cops follow me in stores, but they THINK IM COOL TOO, they think im so well read and smart and informed about international politics and i cant tell them its just @SeventyTwoTrillion@hexbear.net 's news threads and all of yalls bullying me to read lenin. its artificial coolness. ive been avoiding my therapist because I said I would go again and I still haven't im soooooo anxious and I dont know why. also im off of my anti depressants!
I am glad you are with us comrade
We all "fake" a lot since repeating stuff is what humans do. You don't have to create something out of the void of nothingness, it is completely fine to only know a bit. What matters you do. People like you are making our whole movement more accessible, your lived knowledge is quite important. Being human and having human reactions means you are still a fit in our movement. Our diversity is our strength, our care and solidarity carries us.
Solidarity is the great seamstress
Being off antidepressants cam really mess with you. Mak sure you're not avoiding your therapist because you're worried about being chided
People go off their meds all the time, but you should still check in
Mak sure you're not avoiding your therapist because you're worried about being chided
I totally am its my fault, i crave the approval of an older woman, uhg i should make an appointment.
what is wrong with you? its because my fucking mom died you freak?!
edit: thank you mods that one really got to me.
you freak?!
You can chill out with the ableist language a little...
If you start thinking about time in terms of utility and waste, the capitalists have won.
I dunno, I've talked about us in therapy. I just refer to us as "a little lefty site I help mod"
That would have been way better than the explanation I launched into
"So you know Reddit, right? Okay, so there was this subreddit about a lefty podcast that became a general hangout space for leftists on Reddit. Then it got banned (sees a skeptical look), but not for anything bad; people just kept posting about killing slave owners. Anyway, so then a bunch of people from the subreddit made their own website using this open source software where anyone can hos their own instance. And then the instances can federate with each other so that they can see each other's posts, but we were using an early version of the software so we couldn't do that until recently. So uh, yeah, I post on there. That's where I post."
This is probably slightly condensed actually.
Honestly if I found out someone I knew or met irl posted here I would think they pretty cool.
I've met people who I thought were referencing jokes from here or Chapo, but it turns out it was just generic online leftist stuff.
Kinda put it in perspective for me how we're a little downstream from stuff like leftist twitter
Y'all remember that one post about that person who showed this site to their therapist and the therapist saw the tagline "cum guzzled through a dog's muzzle?"
lol for real I spoke to a therapist ones and I just ended up making him depressed lol. I'm like dude my anxiety issues aren't a disorder, the planet is on fire, my boss is a fascist, I barely have a home and could lose it at any time, and most of my friends are dead, in jail, or turned into reactionaries, and on top of all of that I stumbled into a management position where my entire job expectation is to betray every one of my moral fibers.
He gave me a note to go back to work and was basically like "yeah that's fucked not sure I can help you much besides letting you vent"
People keep telling me it's practically necessary and you discover so much stuff and it feels good to just talk to someone. And yeah, I'm sure that's all true. But my diary fills the same function, and I'm not just vomiting my rather bleak world-view at someone who's no doubt stretched thin as is.
When you just can't cope with your shit on your own anymore, then it's time to go to therapy
Because whatever the alternative is to going to therapy at that point is almost certainly worse than just going to therapy
When you just can't cope with your shit on your own anymore, then it's time to go to therapy
The best moment is before you can't cope with your shit on your own anymore. But when you can't then it sure as fuck is.
after r/CTH was banned, several diasporic communities developed, of which Hexbear is the most supportive of trans comrades.
On
there’s acidmarxism, and the comment section on blackwolffeed, I think there was also a discord.The blackwolffeed comment section is garbage, most of the people there are the sorts we chased out of CTH
AcidMarxism is nice but it's very not-Online, in contrast to the original sub.
There’s a certain lack of self-awareness from a subreddit that’s so self-congratulatory about being not-online.
Look I don't know what "not-online" is actually supposed to mean but I do know that teacher steps in and locks the thread anytime we start screaming at each other, which I certainly don't consider in keeping with the cth ethos.
Gonna start a movement based on reuniting the Chapo Disapora
Is it healthy or unhealthy that Hexbear isn't anywhere near the list of things I ever considered talking to my therapist about
Healthy. But in my defense it came up tangentially while I was talking about other stuff and then I felt obligated to explain
I just did this the other day.
I told her it was an space for inclusivity and zero tolerance against hate. And a cool place for theory discussión + memes.
My therapist said it was awesome to have a place like that on today's reactionary internet.
And then she said I need to log off a little and go to the gym.
The biggest improvement in my mental health was exercising three hours a day and eat stir fried vegetables and green yoghurt for desert everyday for six months. I got high the whole time too and still wound up in the healthiest mental space I’ve known for 20 years with a more positive outlook and material reality than ever before.
Exercising, eating right, drinking water, stop drinking too often, it might not cure 100% of your mental afflictions but goddamn it will help.
Well to provide context it was a period of depression and I wasn’t really seeing friends I was mostly just getting stoned and watching YouTube in the background while reading.
So instead of reading books and YouTubing for 6 hours a day I started riding my bike and after maybe a month of that I 80% cured my depression.
Also I started eating right mostly by buying those frozen bags of ready to cook meals that are mostly vegetables in some kind of sauce (Trader Joe’s style frozen bags) which are cheap tasty and relatively healthy.
Now I’m trying to get myself to do weights.
I wish I started living like this in my early 20s it is the way.
You know what, I'm gonna do that too. Thanks for the inspiration 💪
Hell yeah comrade, glad you found something that works for you
I see it like exercise, good sleep, good food, having enough income / material means to have a good outlook are a good base, but some kind of reflection and therapy and or the complementary usage of medication are what can change our trajectory for the future quite a bit. Yet I wish therapy was as effective as soaps and sit coms do make it look like.
Yeah for sure you are absolutely correct. I don’t at all mean to undermine the importance of therapy and I know first hand how debilitating mental health issues like depression and anxiety can be.
You’re completely correct about the importance if therapy and pills of required, it just bothers me when people dismiss exercise with the “thanks I’m cured” response because even if it’s not a cure, it absolutely DOES help and it helps a lot.
Eat right, drink plenty of water, exercise, get some vitamin D… it’s going to make a big difference.
Edit sorry to be clear I’m not arguing with you xD I’m just ranting
Edit sorry to be clear I’m not arguing with you xD I’m just ranting
Yeah didn't read it as arguing neither
Totally. My therapist ended up telling me how exercise helps a great lot with sadness and anxiety.
My social anxiety is not the same it was when I started the sessions and is now time to take "another step". I'm just "mustering" my strength to start the gym.
Thank you for sharing your experience, it means a lot.
Yeah, she's awesome.
I also think she's hiding her power level.
because i shitpost in the waiting room instead of thinking about things to talk about
actually fuck, i have talked about hexbear in therapy because i recalled a story I told here about failure - I mentioned that the inspiration to remember the story came from "a shitposting forum I spend time on"
I’m sorry, but unless you immediately retract those statements and call for the summary execution of your liberal “friends”, I’m afraid you can’t stay with us.
Me talking to my therapist: "You see, there's this pig that has enormous balls, for breeding purposes, I guess. And the pig takes a dump but the poop doesn't fall to the floor - it stayed on his massive balls."
It did fall off though. And the meaning of that takes a awhile to unpack
I don't understand why you'd tell anyone irl about hexbear, unless you have a good hunch that they also use the website. Though that might be even worse, imagine someone irl knowing about all your posts
so much dirt
tell me what I gotta do to win you back!
im sorry.
Ms therapist, you're fired
