It probably won't work if you're not trans/you don't have this kind of dysphoria. A lot of transmascs report the same effect from getting on T, so it's probably less about estradiol bring the cry-y hormone and more that beginning to correct physical dysphoria connects you to your emotions again

im cis with extremely low t normally that i have to take injections for

so like, if your hormones are really really low it'll suppress your emotions so maybe get that checked next time you get blood-work

might be other drugs for that with less side effects