On one side, I want to leave to a western country so I can transition safely, on the other side I kind of don't want to deal with the bullshit of western countries, my degree won't be recognized, the money I had before would be worthless, I don't get benefits of being born there, I lose the benefits I have, I might be dependent on some organization and worst of all it's not like the country would be pro-trans forever, they could just turn around and make it shit for trans people too.