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Toyosatomimi no Miko is a character in the Touhou Project series introduced in its 13th installment, Ten Desires.
Miko was once Prince Shoutoku, a Japanese leader in the 600s known for promoting Buddhism and streamlining the Japanese government. In the Touhou lore, she was visited by Taoist hermit Seiga Kaku, who had heard about Miko’s longing for immortality. Seiga introduced her to Taoism, but she rejected it as a religion unfit for placating an entire country. She was intrigued by its promise of immortality, however, and privately converted to it, advocating for Buddhism to keep Japan stable. After drinking an “immortality elixir” (mercury sulfide), however, she was forced to let go of her body and become a supernatural hermit like Seiga, notably taking on the form of a woman, making her a canonically trans character (
).
After convincing a hermit from a rival clan (Mononobe no Futo) to sleep without decaying, Miko followed in suit, waiting for a time where a Taoist Japan would revive her in search of guidance. However, Buddhist monks were able to keep her mausoleum sealed, and the legends surrounding her were slowly brushed off- which led to her transportation into Gensokyo, where the folklore of old is a reality of everyday life.
When she awoke in Gensokyo, it was right after Buddhist monk Byakuren Hijiri opened her own temple, however, leading to a surge of divine spirits across the realm, setting up the events of Ten Desires.
What look like headphones on her are canonically earmuffs- Shoutoku was allegedly able to discern between ten questions asked at once, an ability carried by Miko (although with her enhanced abilities, she can also analyze each person and determine their inner desires (thus the title of the game))- although it means her hearing is highly sensitive and has to be muffled to prevent pain.
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Eh, caffine is caffine lol. I just no longer drink it for taste
But tea is so gooood! I have some rose petal black tea that is absolutely divine
I love some choclate covered espresso beans, theyre dangerous! Ill eat an entire bag in the blink of an eye.
What kind of teas are your favs?
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Id love to make you tea in the morning, just watching out the window, drinking tea
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oh nooooooooooo, i bought a 2,5kg box of those when me and the brother were really into running marathons and longer, ate that shit like candy, wired to hell and back
There's so many good ones! I used to drink a lot of green tea, but these days I've gone fully into black tea. Used to like chai a lot, but it's bit too christmassy to drink all the time, I have some loose black tea that tastes like liquorice and one that tastes like like rum with creamy aftertaste Irish Morning i think it's called
they're so gooooood i brew a 1,5litre pot daily unless i'm too busy and forget.
That rose petal one sounds amazing though, any other kinds you like?
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I love most teas tbh. Black tea is my fav, everything from classic pg tips to fancy lapsang suchong (bbq tea lol). There was this incredible "crem de la earl gray" that had blue cornflowers in it and was so pretty and smooth and tasty
i really like sweet chai when im at a cafe or something, its just a nice little treat :3
I was never super into green tea tho. Like ive had green tea thats good, but it never was like "omg i love this".
I need these in my life, desperately! I love liquorice, and irish breakfast teas are just delish :) but i just make my tea in the cup. i want a big teapot but dont have space for it in my apartments kitchen
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excuse me???
i was one of those freaks who drank plain green tea, it's an...acquired taste, takes a while to start tasting anything besides grass
i bought this one from ikea, and it's just really great, but yeah this stuff takes it's space.
although you could boil the water on the stove if you don't have space for a dedicated kettle.
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Yeah the issue is that we're 5 people sharing a tiny kitchen, we just dont have space for stuff
Thats ok, i like freaky people with strange taste :3 Theres a tea house around here thats really sweet (if often a bit busy)
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oof that sucks, but atleast you have the tea house
hmm my go to shop has this, might have to give it a go. Thank you
well uhh i do have some weird niche tastes at times
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Tell me about them cutie!
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i like to read tarot when the mood strikes me
i have a collection of cat ears, with different colour combinations and beautiful thigh high socks that look like kitten paws
i love keffiyehs and i try to incorporate them into all my outfits
i think i'm collecting plushies at this point, can't leave those lovelies into their shop prisons
i used to run ultra marathons before my achilles tendons decided to both get fucked beyond what rest can fix
and i love reading all the gay slop the internet is willing to give me
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how about you, sweetheart? anything interesting on the horizon?
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Fucking samesies! I need to have the files!
Omg i have such a love/shame relationship with tarot. I havent touched my deck in months, but its also been scarily accurate at times. Part of me really wants to get some of the stranger decks, they have such cool and interpretive art! But then i get ashamed of liking tarot cause idk people always say its shlock and whatnot 🫣.
I dont have any keffiyehs, theyre really cool tho! The one shop i was looking at was backordered and i havent looked since then.
One of my girlydreams is to have the hammoc full of plushies, they can watch over me and get cuddddllleeesss! Ive got some plushies already (wait i wrote about that already didnt i? And you called me adorable
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Woah! Thats intense! Ive never done running like that, i dont think my knees would like it. Ive done a lot of ocean kayaking tho!
And sharing it with all the cute girls in your phone
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Unfortunately no, my big horizon things are boring stuff like "find a job that doesnt destroy my body".
I really like photography, ive thought about offering free photography to trans people so I can hone my skills and hopefully give people images of themselves that they like :3
I love knitting! Its the best thing cause it lets me stim in a socially acceptable way that also ends with an end product! Right now im knitting some cute scrunchy orange legwarmers :3
Im going on my walk now, ill look for your response when I come back :3
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first off, smiling like a goof.
hell yeah, sis. fuck these streaming platform losers
yeah, it's interesting how accurate it is at times, like I'm too much of a commie to fully buy into it, but you need some form of spiritualism and i'm not going back to church to listen to their israel loving sermons. i was given some cute deck suggestions by magi and i cant wait to get more money to actually get them gothic (this one really speaks to me it is so extremely everything i love that it's almost scary)
oh me too, i'm not a full furry or anything, but when i wear the ears i have this sense of completeness. not really interested in the kink factor
i have a lot of thigh highs, most of the truly thigh level ones look pretty meh because my thighs are too thicc, but that's not the worst problem to have 
i had a bunch of fake ones that i tossed away and managed to order three actually palestinian ones (one of them is a rainbow) before they ran out of stock.
oh my god YES, also yeah i called you adorable, sweetheart. cause you are
yeah it used to break my knees, that's the thing about running you HAVE to have strength building exercises too, otherwise your leg muscles wont be able to support you properly and your knees pay the price. Oh kayaking is great! I've done it only once though and i didnt really know what i was doing, but i didnt drown so it's a win
how could i not share the slop when the girls are this cute
flirt hm too late for this spoiler i feel 🫣
i was without a job for a few years, thanks to burning out, so i understand the struggle.
oh my god, sweetie! you're a poet, an aspiring photographer AND you can knit!! leave some skills for the rest of us
do you have any hobbies besides taking walks? by the way, enjoy your walk, sweetheart.
lets be honest, its just all flirt at this point :3
That deck looks so cool! I really like the abstract ones, and theres an abrahamic one i kind of want, but really would prefer one based on more of a feminist midrash or something. Right now ive just got the basic rider-white (spelling?) deck.
