I had a rough time being isolated for several months on end, especially near the end where I was possibly a hair away from a legitimate nervous breakdown. Even though things have been largely "back to normal" for me since mid-late April, I feel like the effects are still lingering and that I get anxious/depressed more easily than I did before.
I'll be the counter example. I actually went through some heavy depression in 2019 and was on the way back up when pandemic hit. I actually felt better staying at home doing nothing knowing everyone else was doing the same.
Went through something similar with anxiety. Got worse for the first two months of it, but somehow watching society go crazier than I was brought me back around lmao
Does it feel like your world is collapsing now that everyone is "returning to normal," or is that just me? I don't want anybody else to die and I feel absolutely horrible admitting this, but a small part of me felt relieved when people started talking about new strains.
Yes. Big time. I barely give a shit about anything anymore and my life is a cruel farce trying to show up for people despite the fact that I see no future.
It’s why I can’t stand it when people on here are like, “just wear a mask. It’s not a big deal.” Demanding empathy while offering none.
Literally nothing changed about my life except I carry a mask now, but that says more about my life before covid than any kind of mental fortitude lol
I'm sorry comrade. Just venting here but I am so jealous and envious of WFH people during the pandemic. Other than wearing a face mask covid had no effect on my life except being extremely under staffed at work and extremely over worked. Too poor to order Amazon so groceries and so on was the same. I even did alot of grocery packaging for mutual aid networks. I understand and empathize with you but I can't help but feel like alot of people higher up socially or white collar types have separation anxiety from their isolation and I probably would too but also, I have anxiety every day but can't opt out; it's not an option. Again no judgment against you but this is the other side of the coin.
We lost more people to this than ww2 and tbat trauma had a clear end.
We are no where near done and we expect several more bad tbings to happen before the end.
I guess, the appropriate emotion to feel is good that you a have made it this far.
Think he's just talking about American WWII casualties vs American covid deaths, which would be correct. Feels like most of the WWII trauma came from watching your buddies get turned into mist in front of you though and there's not really any perfect parallel to that with covid.
That's the offical count. It is likely closer to 1mil in rela life
Pretty much, flu like symptoms and long term effects, all that jazz. They can estimate it using previous years as a baseline, calling it excess mortality. Here's and article with numbers, even the CDC has an article up about it but they used like deaths per 100,000 instead of totals I think
Much better researched than me. I've kinda stopped bothering to keep up with the horserace of it.
Yeah, bit of everything. Florida both deliberately undercounted and didn't bother checking for cases. Lots of places we wouldn't really have thought about would that as well. I just know about florida because they arrested a state IT person for whistle blowing.
I have seen cases where people died of like, copd, where they wouldn't have died if they didn't catch covid. So yeah, who knows how to properly count that in math.
And then I know of two instances of suiside from people who had othwrwiae been managing before shit got bad. So who knows how revalant or weighted for the data stuff like that is.
So it kinda is a bit just trust me bro. Also also just it being way to hard to form a proper methodology for counting the world falling appart.
Definitely, I find myself getting anxious when I say goodbye to my friends because I worry I'll have to go back to not seeing them for another year
After the pandemic began I started screaming at people in public. Two months ago I started seeing a therapist and either it’s helped, or I’ve been defanged, or both. I’m still angry but I just don’t see the point of yelling at liberals or fascists when I’m basically completely surrounded by these people.
I'm quite certain that I'm just as insane as I was before the pandemic :hahaha:
I think I've gotten a little worse at talking to people/little more socially anxious. Background of my life's been colored by anxiety and depression for years though, so it's hard to say.
I got annihilated. 2019 ended like shit, at around mid year my gf left me in an insanely cruel way... and from then on everything was on freefall. In october I got fired from my job and I had to seek help because my mind was going insane, which to be honest that helped me but then the pandemic hit and we were all forced into lockdown, my social anxiety fired up again as I barely got outside home. I can't find a job, even now, because I'm fucking terrified of everything. Whatever progress I made it's gone, nada, poof.
Life fucking sucks, even more when people around you are doing things and you can't. Hell, I can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore... I can't even feel genuine happiness either, like a week ago I finished my finals with excellent scores and I didn't even smile, it was painful as fuck and it was not even rewarding - I don't even know if I want to continue studying either.., for what? If this society doesn't want historians, "Should have studied Marketing honey".. eat my dick.
Shit's hella dark these days and I feel it crushing me every day...
I feel you man. Though in my case it existed pre pandemic and weirdly the pandemic didn't make it worse but I was also self medicating with benzos so that's a whole other can of worms. But ya the moment you realize you haven't felt actual happiness or pleasure in close to a decade really breaks you down. Even when you achieve big accomplishments or my usually shitty sports teams do well or even when I got fucking married I feel the rememberance of what used to be joy but it feels so hollow and empty and fades so damn quick. The way the pandemic has fucked with me though is despite already despising people as a general rule due to their shittyness it's forced me to actually see and deal with it so I couldn't make up some copium about "I just hate people because I'm depressed". Now it's blatantly clear that I hate people because people are complete shit.
Being stuck with my transphobic parents has not been kind to my mental health.
Sorry. Shit sucks. There seems to be quite a few of us on here if you ever need to talk about it, I've gotten a lot of solidarity in the past on the mental health board here
I've been off-and-on debilitated by agoraphobia for years so I know what you're going through. Don't hesitate to hit me up if you need to vent!
A traumatic experience during the lockdown has regressed my social anxiety significantly
put your fucking hands up
get on out of your seats
all eyes on me
all eyes on me
In Bo Burnums last special, he re-wrote a song about being an attention hog to be about the social anxiety he developed over quarantine.
