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therapy
I want one of those uh, leftist trans autistic therapists people talk about having. That would be rad. I guess if it's accessible, I've never ever been clear on how to get it.
That's funny wording because I can practically feel my brain releasing the bad chemicals when it happens... But yeah, I dunno where I really got this response set. It's recent I'm certain, and probably comes from when I realised that because I am autistic, there is at any given time several potential layers of subtextual meaning or social connotations running under a conversation, and because I cannot understand them I have no idea when I'm putting my foot in my mouth. Oh my god that still fucks me up, I just do my best not to think about it. Social dynamics is the mind killer!!!! THE MIND KILLER!!!!
I would like it if someone cool helped me therapy that out tbh.
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Yeah, but I worded it that way because I think it's important to acknowledge. The research shows that we feel things like anxiety and depression for a variety of factors, including physical/chemical, but it's rarely one singular thing. Like, most people are prescribed SSRIs with the expectation that they will get off them one day; however, it's really difficult to treat the non-physical factors (are you neurodiverse in a hellish and hostile culture... Uh... We don't have anything for that), so people stay on them for much longer than they want.
I was 100% convinced that I had an adrenal disorder because I would feel electrical shocks shooting through my body at the slightest triggers. I was also convinced that it was being caused by stomach inflammation and other stuff.
Turns out it was mostly my mind manifesting these things in my body. I know it feels like your brain is working against you sometimes, but the truth is these issues are really complex and are very very rarely entirely physical.
Now, I don't know how these things interact with autism, but I'm sure it's a factor in how you perceive social situations. But that doesn't mean they can't be recontextualized.
I wish I could help you find one. Truth is, I just got lucky and got a referral through a friend. I bet with a little research, you can find queer friendly therapists in your area.
More even than that
I see I see, I think I get what you're sayin yeah. I didn't think was exclusively physical so that's good to know, although I want to stop FEELING IT whenever my brain shoots bad chemicals in me :>
I think autism is the entire reason I have anxiety. When I got my diagnosis (from a doctor who was like someone's overly nosy grandmother), the things I described to her were just the same way I process being autistic in social interactions now. Fucked up.
Okay Imma bug my doc, ty