This is what keeps me away from trying to find a shul. That and judaism having some really interesting beautiful stuff right alongside some horrible bullshit. But its really dialectical imo, and finding people following the rabbinic tradition to e.g. reinterpret devarim in a trans and gender expansive affirming way is so beautiful. Sometimes i feel like my beliefs are too specific and weird to find any group that fully expresses them or can join me in my weirdness.
Me neither, but also all the furries ive met have been absolutely wonderful people ^^
Darlin i bet youre adorbs in your ears, cute little kitty
Theres a company in the US called sock dreams that ships worldwide and makes sizing-inclusive thigh highs :3 they also make long thigh highs, like, on me they go all the way up, and i have really long legs (srsly, finding clothing is hard).
Not drowning gang stay winnin :3 i used to do it a lot, i would go on week long trips, camping on beaches, eating lots of MREs. Kayaking is superior to backpacking tho cause you can bring a lot more stuff ^^
Yeah, ive been struggling with burnout on and off for years now. Dropped out of school and just kinda drifting right now, trying to recover functionality and address some mental health issues (anxiety, potential adhd, potential bipolar/cyclothymia).
I just like doing things! I can share knowledge and practice in exchange for headpats tho!
Yeah! I like programming (kinda) and the aforementioned photography and knitting. I want to solder up a sphynx, i play music (but have no one to play with right now
)
My walk was really good! Except for the heat. The heat is evil and needs to leave. I miss walking home and its 15 minus degrees in my skirt and cardigan, the cold just speaks to me.
What about you lovely? Hows your evening (i assume evening cause youve mentioned finland several times) going? What hobbies other than gay slop are you interested in?
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rider-waite deck yeah, this is my current deck and love how they married simplicity and abstract art into a beautiful deck. what kind of abrahamic deck have you been looking at?
so you're jewish? this is going to be possibly really weird, but like they just released a choice of games, game that's about trying to save your jewish village from an upcoming pogrom and it's packed to the brim with yiddish, and stuff from the books that I'm too goy to remember
. but that's so cool 
, wish it would be easier to find people who try to turn religions more inclusive honestly.
nothing against furries, i admire their convictions, but i definitely can't afford a full fur suit, and don't even want one really
yeah thicc and tall, don't forget
yeah been using sock dreams, but i have to pay customs to ship to finland and it's expensive when combined with shipping 
it took them a while to find the correct dosage of depression meds for my anxiety and depression, but they finally got it. you'll get through this, sweetie.
god you're just so multitalented, it's crazy. all i know is make food, bake, eat hot chip and read gay slop. i did got to school for 3 years that basically had programming and pc usage as a big part of them, but I remember nothing
tell me about it! the evil regime of the sun has had it's day, it's time for the autumn revolution already!
heeeee
yeah situated in finland probably for the long haul, doesnt seem like things are getting better in southern europe and....yeah. getting kinda eepy it's 1am.
i do like baking a lot still, even though my job almost crushed it out of me, i just love the whole process, of how you can see the bread through all of the phases and hold it in your hand and know that you made this. one of the best feelings. otherwise i'm just into reading and gaming, hopefully i can manage to get exercising in on a more permanent basis again soon. i dunno i think im kinda boring honestly
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Thats really pretty! I love black+white and monotone images, they just speak to me more.
The abrahamic deck i was looking at a year ago, idk if i can find it easily again. It was black cards with white lineart of abrahamic figures, e.g. moses.
Short answer: yes. Jewish answer: it depends on how you look at it. Like, i havent been to shul since I was young, but have beliefs rhat line up with it, plus the cultural everything, idk, its a big complicated topic lol.
Yeah i saw that! It looked really cool! Ive been very very slowly learning yiddish, but dont have anyone to speak it with. Plus the people who speak yiddish today tend to be hassidim :/
Its so hard. The people who stay in it often are bound to it close enough that any movement is small. Judaism has a lot of room for reinterpretation and i think that helps, but its still hard to find people.
I wont
I know the struggle of thigh highs and height, im like 195, and often find things i want that just wont fit me the way I want
Ty, its hard finding mental health help here
Im not sure, you might have to pat my head and figure out the math :3
Those are so cool tho!!! Like i can make bread but im not a baker, i can only do the basic stuff. Idk, i feel like im okay to good at many things, but incapable of being great at anything.
Awww cute eepy kitty
Im so glad theres an 'almost' in that sentence <3
its so important to have hobbies and joy-giving activities!
I disagree
i love hearing about you, tell me more about baking 
(or tomorrow if youre all eeeeeepy ^^
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it's honestly criminal how israel has mostly destroyed the language, by getting everyone on hebrew. the language is beautiful and doesnt have it's roots in a settler colony.
where is here, if i can ask?
oh i dunno, you're making butterflies flutter in me in a pretty great way to be honest
going to be visiting some family for the rest of the week to touch grass (
), so i won't be at the pc, and probably not online a lot but I'll hopefully be able to talk some more tomorrow morning atleast. I'll tell you about how I found a soviet city loaf recipe online and it became my favourite type of bread to bake and eat 
This cute eepy kitty is going to bed though
. You have a wonderful day, sweetheart. 
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Sleep well darlin, i hope this night brings you sweet dreams
morning :3
gosh dang i really enjoy these cutesy terms you use for me
i'm such a basic bitch at times.
I did sleep well, thank you, due to no small part thanks to you ^^
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Good morning! :3
Im glad
your the one who started callin me sweetheart
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well duh, you are adorable and you have a sweet heart, sweetie
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It really is. The whole idea of israel as a state is fucked from both a religious and ethical standpoint. And like, they ignored and actively worked against diaspora languages like yiddish and ladino, but they also fucked up hebrew too! Modern hebrew is super different from biblical hebrew, and in a bad way imo. Hebrew was a semitic language, but modern hebrew (i dont speak it so take this with salt) is almost more of a european language in its grammar, just with semitic word construction.
Im in burgerland
and its not amazing. Also the burgers are really expensive.
Gender is gonna go touch grass!!
Have fun with family, i hope the grass is pleasant and cozy :3
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Omg i need to hear about this! I await with bated breath!
