I study computer science and any time I sit down to code, I just browse or watch Youtube. Anything but do the work. Days and even months have gone by like this where I haven't done even an hour of learning. Its tough because in order to code I need to be in front of a screen but my brain refuses to study and just looks for that dopamine hit. My grades have suffered and I feel like a constant failure.
To clarify this is not an effect of the pandemic but has been happening for the past few years.
Have you read up on or talked to a doctor about ADD? I was only recently diagnosed as an adult (27 years old), but medication has helped me a lot already. I’ve had issues with controlling my focus for a long time, but the pandemic really had intensified these issues, which helped push me to seek treatment.
Does ADD randomly pop up in life or is it a chronic condition? For me, this has been a relatively new thing in my academic life. I’ve only noticed it happening since my senior year of high school(I’m in senior year of college rn). Before that, I could focus for hours on end without a hitch.
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Your story is similar to mine. I was diagnosed in my late 20s. When I took my first amphetamine prescription, my brain felt calm and decluttered for the first time in my life; it was an almost spiritual experience. I was instantly overcome with grief for the years of lost potential due to my parents having neglected my mental health.
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Yes! That's what made it spiritual: I experienced mindfulness. Now I understand what the Buddhists were going on about.
My country doesn't have adderall available as a drug. I'll try to find one with a similar formula. Thanks for the advice!
It doesn’t really “randomly” pop up, but certain environments as a child can cause symptoms to not be apparent. With me for example, I enjoyed school as a child, so I didn’t really have to make any effort to focus in class. But as I got older with more responsibilities and pressure, the symptoms became more obvious.
Hmmm when I think about it, I did have moments where I procrastinated a lot in school(submitting reports close to the deadline or sometimes even after, not being able to study for exams in subjects I found "boring") despite my relatively good academic record. I think going to a doctor might be worth it after all if what you're saying is true in my case. Thanks regardless though.
I would, if you have the ability. Inattention can be a symptom of several things, not just ADD/ADHD. But if there's something like that going on to the point where it's interfering with your life, there's someone who's job it is to figure out what's happening and help you fix it.