frankfurt_schoolgirl [she/her]

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Cake day: July 25th, 2022

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  • I think most people absorb a puritan idea of "removed" from society. Even like liberals, queer people, and sex nerds (people into kink) will have a version of this. For the right, it's usually a very misogynistic idea about how female sexuality and anything gay is evil. And this is usually what makes conservatives want to quit porn, though sometimes they won't admit it and they'll talk about like their essence or whatever.

    So like you don't need to quite porn for the right reasons, you can just do it. But maybe spend some time thinking why you want to do it, and if it's because of some idea of removed or shame then you should also think about it you really want to hold those ideas, because they will ultimately make you just as miserable as the porn did.




  • I recently got my passport changed. It was pretty easy besides being a bit expensive, I just bought all of the documents to a post office and had my new one in like 3 weeks.

    I did have the court order, not sure if it can be done without. You could probably use your old birth certificate, the point of that is just to establish citizenship. Tho IMO you should change your birth certificate if your state makes it easy, it will potentially help avoid headaches in the future.


  • I think that "the economy" is both too complicated and too meaningless of a concept for anyone to actually understand, so people just absorb vibes from the media. The idea that a good economy is one where you, personally, are prosperous is pretty foreign. So very little will change for most trump supporters but by next summer they will be totally convinced that the economy is better that it has ever been.

    Uh unless they actually dissolve the federal reserve and go back to the gold standard like it apparently says in project 2025. In that case it will literally cause the collapse of the US empire.







  • frankfurt_schoolgirl [she/her]tofoodMate
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    20 days ago

    I think that large scale yerba-mate production your be an interesting project, but buying a hand grinder, a French press, and some cheap coffee beans might be a whole lot easier. If you don't have time to make fresh coffee in the morning you can prepare cold brew the night before.







  • Also if you do want unsolicited advice, boymoding on hrt is totally fine and will help you. The informed consent clinic do not care what you look like, and will not care if you stop E later. They literally deal with sad masculine presenting trans women every day, you're not special.

    Meeting more IRL trans friends is extremely helpful, and it's what got me to finally end the boymode. Once you make a few, they all introduce you to each other, and you'll end up with many.

    Also, passing is immensely subjective and impossible to achieve without the clocky girlmode phase.


  • Hi, so I really wanted to respond to this because it kind of reminded me of myself. I wrote a bunch of stuff trying to like rationally argue with you that "I feel ok living as a guy I guess as long as I stay busy" isn't a good reason to keep things the way they are. But I think I was actually just yelling at my last self and not communicating well. So maybe I can explain why I feel angry with my past self?

    I think I figured out I was trans when I was 18 and went to college and met other trans women for the first time. But honestly I was completely terrified and buried the feelings for years. I was basically a mess since around the age of 14, but managed to do ok for a bit with a combination of antidepressants and therapy and staying busy. I'm not completely sure about this because honestly I'm wasn't forming normal memories at this time and it's hard to figure out what was actually going on in my head.

    At some point, I basically gave up on ever finishing school. At the same time, I started seriously considering transitioning. I spent the next 2 years or so living in a shitty basement apartment and getting stoned all the time. I would occasionally cross dress or something, but actually starting hrt was way too scary. I wasn't out to anyone irl. I literally cannot remember what I did at this time. I might have played some video games? Years passed, and I got desperate enough that started hrt via an online informed consent clinic. I had one video call with a bored nurse who talked for 20 minutes, it was one of the most terrifying things I've ever done. I took a selfie that day. I look like a horrendously depressed and unmistakably male stoner who lives in a basement and doesn't take care of himself.

    Anyway like 3 years later I have a college degree and a cool job in a nice city. I have a growing group of cool queer friends and we really care about each other. I go on dates now lol. I've grown massively as a person, and honestly if I met myself I would think that I'm awesome. I have actual dreams and goals that I chose for myself, instead of just ambiently absorbing what other people said I should want like I did when I was younger. I don't really pass, but its pretty liberal here and people are chill, and I look pretty cute sometimes.

    But like I'm scared that I'm still the kind of same man who was stuck in the basement unable to make an appointment at the LGBT clinic 5 miles from his house. For one thing I've really been putting off surgery consultations. My friend just got her orchi done and I'm happy for her but it honestly hurts because if I had my shit together I could have done that too by now. I would like ffs someday, but will I be able to do that? Idk I'm still sabotaging myself because it's so easy to just get stuck kind of living, and also because I am clearly terrified of change.

    But also it's not all bad. Like I really did transition eventually. My transition was the hardest thing I've ever done but also the only thing I've ever done that was purely for myself to make myself happy. No one (except a few very real trans girls who would probably not be popular around here judging by the Serano cancellation) will ever tell you that you need to transition. Many will discourage uou. But I did it anyway and now my life is infinitely better and more interesting.