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mornin, sweetheart.
you'd think the yanks would get those right, but no smdh
it's been a while for me too, well i've flirted a lot within video games and visual novels
but you know, it's not really the same. dont get butterflies in those 
the grass is icky and gross, but have to emerge from my little nest sometimes. It's for meeting some family who i havent seen in over a decade. kinda nervous tbh
so! a little history first, russian empire imported culture from fr#nce (derogatory), during their "modernising" period under Peter the Great. I'll have to assume this is also when they became aware of the fr#nch bread. The russians already had a pretty cool bread baking culture of their own, so they took it in stride.
Jump forwards to the soviet times and they decided to standardise the recipe so you could get the same bread no matter where you were. They combined some russian well trotted practises and created the Soviet City Loaf. The fr#nch use bread starter (it's like a proto dough) soviets decided to use instant yeast and a russian style pre dough technique, making the whole process faster and easier.
Ok now that I've bored you let's get into it
I can link you the recipe if you want it, but the main ingredient is time. After making the pre dough you leave it to rise for 2 hours, after which you make the dough which you again leave to rise for 1h and 30mins. Afterwards you divide the dough into balls and let them rest for a fee minutes before you shape them into bread.
After all that you need to leave them for 45mins, a lot of waiting. Now you take a sharp knife and slice each loaf lenghtwise, with a quick movement using a sharp knife.
The loaves have to be baked in sream to receive the best results, so what you can do is place a empty baking pan on the bottom rack of the oven and pour warm water into it just after you place the loaves in.
the loaf will try to "grow" out of the slice you cut into it giving the bread a satisfying looking appearance as the hardened outer skin breaks at the easiest point of resistance i.e the cut. the baking time is 15-20mins in 220c.
the bread looks and tastes absolutely divine but it's still cohesive enough that it doesnt just crumble when you cut slices out of it.
oh no
thats a lot of words, hopefully it reads well. 
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Theyre good burger, just expeeeensive
Omg i hope it goes well! Can I ask, are you out to them?
Oooh bread history
Nonsense! I love this
That is a lot of waiting
but good bread often is. Im used to letting things rise overnight tho ^^
Ooh ive never done this! What does it do to the loaf?
It reads perfectly
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heeee
yeah, i'm out to them and they support the process, but it's still kinda nerve wracking
yeah usually fr#nch loaves are kept overnight, but the soviet socialist method is faster
the steam hardens the outer shell faster, usually when you bake something the yeast and sugar/salt activate one last time and thus they get bigger while baking, with the steam the outer shell hardens while this is still happening giving the loaves their signature break
~thank you for coming to my bread theory hour~ ^^
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Your so cute!
Understandable
most of my non-immediate family is like that. (Well, also my father).
Omg i never knew this! I always struggle with making my bread crisp!
I am always in pursuit of delicious bread ^^
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and you're adorable so we fit together well
i made a whole post about this, in which i have pictures, the full recipe and i link the site where i got this from
you were saying before that you were going to bake babka with your roommate, right? would love to see some pictures when it's done
Any other baking adventures on the horizon?
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Oooh im gonna have to write this down in my recipe book!
Idk when were gonna make it, but ill def post pictures when we do! There arent any planned baking adventures on the horizon for me
we dont exactly have the best kitchen for it, but my mother is going out of town soon so ill probably be able to go use her kitchen ^^ Ive been wanting to cook some sourdough but i dont have a starter anymore. I really like sourdough rye with dark rye flower, but the rye flour is so much more spendy :/
Im pretty tired, and am gonna go to sleep soon. Its late here
ive got Reven (the fox) with me and im cuddling up for the night 
i just wanted to stay up to talk to the cute gal in my phone 
i hope you have a good day darlin <3 and that your family is relaxed and everything goes well 
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poetryposting
Nighty night,
Turn off the light,
And let my mind,
Spread wings; take flight.
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:3 fitting well is nice
oof, yeah lack of space is a major problem while baking, hopefully your mom will let you use her kitchen.
Rye bread is excellent i used to have a starter too (snatched from work 🤫) but i wasnt active enough with it and it exploded in the fridge
, should bake something with rye again for sure. did a lot at the bakery and i kinda miss it. (i totally snatched some rye flour from work too🤫) cause, yeah everything but plain flour is expensive and that is also getting expensive 
awwh i hope you give Reven a nice hug from me, and they can give you a nice hug from me too
ugh the worst part about this grass touching is that it's going to cut into my cute gal on the phone time
Thank you, c: i hope you have a restful night filled with lovely dreams, sweetheart
poetry
wistful sigh
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Good morning lovely! :3
Reven said
and then gave me a big hug from you 
My night was good, but I got poor quality sleep so im groggy and need to brew a big pot of coffee
Rye might be my favorite bread. With the right toppings it just is divine
i used to live by a bakery that made amazing rye loaves that were like bricks in their density but were so soft and were just the absolute best :3
Also snatching starter and flour from work is praxis
Ive also got some grass touching ahead of me. Another birthday party, and hopefully a doctors appointment.
c:
morning, sweetie.
hopefully the coffee woke you up, wouldnt want my tired day on you
we used to make this brick of a rye bread at the bakery and it was always a delight to eat, you have excellent taste in both bread and the cute gal you keep in your phone
currently residing in lapland in the (former) family summer cottage, after 8h car ride with intermittent napping, my neck is busted
tomorrow we'll do the rest and end up at my aunt's house in sweden.
i was informed that the grass touchery is going to have a wifi so i might be more online than previously feared!
I hope your grass touching is successfull, filled with good vibes and actual help in the doctor's case. i would love to know how things work out if you're willing to share
i like being the cute gal on your phone too, sweetheart.
but for now, you have a wonderful day and beautiful dreams if i dont manage to be online before you're off to bed.
talk to you later, sweetie.
feeling a bit sad about this old house, but i'll spoiler them if you dont want to be saddened too, just feel like putting these thoughts into words.
sad about the cottage
i remember when this house was filled with joy, laughter and family, now it feels like the village around it is filled with life, but this sad little house filled with countless stories is filled with ghosts.
everywhere i look reminds me of another life, the happiest parts of it. i barely remember playing one of those guessing games with grandma. i remember when i was sad because the lake was so far and my uncle filled an inflatable boat with water so i could take a dip. we had a whole family feast once inside one of those massive tents, someone had scrounged up from somewhere.... fuck
this place that gave me a lot has been left behind, but i dunno. sorry, just. yeah.
halllåååå
My morning has been, uh, difficultish. Im just exhausted and my roommate is being a bit odd.
Im sorry your neck is busted! I know long long car rides well, and have few fond feelings for them. The worst was a 26 hour travel by bus and train. The train was nice, but of course it was the shortest leg of the journey. We also couldnt get any food or water cause it was in the middle of the first covid lockdown and all the kiosks were closed.
