Fwiw, it doesn't tend to affect me as much when some weirdo crawls out of the woodwork to call me a "sexual d*gen" or whatever, although I'm way too radicalised to let that stuff impact me so lol.

Mostly though yeah, people would see me say that I'm a lesbian, and the "asexual" label just becomes invisible to them, they assume I'm a sexual deviant and a weird freak. Which I am but not the way they think!

I do, every now and then, still feel a little weird acknowledging that a cis woman is pretty, Idk if that's leftover brainworms or just cause I'm married. Of course, there's literally nothing wrong with you having really strong sexual attraction to women! Cis women are horny all the time too! Women-loving-women is awesome. You are not gross! It's shit how people, even cis queer people, demonise and stigmatise trans women's sexualities. We are allowed to fuck and anyone else who says otherwise can eat shit.