Tomorrow will make my first week of full time girlmoding. Also I graduated college and just moved to a new city.
I want to say that I'm incredibly happy because I've sort of achieved everything I've been working for over the last couple of years. But honestly this is so fucking stressful. Like I'm very obviously visiblly trans still, and my voice is inconsistent, so I have no idea how people are perceiving me. I think I pass to some older people? Most people have been very nice so far, but maybe too nice sometimes? Like I'm pretty sure when a younger person gives me a random compliment out of nowhere it means I got clocked. Idk the uncertainty is very difficult.
But also its weird being away from friends and family. It's far from the first time I've been isolated, or that I've moved to a new place, but it seems different now. Maybe because I've been way more social than normal over the last few months, and that's over now for the time being. Idk my roommate is cool, but he's the only person I really know well here. Also, it's just hard to go from being so busy for the last few months to absolutely nothing.
Also I have have to start my new job while out as trans. Which is terrifying. Like idk I'll feel ok probably once I've gotten started, and my name and stuff is all correct, and I have a general feel for how I will be treated. But the next month or two is going to be rough.
Women compliment each other all the time. Doesn't matter if we're cis or trans, doesn't matter if we get clocked or not, it's just something we do. Not only because it's polite, not only because we've all been indoctrinated by the patriarchy to need affirmation and try to help each other out with that, but usually, most of the time, because we just mean it. The biggest favor you can do to yourself is to learn to take a compliment. You're not exempt from being beautiful just because you're trans, and you don't have to pass for that, either. And honestly, it doesn't fucking matter if you get clocked or not when people are nice and respectful to you. There are people out there who don't mind if you are trans. Tons of them.
Like I'm pretty sure when a younger person gives me a random compliment out of nowhere it means I got clocked.
Why? Perhaps instead they just genuinely like whatever they complimented about you?
It is really stressful to start a job when fulltime like this though, hoping it goes well for you Fwiw, I found most people in a work environment (who aren't utter freaks anyway) won't want to linger on stuff like your gender and will move on without issue. Even working a blue collar job I didn't really have any troubles myself.
It's so nerve wracking starting a job and being out fully for the first time. Getting a bit of day to day comfort back will make things a lot less stressful. It's hard to start so many things at once. Hopeful for you
Tomorrow will make my first week of full time girlmoding. Also I graduated college and just moved to a new city.
I want to say that I'm incredibly happy because I've sort of achieved everything I've been working for over the last couple of years. But honestly this is so fucking stressful. Like I'm very obviously visiblly trans still, and my voice is inconsistent, so I have no idea how people are perceiving me. I think I pass to some older people? Most people have been very nice so far, but maybe too nice sometimes? Like I'm pretty sure when a younger person gives me a random compliment out of nowhere it means I got clocked. Idk the uncertainty is very difficult.
But also its weird being away from friends and family. It's far from the first time I've been isolated, or that I've moved to a new place, but it seems different now. Maybe because I've been way more social than normal over the last few months, and that's over now for the time being. Idk my roommate is cool, but he's the only person I really know well here. Also, it's just hard to go from being so busy for the last few months to absolutely nothing.
Also I have have to start my new job while out as trans. Which is terrifying. Like idk I'll feel ok probably once I've gotten started, and my name and stuff is all correct, and I have a general feel for how I will be treated. But the next month or two is going to be rough.
Women compliment each other all the time. Doesn't matter if we're cis or trans, doesn't matter if we get clocked or not, it's just something we do. Not only because it's polite, not only because we've all been indoctrinated by the patriarchy to need affirmation and try to help each other out with that, but usually, most of the time, because we just mean it. The biggest favor you can do to yourself is to learn to take a compliment. You're not exempt from being beautiful just because you're trans, and you don't have to pass for that, either. And honestly, it doesn't fucking matter if you get clocked or not when people are nice and respectful to you. There are people out there who don't mind if you are trans. Tons of them.
Ok honestly you're so right about this. I'm unironically lucky to get awkward complements instead of be called slurs.
Why? Perhaps instead they just genuinely like whatever they complimented about you?
It is really stressful to start a job when fulltime like this though, hoping it goes well for you
Fwiw, I found most people in a work environment (who aren't utter freaks anyway) won't want to linger on stuff like your gender and will move on without issue. Even working a blue collar job I didn't really have any troubles myself.
It's so nerve wracking starting a job and being out fully for the first time. Getting a bit of day to day comfort back will make things a lot less stressful. It's hard to start so many things at once. Hopeful for you