I hope youre in a non-mosquito-y part of sweden, its that time of year
Oh nooo! Youll just have to talk to the cutie in your phone then i guess, no way around it
Im just hoping to finally get a perscription and off of DIY. It would be helpful and less stressful.
Aww i hope you have a lovely time darlin ^^ and im sure my dreams will be wonderful ;)
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Oh honey im sorry
i dont know whats happened with the cottage but those memories of love and familial closeness sound very loving, and bittersweet with them being in the past <3
I had some aspects of that with my home, and some areas and places so closely bound to my life before my folks split.
If the cottage is still somewhat in your family maybe it can be filled with new memories? New and old faces could laugh before the hearth?
Regardless im sending hugs
hejsan!
no i cant speak swedish
awh i hope this next morning treats you better, sweetheart
i've been smiling fondly at the phone enough that the parents might be getting suspicious, but cant really help it when I have a cutie pie on it who writes me poetry
this is slightly embarrasing, but back home i just sat on the pc reading my gay tablet and refreshed hexbear every few minutes
26h without food or water stops??
just shoot me at that point. it's more humane.
talking more to you was the plan, yeah.
did you meet the doc? i know getting off from diy made such a big difference on my anxiety about money and wait times on the shipments. I sincerely wish it went well.
How about the birthday party?
Fairly sure I get to be more online later today so I'll chat with you later, sweetheart.
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it's the childhood home of my mom and her side of the family, some of them are dead and the rest have moved on and built/bought their own summer hidey holes
the plan is to sell it, which... i dont really know how i feel about it.
I'm sorry about your parents
and thank you for your kind words, sweetie. 
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Thats ok, neither can I (i speak one of the other ones lol). I love language tho ^^ how do you say hello in finnish? (The only word I know is perkele
)
Ittt.... Isnt, so far
the birthday party was at a bar and was incredibly overwhelming. I made a post about it in the mega, but short version was that it was all i could do to not break down for most of it.
Thats ok, the only reason i have daily social contact is cause me and my roomie hit it off and she works from home so we just hang out every day lol. (Although her demeanor has shifted and shes acting weirder in a not-happy way).
I havent met the doc yet, im calling for an apointment in ~10 minutes. My DIY has been pretty stress free, aside from once a year when I need to reup.
(Edit: no apointment times for today
)
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:3
please tell me it isnt danish
heippa or just hei. greetings translates to "tervehdys" but everyone just uses terve in common speech
perkele was originally a god of thunder but christian missionairies turned the word to mean Satan, ruining cultural terms as they are wont to do
dont feel too bad, when i was fully employed the only reason i talked at all was because i lived with my parents
aww, sweety
you'll get it, eventually.
I'm sorry the birthday party was hard, my anxiety meds usually help, but i need to know to take them beforehand
wish I'd been there, sweetheart.
yes
being a forest witch sounds great, shame I dont have that kind of money. Childhood homes should be protected, this is true.
:p
Youre in luck darlin ;p Danish is impossible to speak and understand. I can read it tho ^^ i guess that makes it obvious what i speak then doesnt it
I remember working with some people who spoke danish and they assumed I could understand it 
i couldnt get them to slow down or anything. They gave me free drinks tho so 
Noted! Idk i just like language. Its just really difficult to learn if not immersed in it
Fuckers
Ive got one scheduled for a month from now, so thats something
<3 afterwards i just wanted to curl up in a little kitty ball and cry and be held. Squeezed my plushies half to death and that helped.
Youd make an amazing forest witch sweetness
)
:marihappy:(why do we only have:marisad:?They should be! Ive basically given up on ever owning a home. live to rent, rent to live, live to die.
I hope the rest of the drive was a bit easier and your neck feels a bit better today
. How is Sweden treating your beautiful self? Grass touching with wifi and water sounds like a lovely time 
hallo!
yeah, sink denmark tbh
cant turn down free drinks though 
finnish is interesting because you just make the words longer instead of adding words
germans still got us beat on that though 
we used to have a popular god of love called Lempo, but the fuckers got to him and now it's an old timey swear
hell yeah month from now
awh poor little kitty
internet is great, but distances suuuuuck virtual hugs will have to suffice 
i might own a home solely because my brother already owns one and my parents have one, what a great system we live under
massive headache the whole day, but aunt had some painkillers to give
i got to make my own vegan pizza and the area is beautiful, might go do a little walk at the seashore tomorrow 
she called me a boy once but it wasnt out of malice, overall things are pretty good
except that i suck at writing on the phone and the sweetheart who resides in it would deserve faster responses 
anti-dansk aksjon
Brb, gonna go make atlantis 2: denmark edition
I love that! Compound words are just really neat ^^ ive always had a bit of an interest in the uralic language family. I wanted to learn northern sami but the course that was available was only for sami people, which, while frustrating for me, is understandable and imo good.
Aww tell me about Lempo, what kind of god of love was he?
Can Lempo be reclaimed? Perhaps similar to how Lilith was changed through midrashim? (Although i have big issues with a lot of her modern representation). Idk the attitudes and relationship between finnish culture and pre-christian gods
.
They doooo
Well what can I say, youre just a big ball of sweetness
Im in a similar boat; my mother has talked about giving me her house when she dies. Its my one non-maoist path to homeownership. Its also insane. What she pays in property taxes, etc., for her home is 60% of what we pay in rent for our apartment. Her home is far larger, far cozier, and far more functional (also she doesnt live next to a damn highway). She doesnt have people living above and on either side of her either. The system is so broken. Her utilities are probably cheaper as well, but we havent compared those prices.
Oh no!
im glad she had some pain meds for you <3 gal as sweet as you shouldnt be subjected to headaches.
Ngl this sounds so delightful and idyllic, i miss being able to just go out to the middle of nowhere, unbothered by people/society. I used to live in a place with few people, where you could just walk out your door and be in nature, and it was so lovely. I wish I could have enjoyed it more while I had it (i was deeply dysphoric and lowkey an alcoholic during that part of my life
).
Yayyy \^^/ at the first family reunion we had after I came out, the only person to misgender me was my mother who id been out to for ages lol.
tanskan upotus
atlantis 2? no no that's terf island
denmark can be atlantis three.
yeah, the sami have suffered enough tbh, still kind of a shame
finnish word of the post: luonnonvarainen, it means to exist on it's own in the wilderness aka wild.
the thing is, we dont really know
the christians were very too good at their jobs, all the witches and shamans were either murdered or banished into wilderness. that combined with our own brand of christo-fascism in the 20s to 40s means that we are the most conservative of the nordics 
have some more hugs, sweetheart:
you're one to talk about sweetness, sweety.
i was toying with the idea of a houseboat when i was younger, wouldnt have to pay rent nor property taxes
it really is! maybe you'll live around nature again one day
without the alcoholic downsides 
oof that sucks, but atleast she was the only one.
