Trust me when I say that more than just myself here can say they certainly understand how you feel. When I first considered HRT, I was unsure as well because this is a major decision. One to not be taken lightly. However, with HRT, you will know if it’s right for you long before any permanent changes take place. This is what got me calmed down and let me decide to just go for it. It does take at least a couple months before anything starts happening that you can’t go back from.