I know this is weird but it's not begging for attention it's an existential dread about passing unnoticed. I love you all and I wouldn't want my passing to go unnoticed, like most Americans I don't have adequate access to healthcare and there's more than a few of you whose absence I would mourn. Don't worry I'm not thinking of self harm it's just a thing that I think about sometimes and I feel I'm probably not alone.
You too comrade. You're definitely one of those people whose absence I would notice. Love yall for helping me stay sane. I really started thinking about this after the sudden passing of Michael Brooks (RIP).
Panic Attacks will always trick you into thinking its a heart attack.
Look up CBT techniques online to help yourself get control of them. Controlling breathing is the most important part of getting it to pass quickly.
Good luck anyway and you will get them under control with time.
When I lived alone, I used to wonder how long I could be dead before anyone checked on me. And I have a loving family and good friends, but it's not like I see them every day. So how long would it have taken people at work to go from "no call no show? how irresponsible." to "is she OK?"
My words are starting to fail because I think your post hit me in a way that makes things hard to think. It's hard to explain but take care of yourself. I was gonna originally joke about being like Herman Cain and keep posting beyond the dead but I think that is more a defense mechanism to keep me from thinking about well dying and all.