My dad still sometimes fucks up, but he gets so sad about it that it's kinda endearing.
we can be slow phone posting girlies together
do you have any more grass touching in the future? or can you keep nesting like the cute kitten you are?
^^
Is tanskan dane/denmark/danish in finnish? Its close enough to "dansken" that maybe it could be? No idea on upotus tho
Yeah, idk what/how everything happened in finnland but fornorskning was pretty fucked. And norway is still pulling shit like in fosen.
This is so cool! My grammar brain is very interested, im assuming its a compound word?
That sucks
christian missionaries really fucked so much up.
I hope so
i live somewhere with a lot of nature right now, but its hard to access and is full of people. Its just kind of a touristy area ig.
Aww hes trying at least
Yayyy
First off, melting at pets
this kittens curled up in her bed right now, all cozy and blushing 
But i dont have immediate grasstouching, just normal life stuff i guess. I need to buy food, i forgot to eat yesterday, and only had a small snack the day before that, so im really pushing it. But i just got my car insurance sorted out and its half of what it was before, so im less anxious about money now ^^
So i guess aside from food im gonna stay curled up and cute in my little kitten nest
heippa :3
pretty close. it means "the sinking of denmark." tanska is denmark. tanskan means it's happening to it and "upotus" is a verb which means sinking.
luonto is nature and varaisuus is wealth, luonnonvara means national resource, it's fun like that.
it apparentely wasnt that bad, we mostly just intermarried a bunch and forced them to travel north, being racist against them was still cool and good in the 90s
i've heard that burgers take their grills with them into those "nature" parks
you are adorable, sweetheart
awh cute kitty lily curling up in her nest
i'm curled up in my own room now too, reading gay slop, and chatting to this cute gay on my phone, you might know her 
awh, sweetie, you need to eat so you dont waste away. doing food runs is such a chore though
, but still, try to eat, sweetheart 
finnish word of the post: ukkonen
it means thunder, stems from the old god of thunder Ukko, which also means "old man"
:p
Im loving the mini finnish lessons ^^
Aww darlin i bet youre super cute all curled up, readin and chattin
but whose this cute gay gal? Tell me about her ;p
Im trying, i just get distracted a lot
my mama thinks i have adhd, but i remain unconvinced. But ill go get some food now when i post this ^^
I love this! Please keep them coming
^^
hey, atleast you have a car, sweetie
burgers do be making everything just wildly weird.
well learning one of the harder languages is one thing that this country gave me, might as well spread it around to an attentive audience
well first of all, she's great at summoning butterflies in my stomach, secondly she has great opinions about life (and me
) thirdly I think about her a lot and want to give her a hug and just hold on for a while 
finnish word of the post: runoilija
it means poet (
) runo is poem. it's a lovely gender neutral term
happy lesbian sounds
This is true
i can at least escape this city ^^
My rapt attention is yours
Believe it or not, I have a similar situation with this cute gal in my phone
i just want to snuggle up in each others laps 
Did you... Did you choose this word because of my poetryposting?
:3
oh interesting, interesting anyone i would know? what's she like?
wistful sigh yeah
maaaaaybe....
yes
finnish word of the post: kissanpentu
it literally means cat's cub, kissa is cat and cub is pentu
(❀❛ ֊ ❛„)♡
You might recognize her
shes smart, with a penchant for baking - specifically loves rye, which is the best of breads when it comes to savory sustenance. Shes got lovely thic thighs, and isnt a furry but has cat ears and cat thighhighs. Shes vegan and she speaks a very cool and pretty language too! She likes plushies and is all around very cute and sweet 
Omg thats so cute! I love it immediately ^^
Snuggles are so nice
id imagine its getting rather late over there, you getting eepy? 
🥺~heeeee~
eeeeeeeeeeee
yeah
i was having such a good time talking to you, sweetheart, but i guess i am pretty tired.
finnish word of the post: söpö
it's you sweetie
good night, sweetheart. talk to you in the mornin
im trying!
Sinä olet söpö ^^
Sinä pidät leipä ^^
I didnt use a translator so its probably wrong lol. I couldnt figure out what case to use with leipä 🙃
(Trying to say: you are cute, and you like bread)
not bad
not bad, sweetie!
the only issue was the bread bit. it's completely understandable but the correct way to say it would be "sinä pidät leivästä" ^^
yayyy
Im glad i got it (mostly) right!
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why cant i put emotes as the title of the spoiler!?
Aww eepy gal getting all cute and tired
Sleep well darlin, i hope it brings you a lovely night
it used to work, i think something broke
good morning, sweetie
you arent beating the "being real cute" allegations by reactions like this, sweetheart.
good morning!
I hope you got a good night out there in sweden darlin
How else can I react when you call me cute in finnish
^^
the bed was good and soft
, built for two though, such a shame. I did leave the phone on the other side of the bed, though 
finnish word of the post: suloinen
it's you! again it means adorable
:3
Aww was the bed a bit to big and empty?
Ahhh you gotta stop my cheeks can only get so red
dont stop
;)
it did have a, oh i dont know, lilypad kitten sized space.
finnish word of the post: ihastuttava
another way of saying adorable, there's one more
ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
Aww im all sleepy over here, my mind is thick and slow, i wanna just curl up in that little spot
maybe get som skritches ^^
Ahhhh youre so sweet and lovely!!
Now i have to know the final one ^^
scratches
awh the kitty is gettin eepy
would love to trace your scars and give you head scratches until you fall asleep, sweetheart.
the last one is: ihana
rolling over for tummy scritches
Nothing would make me happier right now
Im just curled up in my bed rn, its a bit over a meter wide (maybe 120?). Ive got Reven and my horse all close and cuddled up with, getting all cozy, soon to
🤫
aww that sounds real cozy
give your plushies a hug from me, sweetheart. 
and you get one too
eeeeeee
you are too cute, sweetie.
:eepy:
Theyre getting big hugs from you darlin ^^
eeee
i love your hugs :3
I could say the same of you, lovely
Im going to try and sleep now, i hope your day is wonderful and your time with your family is sweet and loving
Nn darlin <3
nn ^^
awh i hope so too, sweetheart.
sweet dreams, sweetie.
get a restful sleep 
heiiiii
Good morning sweetness
I got rather restful night, and i think i had rather nice dreams, even if i dont remember them, because i woke up smiling
I wonder what I was dreaming about 
In todays episode of lilypad, our daring heroine got a restful night of sleep, but will it be enough for her to face the grass-touching adventure of... Coffee with a friend!?? Lilypad is filmed in front of a live audience.
