Good evening comrades, welcome to your weekly mental health thread. How is everyone doing?

  • axont [she/her, comrade/them]
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    4 years ago

    I quit going to therapy a little while ago, probably shouldn't have. My general care physician today said my pulse is way too fast. It's probably a combination of anxiety and way too much sodium in my horrible diet.

    I should probably immediately see a psychiatrist for anxiety. I hate myself more than ever. I can't muster the motivation to pick up the phone and call my insurance provider. My brain always invents the worse case scenario for all possible situations I'm in. I'm living in a near constant state of paranoia and self-loathing.

    I don't have any close friends and don't feel comfortable around other people. Don't have a romantic partner and I'm trying to make peace with the fact that I probably never will.

    Yeah, bad times. Trying to get better.

    • moonlake [he/him]
      hexagon
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      4 years ago

      That sounds very rough comrade. Can you do some self-care? What helps you relax? There's a free app called Insight Timer which has some great guided meditations for anxiety. You don't have to meditate or anything, you can just listen them to relax. I listen to them sometimes and it helps me relax.

      • axont [she/her, comrade/them]
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        4 years ago

        I've talked about it before on this site but I like making music. It helps me feel in control. I also like my cats. They're sweet to me.

        Being around you people helps me as well, despite everything. You're all the first online community I've ever felt at home with and I've cried a few times at how pleasant it is.

        I'll look into a relaxation app or at least scheduling some kind of general relaxation time. I hope you're doing well also