I hope everyone had a great week! Hang out. Chat. Talk about what's going on. Have fun :3
I took in a trans girl who's a refuge from Florida and now she's sleeping on my couch. We've known each other for a while, so I told her she could stay because her other option was apparently living in her car in random northeastern cities. So far, we've gotten along really well, which is good cause I have a little 1 bedroom apartment. She's been through a lot, and I'm not completely sure she's ok, but she has made some progress with job interviews around here, so it seems like she's trying to get established. I'm not really sure how she's going to find another place to live tho, rent is so expensive and such.
On Sunday, I invited my other local trans friends (all two of them) over and we all made dinner together. It was honestly really wholesome and nice. I just want to have a bunch of trans friends and to feed them all tasty meals and take care of them.
That's really great that you were able to help her out. I'm sure that small bit of community means so much to her.
Just got asked if "that transgender stuff" is my mom's fault by her. For context I came out as an IV drug addict and trans at the same time. She was more upset at being trans than me slamming heroin. Thankfully it was ten years ago. Still hurts.
For context it's been 8 years clean of heroin and ten years on hrt
Good news: got my hair cut in a way I generally like
Bad news: sometimes makes me look like Lord Farquaad
Worse news: the job I interviewed for (which precipitated the haircut in the first place) rejected me, although it remains unclear how much of that was due to my Farquaadity
I went to a small robotics tournament this weekend and was worried that making my robots pink, white, and blue with trans flags painted on them might have been a bad idea at such a STEMmy event, but I actually met a couple other really cool trans gals there and my bots got a lot of compliments! The whole community was actually super wholesome in general and there were a lot more women and families than I expected.
It's also starting to get warmer here which is a real double edged sword. Winter means I get to bundle up and hide my dysphoria in oversized hoodies and overalls, but if I feel like dressing up cute I don't have many options. Otoh when it's warm I get to be adorable every day, but if my BDD decides to ruin my day I have nowhere to hide my grotesque body.
Being trans is weird.
I love hoodie weather soooo much why can't it be hoodie weather all the time 😤
idk what kind of robotics you were doing but IME the whole field(? hobby? idk) has gotten very trans lately and I've been loving it
I have the same (sorta) reaction every spring. It takes me a while to acclimate to showing skin, even showing my knees feels awkward after a nice long tundra winter. But every year I figure it out because it beats cowering in the AC 24/7 or overheating in jeans and long sleeves
made a whole 4 sandwiches and 5 little snack packs for me for work this week. this is gender affirming care :)
i know this reads like a shitpost but honestly it took me being nice to myself for the egg to crack after not doing it for over 2 decades. being nice to myself really is gender affirming care, dammit
Just be sure to never stop. Self-care is probably the most important tool you can have.
I apologize for being cringe on this forum before. I strive to be a better poster in the future.
Messed up my T injection so I had to use my back-up ampule. R.I.P.
Also first time going to a psych today. It went a lot better than I expected, probably going towards a legal ID change but I got prescribed Lexapro on first sitting and I am not sure whether I should take it.
CW Voice dysphoria, Verbal abuse
For context, I've done some voice training over the past few years and was really happy about my progress. One night while practicing though my mother was awake when I thought she'd been sleeping and she started insulting my voice. Then in the months after she would consistently yell at me if my voice changed register/pitch even a little bit while talking. I've been unable to do my femme voice without using way too much mental focus since then.
Last night I just out of the blue started crying about my voice and that inability to use it. It's so fucking frustrating to know that I have the ability to do a pretty good femme voice but I just can't use it because of this dumbass mental block. It's not even that I hate having my masc voice; I like having it as a voice, I just hate it being my voice.
I've complained about this to an irl friend before and he just told me how much she loves my (masc) voice. I understand that they meant it as a compliment but I just feel nothing when I hear it. To his credit she seemed to have realised after I explained that it doesn't comfort me, since the last time it happened they just went with an "I'm sorry" which felt better. But people just keep complimenting my masc voice, it genuinely might be the most common compliment I get.
And then I'm stuck here, knowing that I can do a femme voice, having heard and fallen in love with that voice, but I'm unable to replicate it anymore because of some stupid shit my mother said that gave me a mental block. And I just randomly start crying about it sometimes now, I guess.
"[The patient] is currently unsure of her next steps" is a phrase that has stuck with me for a week now. I wouldn't describe it like that, but it certainly feels like a callout and/or cold water to the face. Not in a helpful way either - just annoying, cold water.
Hiii, I hope everyone is/will have a good week. Much love 🥰🥰🥰🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🥰🥰🥰
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I'm a week past my first E injection after switching from pills to IM. I started feeling kinda crappy yesterday but now I'm at work and I feel myself starting to disassociate. My mind feels like it's stumbling or treading molasses. My next injection is on monday and I know i have to be patient but man this sucks
You got this. Stay strong. The first couple weeks on injections are the roughest. Once you get past that, it’s smooth sailing.
I totally had a similar problem where I feel really frustrated, angry, and anxious the day before my injection. I ended up moving the injection day around so that it was a day when I didn't have much going on and it wasn't such a problem if I felt bad. I do think it's getting better now that my levels are more stable tho, so it might just take a couple months.