Good morning!
eeeeee
ooo the mind wonders. what did she dream about?
we may never know. 
woo! coffee with a friend, truly a dangerous grass touching venture! how will our sweet heroine survive? stay tuned, more after the break!
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It definitely wasnt the cute girl shes been talking to ;p no no, certainly not
it probably was :3
What dangers lurk out in the sunshine!? Hopefully we never find out....
:shocked-pikachu:
you've been talking to a cute girl???
hee
What darkness lies in the heart of sunshine??? Our brave heroine just might find out.
pika-shokk
Yeah i have, söpöliini
ok that one i had to look up
It was really hot and smoggy/smokey weird in the sunshine, daily exposure should be limited
:3
so can you impart any norweigen on me? been wilding out with swedish the whole day
also how did the cafe date go?
and finally do you want to hear about my day?
^^
Nice thing with norwegian is that (regular) verbs inflect the same regardless of person, (e.g. jeg er, du er, han/hun/hen er, de er, dere er, vi er) so its very easy to learn verbs
It does have grammatical gender for nouns tho, and adjectives have to agree with the nouns gender and definitiveness.
It went great! There was fewer people than I expected, and it was quiet, and we just sat and talked for like 2 hours, had a good time catching up cause we hadnt talked in like 2 weeks ^^ plus hes leaving soon so its nice to get some time together
Yes please sweetie!!
I would love to hear about your day, and everything youve been up to in the wifi-enabled grasstouching sweden 
c:
fascinating! also it always makes me smile how so many of these words are in different dialects in finnish, like søt, there's a finnish word söötti, which is basically another way to say cute
hell yeah!
when time flies while talking you know you have a good friend 
so! went with dad to look at the sea, it was way too warm (i'll post the pics when i get on the pc again), talked with him a bit about my anxiety and how it fucking sucks, almost started crying and saying that i wish i could just be normal, but managed not to. he cares a lot though
went back to the house and auntie gave me that recipe book to leaf through. spent some time on that and then she roped me into food prep and cooking. it was really nice
. afterwards i got white girl drunk on red wine while we ate. feeling really nice and loved today 
:3
Norway has so many dialects its unreal lol. There isnt even a standardized spoken language, theres just a bunch of dialects.
What does the two vowels next to each other mean in finnish? Is it like a longer or more stressed vowel?
I would love to see the photos of the sea
This is so very relatable,
ive had similar convos with my folks. Im really glad he cares so much! 
Ooh i love it! One of my favorite things is finding old recipes or old cookbooks, they are always so fun ^^
What did you all make?
Im so happyyyyy
it sounds like you have a really kind and supportive family, even if they dont quite "get it" sometimes. And, what can I say, lovely people like yourself are often well loved 
^^
oh god it's even worse than finland
yeah it's longer, rule of thumb there are no silent letters in finnish, the words are said literally just like how they're written, following finnish pronounciations obviously, and that is hard for most people
we roasted some vegetables in the oven and I made another pizza for myself, because auntie's experience with veganism is that cheese, fish and eggs are fine. smdh. anyway they grilled some meat and we air fried some sliced potatoes, topped with vegan aioli
it was excellent.
i bet you're a really cute drunk
yeah
really lucked out in the trans bingo tbh, parents took a real leftward turn when i came out and mom's side of the family have seemingly been soc dems at worst so it's pretty great, honestly 
oh shtaph
pls dont actually i love it
ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
Ok that does sound rough. I bet I could do the pronounciation but learning how to break up words into syllables can be real difficult.
Idk, i either get way more anxious or way less anxious. But if its just me and one other person i tend to get more cuddly
Its so nice to hear people taking left turns
There have definitely been some people in my family where I was worried id have to get all 
with them. But at worst theyre well meaning libs (aside from the hardcore reactionaries and fash we no longer talk to).
~happy lesbian noises~
there's a lot of fun things you're allowed to do with the words and most will understand the meaning like mussukka is like a milder version of cutie, but not really cutie-pie... it doesnt really translate. but for example i could say: "olet suloinen sussukka." and it's understood that i' ve tried to make you blush by calling you a "cute little cutie-pie"
cuddles are great! i get these very straight yearnings when i'm drunk enough
well my brother is a rightoid so it all balances out i guess
you're tempting my switchiness to turn towards the top part via this bratty behaviour, sweetness
mildly bratty sub sound
My day just took a fun turn! One of my friends invited me to come make cookies with her and grab some dinner together! Im gonna touch so much grass today! but this means im leaving soon and not giving undivided attention to söpöliini in my phone :(
But I mean, norwegians got nothing on welsh, that language is confusing!
Those yearnings, oh those yearnings :anti-volcel-daydream:
I wonder if youre all bluff ;p or do i need to knock a wine glass off the table? ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
more grass touching!
it's actually pretty good since im getting eepy, and would love nothing* more than that someone would keep company to this cute little kitten
*ok there's a few things
wistful sigh yeah
my bluffing game is pretty solid
i also have some heavy duty necklaces i would love to test, for the rest, i learn pretty fast by doing, sweetheart
have a wonderful day, sweetness
i'll chat with you more in the morning
grass touching (mostly) successful
aww you were all cute and eepy, and I bet when you wake youll be all cute and groggy
ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ kitten reporting for company ^^
Yeah? You wanna tell me about them? Id love to hear
My time out was mostly good! We made cookies, had a good time talking, played some cards, and just hung out for a good while. My other friend who is also her roommate was there and it was also nice to talk to her.
(Edit: also i just want to make clear, if you get uncomfortable or are not wanting to continue this, please say so and we can drop it; i dont want to make you uncomfortable)
more heavy flirt
Oh yea? So what would you do if i knocked a glass off the table? 😈
Ooo what kind of necklaces do you have? And how would you test them?
id love to see your fast learning ;p
yay! ^^
cute and groggy reporting for duty
alright uhh counting fingers existing in the same timezone. existing in the same country. existing in the same city. existing in the same
yeah
hou... uhh neighbourhood. .. .hell yeah, what kind?
I'm glad you have friends, sweetness. One of the best feelings when you can just chill with the gals
heavy you say?
i have a remarkably well trained disdainful look that I could plaster on, just for you sweetie. Also I seem to remember we've discussed my kinks before; biting, blood, pain and knives
I do have some expertise with knives, but I also have some skill with my teeth 
the necklace is a hoop in the end of a long chain, looks kinda goth/punk, but you can tighten it very nicely around someone's neck one handed
dont know much about ropes, sweetheart, but to live is to learn as they say
eeeeeeeeppppyyyy
Im getting very eeepy, and soon i must sleepy. Its getting hard to keep my eyes open... I want to stay here in this thread with you, but i might have to just dream about this instead.
nn ^^
sweet dreams, sweetheart
good morning
^eeeeeeee^
Cute groggy söpöliini
Oatmeal butterscotch with lemon glaze ^^ I bet you would know how to replace the butter (then theyd be vegan)
Maybe next time im in europe ill have to give you a call
help i have no money and söpöliini is in finland
Me too, its really nice ^^ i just wish i was less anxious and could fully enjoy myself
👉👈
Oh bite me no literally bite me
tear into me, leave me covered in marks. Make me giggle and wimper and scream
I love floggers and whips and little implements :hyperhyperflush: The sting of whips¹ is just, idk, its magical.
