It was a little jarring to get together with some of my guy friends and they were talking about weight/lifting and then they started teasing me for being small (I'm objectively not). I never realized how much being large was tied up in masculinity. Like obviously being tall would be, but I didn't realize how much weight was. They all just wanted to bulk up and get huge.
...and I just don't.
cw for body hatred and ED
I'm always missing the days of when I was smaller, even if I wasn't any healthier. I hate how big and gross I feel.
worried about being trans
I'm scared. I don't want to be trans. Why can't these feelings just go away. I don't know if I'm a transwoman but I'm still scared. Why can't I just be a normal guy. I hate society. If it weren't for this FUCKING SOCIETY it would all be okay. I could shave, I could dress how I want, maybe even give hrt a spin. But I can't. Its just too hard. I'm crying. I hate gender. Goodnight Hexbear. Sorry for the trauma dump, this one got out of hand.
It was a little jarring to get together with some of my guy friends and they were talking about weight/lifting and then they started teasing me for being small (I'm objectively not). I never realized how much being large was tied up in masculinity. Like obviously being tall would be, but I didn't realize how much weight was. They all just wanted to bulk up and get huge.
...and I just don't.
cw for body hatred and ED
I'm always missing the days of when I was smaller, even if I wasn't any healthier. I hate how big and gross I feel.
worried about being trans
I'm scared. I don't want to be trans. Why can't these feelings just go away. I don't know if I'm a transwoman but I'm still scared. Why can't I just be a normal guy. I hate society. If it weren't for this FUCKING SOCIETY it would all be okay. I could shave, I could dress how I want, maybe even give hrt a spin. But I can't. Its just too hard. I'm crying. I hate gender. Goodnight Hexbear. Sorry for the trauma dump, this one got out of hand.