You've started HRT, and that just feels years off for me. There are some people who have been on HRT for years but who have yet to buy any women's clothing or present femme in public. Meanwhile, I've been doing that for years.
I've found the thought of it to be super difficult but if I don't put any effort into it that sounds like it might be me. I absolutely hate being a "man" though so hopefully doing it once will help me do it.
It is really nice watching people do being trans differently though :)
If you're in a good environment, it's going to go like this:
Oh my god, I'm so scared/excited --> nobody is really saying anything, is this normal!? --> hm, the excitement is dying down, maybe I just do this for the thrill --> I'm very calm, not even thinking about what I'm wearing, this feels normal and I love it --> presenting masc now feels harder
I've found the thought of it to be super difficult but if I don't put any effort into it that sounds like it might be me. I absolutely hate being a "man" though so hopefully doing it once will help me do it.
It is really nice watching people do being trans differently though :)
If you're in a good environment, it's going to go like this:
Oh my god, I'm so scared/excited --> nobody is really saying anything, is this normal!? --> hm, the excitement is dying down, maybe I just do this for the thrill --> I'm very calm, not even thinking about what I'm wearing, this feels normal and I love it --> presenting masc now feels harder
At least that's how it was for me