Ive never had someone draw my blood, the thought terrifies me... But is also a little exciting...
smiling at the thought you want to keep me tightly bound, knowing my place, with your necklace there holding me still?
To live, to learn, bind me, burn
To tie, to wrap, my body, slap
To strike, to hit, the flesh, bright lit
To see, to feel, to touch, be real
¹ info
Whips are just so cool! Ive been trying to learn how to make them. I wove myself a leash for my collar a while back to familiarize myself with weaving. I really want to get a range of impact toys. Its just so fun! Well, it depends i guess. Sometimes I can handle only 15 minutes, other times I can go for over an hour, but it does eventually stop being fun when im past my limits.
^^ part 2
eh i think we can work up to the knife, sweetheart. need to learn the proper etiquette of whip use first anyhow
outdoor catgirls need to be leashed at all times, don't you know. wouldnt want anyone to abscond with you.
o hai :3
Theres so much fun with whips and floggers and impact implements
i have some old leather jackets i bought at thrift stores that I want to turn into collars and cuffs, but one is so incredibly massive that it might have enough material to make a little signal whip :3
Well, ill just have to keep on writing then
But darlin, arent i the one whose supposed to be getting lashes ;p
witchy switches wore wrist watches
ooooh, i did see some paddles on etsy but this would basically function as one, but being a whip at the same time.
of course, sweetness. No one is allowed to hurt my precious kitty cat, not even mother nature.
please do
you forget that I'm just a humble switch
not a full top 
what a lovely switchy witch
Kind of? If you used the handle it could function as a thuddy thumper, but idk if that would damage the whip? (I might be misunderstanding you). In general with whips youre aiming to lightly graze your target; the difference of a few centimeters can be the difference between a whip mark and fully split skin, depending on how hard your strikes are. Watching people play with singletails is almost like watching someone dance, they move back and forth on their feet and sort of swing the whip from side to side. Tbh its kinda mesmerizing ^^
True, i forget myself. Maybe we could mark each other
switchy witch witching switchily
no no, probably not. my understanding of whips is woefully inadequate, love to see your nerding about them though, sweetie. makes me want to learn more
....am I a sub? Or a sub leaning switch.....?
You want me to tell you about them?
Ok ive not wanted to mark someone before but youve got me feeling things that are markedly unsubby... I could bring out the implements and we could choose, i which to have you use upon me, you which to have me use upon you :3 Ive never Dommed before though, its not something i quite understand, and i may need some guidance...
....more like a sub learning to switch
oooh yes please!
I'm sure we can mold a service top out of you, sweetness
I have two things that I'm not into. Degradation, just....ugh. I mean sure if that's what people want, but I'd like to forcefully make people feel better about themselves, really. The second is being tied down, I think I have some childhood trauma related to toy handcuffs that were made out of fucken STEEL 
but like being held down is very hot 
sadly it's pretty late here and I do need to go to work tomorrow
which reminds me, we should probably move over to PMs, trying to find a nice thread to linger seems unlikely to happen twice, even though I would love to work on the comment numbers on the megathread. 
You have a wonderful rest of the day, sweetheart.
ive been told im a fast learner :3
I think ill do a little write up on whips in another comment ^^
Subby lilypad reporting for molding!
Yeah, I like a handful of degrading talk but its so specific and has such potential to send me spiraling if misapplied that I dony really ask for any degredation when with someone.
Im sorry you were put through that
idek why they would give such things to children
Im not very strong
but i can try to hold you down!
That sounds fine to me!
Now go get a lovely long rest
and dream lovely wonderous dreams <3
^^
hee
oh me oh my
replacing butter is the easiest, i might need the recipe, sweetness 
ugh i knooooow, this sucks
maybe one day, sweetie 
mood fr fr
going to have to go offline again (9h in the car kill me pls). sorry, sweetheart
:3
biting was the plan, sweetness.
would love to delve deeper in this, but running out time. Will revisit this on the pc later today, sweetheart. Forgive me pls
Forgiveness forever, im eeeeepy and going to sleep now. I hope your car drive is less rough than the drive out there! Nn lovely
recipe
It was 2 sticks butter, 1¼ cups flour, ¾ cup white sugar, ¾ cup packed brown sugar, 2 eggs, some baking soda, zest of 1 lemon, cinnamon, vanilla, and salt. Also 3 cups oats and as much butterscotch as youd like (we used a whole bag)
Mix the dry ingredients (sans sugar) all together. Mix the softened butter with the sugar, then beat in the eggs, lemon zest, and vanilla. Slowly mix in the dry ingredients. Then stir in the oats and butterscotch.
Bake at 375°F for like 10 minutes i think? Adjust baking times as needed.
Finally, juice a lemon and mix as much powdered sugar into the lemon juice as needed to make a glaze, and drizzle it over the cookies ^^
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thank you, sweetness. can never have too many recipes
feels good to be back on the keyboard 
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Ofc! ^^ if you can make it vegan id love to know how
Never stop posting
the posting will never stop
everything can be made vegan, i just gotta workshop it a bit. I'll keep you posted, sweetie.
They will hate to pry this board from my cold dead hands
yayyy
Yayy \^^/
I need more vegan and vegetarian recipes! I had a pretty good vegetarian enchilada recipe, but i lost it the last time i moved
.
cw carnist-ism
Ive been trying to move in a less meat-oriented direction with my food. Its been somewhat (?) successful, i only really eat meat if im eating out with people or someone is throwing away something (im not gonna let food go to waste, and especially meat, like, something died for this, im not gonna let it end up in the trash unless its literally rotting/unsafe for consumption).
^^
butterscotch might be hard to veganise, i mean i found a recipe already, but i could just use something that requires less effort, but would be about the same, have to look at this more tomorrow when I'm less tired edit: ah nevermind, found a good source from which to shop for a vegan variant ^^
I have so many vegan recipes bookmarked! here's one for enchiladas
I mean, that's fair. The whole idea is that you refrain from using animal products within your own means, if you're going to starve it's better to eat the meat. Ideals are hard to munch on, when your belly starts to high five your spine
Atleast you're doing things, sweetie. That's more than like 95% of people in the west fucking seem to care 
omg tysm!!!
