god i fucking hate being single and i hate how i can never get an ounce of sympathy for that feeling either. i used to really crave the idea of being in a relationship back in high school but that's because i was trying to experience femininity through someone else and didn't have the emotions to understand that at the time. but now at the age of [too fuckin old to have zero romantic experience], it just fucking hurts feeling how badly i crave any romantic experience and going on E is only making my feelings more pronounced, and dating isn't really an option for me right now because i'm not really at the point to where i feel like i can be out to total strangers so i just boymode through public life right now
I'm so fucking sorry to the girls I crushed on in high school...
fortunately (or unfortunately) i limited it to just the one but good lord do i feel bad for that girl having to cope with that one deeply emotionally unwell neurodivergent "boy" with absolutely no grasp on her endless well of trauma fueled emotions**___**
"of course i want to date girls, they're all so pretty and they look so nice. they look a lot better than i do :(. damn, being a lesbian sounds really nice" <---- extremely cisgender thoughts and not one of a deeply repressed transbian
:meow-hug: I am in a similar boat and literally cannot give you enough sympathy. It sucks so incredibly badly and I understand completely. I'm sorry people dismiss your struggle because it is so real.
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god i fucking hate being single and i hate how i can never get an ounce of sympathy for that feeling either. i used to really crave the idea of being in a relationship back in high school but that's because i was trying to experience femininity through someone else and didn't have the emotions to understand that at the time. but now at the age of [too fuckin old to have zero romantic experience], it just fucking hurts feeling how badly i crave any romantic experience and going on E is only making my feelings more pronounced, and dating isn't really an option for me right now because i'm not really at the point to where i feel like i can be out to total strangers so i just boymode through public life right now
fortunately (or unfortunately) i limited it to just the one but good lord do i feel bad for that girl having to cope with that one deeply emotionally unwell neurodivergent "boy" with absolutely no grasp on her endless well of trauma fueled emotions**___**
Many such cases
Thankfully I turned my first ever partner trans =)
"of course i want to date girls, they're all so pretty and they look so nice. they look a lot better than i do :(. damn, being a lesbian sounds really nice" <---- extremely cisgender thoughts and not one of a deeply repressed transbian
my cis lesbian friend tried to call me out on that pre-egg crack but i was too dense to understand what she meant
:meow-hug: I am in a similar boat and literally cannot give you enough sympathy. It sucks so incredibly badly and I understand completely. I'm sorry people dismiss your struggle because it is so real.
Spoilers for everything, without any CWs because thats very helpful. :))
All of your [age] posting makes you sound IDK I think of you as someone in her 40.