Ive thought like this for a while and still mostly do, but my (new?) instincts have dragged me further along transition at every step, so I trust in that small part of my brain as something i can refer to (to myself or others) as the innate knowledge of my identity. Its still just one part of what feels like multiple layers of subconscious pitted against each other, but its the only one that doesn't feel like a choice to trust in, unlike the ones telling me that i feel worse as I transition. Those I blame on the depersonalization fading and making me actually feel the bad but mundane mental health issues that have been dormant ugh.