This is wonderful tysm!! I really need to start making a recipe book for myself... I should get one of those moleskins and write everything down all pretty like ^^
Ugh thats the perfect description for that feeling
:3
I hope your car ride wasnt too terrible
ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
Always
hewwo uwu
surprisingly painless this time around, read some gay slop and fell asleep twice, i think? not bad. mentally really tired and going to take a long shower soon but i have been neglecting the cute girl in my pc so i have to rectify this
currently wearing some cat ears and some slight smoky eye going on because my makeup has run a bit
will probably post some pics into the main megathread tomorrow after i get out of work 
how did you say it? heavy flirting, yeah that's good
so let me lay out the scene: You naked in my bed, hands tied. Blindfold? Hm maybe. I'm sitting on your stomach squeezing your midsection with my thighs (which are quite thicc as you recall). I'll lick my way up your sternum to your left ear and nibble it a bit, then I'll move lower to the spot where your neck and shoulder connect and bite down hard, sucking it a bit and letting go with a muted pop sound. I'll slowly nuzzle my nose on underneath your chin and do a little nibble right at the center of your throat. Then I'll move to the right side and give a little kiss to the neck there. I'll lower myself on your chest and cross my arms over it, whispering lightly "Beg for it."
Will you beg for it, sweetness?
heia ^^
Omg cute! Smokey eyes are kind of amazing, but I dont do them very well on myself.
first the idk procedural anxiety sating bit sorry i know its not fun im just an anxious person
I just want to be sure of things, im not asking you to dox yourself, but i do want to know if youre a minor before this gets heavier. From the way youve talked, Im fairly certain you arent, but i had a moment of anxiety here and felt the need to ask, cause i know I did stuff like this when I was a young teen. For what its worth, im in the 25-35 age range
Also just as an aside, are there things youd like me to avoid mentioning in the heavier bits here? On my end, i have some difficulties/dysphoria with my genitals, and dont like to think about or use them in the standard cishet way.
heavier :3
Laying here, sightless, held in place by your thighs. I stare up into the dark of the blindfold. Unable to move, feeling the wetness of your tongue as it slinkily parades its way up to my ear. A nibbling follows, and is punctuated with the sharp pain of a powerful bite and a yelp escaping my lips. A small muted pop reverberates through the room as you move your attention elsewhere. I feel you nuzzling up against my throat, and the little nibbles that follow send shivers through me. A kiss on the right side of my neck follows, and i feel you settle on my chest. "Beg for it" i hear you say. "please, I want-", the words are almost pulled out of me "I need you, more, please". A moment passes before the words escape my mouth: "please, I need it"
anxiety stuff
let's say that I'm in the 30-35 demographic. gloriously ruined by capitalism and definitely don't have my shit in order
yeah, let's just veer away from the genitals, need to get a surgery first 
. Never done this stuff before though, oooo let's see if my gay slop reading has been worth anything....eh besides the obvious. I definitely have a perfectionist streak, I'm being reminded 
heavier
"Good girl." I murmur and start to slowly move forwards again, slowly nuzzling my way up to the cruelly neglected right side of the neck. Slowly painfully slowly tracing my teeth across the neck and bite down, pulling the skin a bit as I move and leaving a trail of bites all the way to the left side, where I stop again. "What do you need?" I ask while slowly moving my right hand along the line of marks already blossoming along the neck. "And do you think you deserve it?"
anxiety stuff
heavier
good girl A shudder runs through my body a smile across my lips at the words. I feel the movement towards my neck, ever so slowly. A flash as I feel your teeth graze my flesh, and then more, they sink into me, not so deep as to break skin, but deep enough that I truly feel them. Deep enough to communicate intimate knowledge; I know my place beneath your teeth, wrapped in your thighs, Yours. The bites come slowly, so slowly. Moving across my neck. I feel my skin blooming at each one, until you come to stop at my left side. "What do you need?" the words slide from your lips into my mind as i feel you trace your fingers over your handiwork "And do you think you deserve it?". "I- you- I dont- I- you- need-" I stammer, unable to even begin forming a cogent answer to the questions. What do I need? The thought lingers for a moment before I reply: "You, your marks, your touch. I need to please and pleasure, and be pleasured. I need to belong and be yours. And I know I probably dont deserve it. Please, help me, help me deserve it."
Rated H for Heavier
I hum and move my lips closer, sucking on the skin slightly and rising up. I move my hand up the right side of your neck into your scalp and grasp the hair in a tight grip. "Oh, sweetheart, no one is allowed to talk down to you, not even you." I whisper against your chin and tug your hair hard enough to expose more of that wonderfully soft skin and start biting and sucking on it, moving very slightly each time. Eventually releasing your hair and starting to scratch down your scalp soothingly, while moving my mouth to your ear and biting on the lobe and pulling it slightly with my teeth. "Are you sure you don't think you deserve this?" I whisper into your ear as I release the lobe, and softly move my hand from your hair over to your throat. Doing a slight squeeze with my thighs, and my hand at the same time. "Tell me you deserve this, sweetness."
blood type H+ cause its positively heavy
With your hand tightly gripping my hair, I hear your voice in my ear.
"Oh, sweetheart, no one is allowed to talk down to you, not even you."
The words stir something in me, a feeling for which I have no name. Welling up inside me it spills over into devotion and emotional release, juxtaposed by the control you have over my head, the comfortable discomfort of the biting and sucking upon my skin, the pleasurable pain of it all. As your hand releases and scratches down my scalp in a soothing calming motion my head tilts back upright to meet your lips upon my ear, nibbling and grazing upon it, before whispering:
"Are you sure you don't think you deserve this?"
Words have abandoned my thoughts, and only color remains. Flashes of green and red compose the grammar, golden streaks form words, and blue undertones lay out the intonation. White hot points punctuate this sentence of color. I realize your hand is at my throat; I had been so distracted I hadnt noticed its soft movement thereto.
"Tell me you deserve this, sweetness" The words are accompanied by a coordinated squeeze of your thighs round my torso and your hand on my throat, and crystallize my thought into words:
"I deserve this, I want this, I need this; I want you"
As the words vacate my lungs I feel your grip tighten slightly, not enough to choke or strangle, but enough that I know youre there, and know youve heard me.
food
Im making rice ^^
I might make some beans, but that requires the stove and not just the rice cooker...
foood
rice is fantastic tbh, top em with some soy sauce, or just salt & pepper and it's already pretty decent. maybe some cumin and sriracha
boring food
Im a simple girl today and am eating plain rice
slight disappointment
but i get it, been eating a lot of finnish flatbread (rieska) without even butter the last few days, sometimes you just wanna be basic
basic
Im always making/eating either extravagant dishes or the most basic rice and beans stuff ever lol. The basics are there for a reason