I’ve been feeling very… out of it. Kind of untethered to reality. And that reality includes friends who care about me, it even includes the funny bear website (hence why I haven’t been posting.) Part of it is the fact that I got way hyperfixated, and I turned to that hyperfixation to take my mind off of some shitty life circumstances, but now I don’t know how to pull myself back. Looking in the mirror is so weird because I don’t feel like I’m looking at myself in it, whoever “myself” is; even more than usual. I don’t feel like I’m looking at a real person. Part of me honestly wants to sink into my hyperfixations forever and just drift away from reality and completely into my own mind, but like, I can’t do that. Doesn’t help that I just went through something kind of traumatic and I have no idea how to process it.