You might be surprised what 1,5 years of HRT can do, but yes, absolutely get off reddit, the trans community there is awful and the subs for transition timelines in particular are really bad for dysphoria. I had a legitimate crisis because researching too much on r/trangender_surgeries and seeing all these before-after pics of FFS amplified my face dysphoria to unbearable levels. That gets better when you stop going there, it's honestly shocking how much harm that place can cause.
Media hygiene is a core trans survival strategy in this day and age. If you find that content has a bad influence on you, drop that shit.
As far as finding a trans community irl goes, that can be tricky, but it's absolutely worth it. Nothing helps more than being in a room full of nice trans people, i actually feel normal in such a context. Not hidden in plain sight like when i'm stealth, not in disguise like when i was boymoding, but completely normal just by being my authentic self. That's priceless. But it can take a while to find an org where you fit in. Many of the cool ones do not advertise that much and kinda piggyback on established queer orgs in the area. Check if they're using nonbinary-inclusive language or if they stick to outdated terms like "transsexual" instead, the latter is a pretty reliable giveaway they're truscum. With pride season coming up, you may have more opportunities to find orgs that recruit mostly through word of mouth or by other offline means.
You might be surprised what 1,5 years of HRT can do, but yes, absolutely get off reddit, the trans community there is awful and the subs for transition timelines in particular are really bad for dysphoria. I had a legitimate crisis because researching too much on r/trangender_surgeries and seeing all these before-after pics of FFS amplified my face dysphoria to unbearable levels. That gets better when you stop going there, it's honestly shocking how much harm that place can cause.
Media hygiene is a core trans survival strategy in this day and age. If you find that content has a bad influence on you, drop that shit.
As far as finding a trans community irl goes, that can be tricky, but it's absolutely worth it. Nothing helps more than being in a room full of nice trans people, i actually feel normal in such a context. Not hidden in plain sight like when i'm stealth, not in disguise like when i was boymoding, but completely normal just by being my authentic self. That's priceless. But it can take a while to find an org where you fit in. Many of the cool ones do not advertise that much and kinda piggyback on established queer orgs in the area. Check if they're using nonbinary-inclusive language or if they stick to outdated terms like "transsexual" instead, the latter is a pretty reliable giveaway they're truscum. With pride season coming up, you may have more opportunities to find orgs that recruit mostly through word of mouth or by other offline means.
Yea holy shit I'm so jealous now. :sicko-wistful: