Fanart is by Syurii22.

Toyosatomimi no Miko is a character in the Touhou Project series introduced in its 13th installment, Ten Desires.

Miko was once Prince Shoutoku, a Japanese leader in the 600s known for promoting Buddhism and streamlining the Japanese government. In the Touhou lore, she was visited by Taoist hermit Seiga Kaku, who had heard about Miko’s longing for immortality. Seiga introduced her to Taoism, but she rejected it as a religion unfit for placating an entire country. She was intrigued by its promise of immortality, however, and privately converted to it, advocating for Buddhism to keep Japan stable. After drinking an “immortality elixir” (mercury sulfide), however, she was forced to let go of her body and become a supernatural hermit like Seiga, notably taking on the form of a woman, making her a canonically trans character (lets-fucking-go).

After convincing a hermit from a rival clan (Mononobe no Futo) to sleep without decaying, Miko followed in suit, waiting for a time where a Taoist Japan would revive her in search of guidance. However, Buddhist monks were able to keep her mausoleum sealed, and the legends surrounding her were slowly brushed off- which led to her transportation into Gensokyo, where the folklore of old is a reality of everyday life.

When she awoke in Gensokyo, it was right after Buddhist monk Byakuren Hijiri opened her own temple, however, leading to a surge of divine spirits across the realm, setting up the events of Ten Desires.

What look like headphones on her are canonically earmuffs- Shoutoku was allegedly able to discern between ten questions asked at once, an ability carried by Miko (although with her enhanced abilities, she can also analyze each person and determine their inner desires (thus the title of the game))- although it means her hearing is highly sensitive and has to be muffled to prevent pain.


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  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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    13 days ago
    :3

    cute gal in my phone

    oh interesting, interesting anyone i would know? what's she like? emilie-smug

    snuggles

    wistful sigh yeah lea-blush

    poetry

    maaaaaybe.... lea-wasnt-me yes

    finnish word of the post: kissanpentu

    it literally means cat's cub, kissa is cat and cub is pentu

    • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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      13 days ago
      (❀❛ ֊ ❛„)♡

      anyone i would know? what's she like?

      You might recognize her aubrey-smug shes smart, with a penchant for baking - specifically loves rye, which is the best of breads when it comes to savory sustenance. Shes got lovely thic thighs, and isnt a furry but has cat ears and cat thighhighs. Shes vegan and she speaks a very cool and pretty language too! She likes plushies and is all around very cute and sweet crush

      kissanpentu

      Omg thats so cute! I love it immediately ^^ anarkitty

      snuggles

      Snuggles are so nice cuddle id imagine its getting rather late over there, you getting eepy? niko-yawn

      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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        13 days ago
        🥺~heeeee~

        eeeeeeeeeeeehyperflush

        yeah niko-yawn i was having such a good time talking to you, sweetheart, but i guess i am pretty tired.

        finnish word of the post: söpö

        it's you sweetie crush shy

        good night, sweetheart. talk to you in the mornin ralsei-wave

        • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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          13 days ago
          why cant i put emotes as the title of the spoiler!?

          guess i am pretty tired.

          Aww eepy gal getting all cute and tired niko-happy

          söpö

          hyperflush i uh i a jflenqøwæfsæsnwædøfæræe

          Sleep well darlin, i hope it brings you a lovely night sleepi

          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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            12 days ago
            it used to work, i think something broke

            good morning, sweetie aubrey-happy

            jflenqøwæfsæsnwædøfæræe

            you arent beating the "being real cute" allegations by reactions like this, sweetheart. lea-happy

            • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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              12 days ago
              good morning!

              I hope you got a good night out there in sweden darlin niko-happy

              not beating the allegations

              How else can I react when you call me cute in finnish crushshy

              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                12 days ago
                ^^

                the bed was good and softmeow-melt , built for two though, such a shame. I did leave the phone on the other side of the bed, though comfy

                finnish word of the post: suloinen

                it's you! again it means adorable lea-blush

                • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                  12 days ago
                  :3

                  Aww was the bed a bit to big and empty? crush

                  suloinen

                  Ahhh you gotta stop my cheeks can only get so red lea-blushdont stop

                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                    12 days ago
                    ;)

                    it did have a, oh i dont know, lilypad kitten sized space. izutsumi-idea

                    finnish word of the post: ihastuttava

                    another way of saying adorable, there's one more angel-biblical-shh

                    • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                      12 days ago
                      ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

                      lilypad kitten sized space

                      Aww im all sleepy over here, my mind is thick and slow, i wanna just curl up in that little spot sleepi maybe get som skritches ^^

                      ihastuttava

                      Ahhhh youre so sweet and lovely!! cuddle

                      Now i have to know the final one ^^

                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                        12 days ago
                        scratches

                        awh the kitty is gettin eepy meow-petted

                        would love to trace your scars and give you head scratches until you fall asleep, sweetheart. crush shy

                        the last one is: ihana

                        lea-blush

                        • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
                          ·
                          12 days ago
                          rolling over for tummy scritches

                          meow-melt

                          would love to trace your scars and give you head scratches until you fall asleep, sweetheart.

                          Nothing would make me happier right now cuddle

                          Im just curled up in my bed rn, its a bit over a meter wide (maybe 120?). Ive got Reven and my horse all close and cuddled up with, getting all cozy, soon to niko-sleep

                          ihana

                          lea-blush but also sinä olet ihana shy

                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                            12 days ago
                            🤫

                            meter wide (maybe 120?)

                            aww that sounds real cozy comfy give your plushies a hug from me, sweetheart. cuddle

                            and you get one too meow-hug

                            sinä olet ihana

                            eeeeeee niko-speen

                            you are too cute, sweetie. ralsei-blush shy

                            • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                              12 days ago
                              :eepy:

                              Theyre getting big hugs from you darlin ^^

                              and you get one too

                              eeee lea-blush i love your hugs :3

                              you are too cute, sweetie.

                              I could say the same of you, lovely bridget-smug

                              Im going to try and sleep now, i hope your day is wonderful and your time with your family is sweet and loving meow-hug

                              Nn darlin <3

                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                12 days ago
                                nn ^^

                                lovely

                                lea-blush

                                awh i hope so too, sweetheart. meow-hug

                                sweet dreams, sweetie. ralsei-wave get a restful sleep kris-love

                                • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                  12 days ago
                                  heiiiii

                                  Good morning sweetness cat-trans

                                  I got rather restful night, and i think i had rather nice dreams, even if i dont remember them, because i woke up smiling niko-happy I wonder what I was dreaming about lea-blush

                                  In todays episode of lilypad, our daring heroine got a restful night of sleep, but will it be enough for her to face the grass-touching adventure of... Coffee with a friend!?? Lilypad is filmed in front of a live audience.

                                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                    12 days ago
                                    Good morning!

                                    sweetness

                                    eeeeeeundyne-owo

                                    ooo the mind wonders. what did she dream about? lea-think we may never know. emilie-smug

                                    woo! coffee with a friend, truly a dangerous grass touching venture! how will our sweet heroine survive? stay tuned, more after the break! meow-popcorn

                                    • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
                                      ·
                                      12 days ago
                                      spoiler

                                      what did she dream about?

                                      It definitely wasnt the cute girl shes been talking to ;p no no, certainly not lea-blush it probably was :3

                                      lilypad s2e5

                                      What dangers lurk out in the sunshine!? Hopefully we never find out....

                                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                        12 days ago
                                        :shocked-pikachu:

                                        you've been talking to a cute girl??? capitaldcolon

                                        heecrush shy

                                        lilypad s2e6

                                        What darkness lies in the heart of sunshine??? Our brave heroine just might find out.

                                        • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                          12 days ago
                                          pika-shokk

                                          Yeah i have, söpöliini owl-wink ok that one i had to look up

                                          lilypad s2e6

                                          It was really hot and smoggy/smokey weird in the sunshine, daily exposure should be limited ralsei-pout

                                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
                                            ·
                                            12 days ago
                                            :3

                                            söpöliini

                                            hyperflush heh

                                            so can you impart any norweigen on me? been wilding out with swedish the whole day lea-tired

                                            also how did the cafe date go? lea-happy

                                            and finally do you want to hear about my day? lea-blush

                                            • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
                                              ·
                                              12 days ago
                                              ^^

                                              norwegian Norwegian is very similar to swedish in its grammar and structure ^^ Norwegian word of the post: søt (adjective, means cute/söpö) sinä olet söpö : du er søt

                                              Nice thing with norwegian is that (regular) verbs inflect the same regardless of person, (e.g. jeg er, du er, han/hun/hen er, de er, dere er, vi er) so its very easy to learn verbs lea-finger-guns It does have grammatical gender for nouns tho, and adjectives have to agree with the nouns gender and definitiveness.

                                              also how did the cafe date go?

                                              It went great! There was fewer people than I expected, and it was quiet, and we just sat and talked for like 2 hours, had a good time catching up cause we hadnt talked in like 2 weeks ^^ plus hes leaving soon so its nice to get some time together

                                              and finally do you want to hear about my day?

                                              Yes please sweetie!! aubrey-happy I would love to hear about your day, and everything youve been up to in the wifi-enabled grasstouching sweden meow-bounce

                                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                12 days ago
                                                c:

                                                norwegian

                                                fascinating! also it always makes me smile how so many of these words are in different dialects in finnish, like søt, there's a finnish word söötti, which is basically another way to say cute niko-happy

                                                2 hours

                                                hell yeah! lets-fucking-go when time flies while talking you know you have a good friend Care-Comrade

                                                the day

                                                so! went with dad to look at the sea, it was way too warm (i'll post the pics when i get on the pc again), talked with him a bit about my anxiety and how it fucking sucks, almost started crying and saying that i wish i could just be normal, but managed not to. he cares a lot thoughniko-happy

                                                went back to the house and auntie gave me that recipe book to leaf through. spent some time on that and then she roped me into food prep and cooking. it was really nice lea-smile. afterwards i got white girl drunk on red wine while we ate. feeling really nice and loved today lea-blush

                                                • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
                                                  ·
                                                  12 days ago
                                                  :3

                                                  norwegian

                                                  Norway has so many dialects its unreal lol. There isnt even a standardized spoken language, theres just a bunch of dialects.

                                                  finnish

                                                  What does the two vowels next to each other mean in finnish? Is it like a longer or more stressed vowel?

                                                  your day

                                                  I would love to see the photos of the sea aubrey-happy

                                                  wish i could just be normal

                                                  This is so very relatable, lea-breakdown ive had similar convos with my folks. Im really glad he cares so much! niko-happy

                                                  recipe book

                                                  Ooh i love it! One of my favorite things is finding old recipes or old cookbooks, they are always so fun ^^

                                                  roped me into food prep and cooking.

                                                  What did you all make? lea-happy

                                                  white girl drunk

                                                  anya-heh i always do this where I have a couple glasses of wine, feel nothing, and then all of a sudden im drunk lea-finger-guns

                                                  feeling really nice and loved today

                                                  Im so happyyyyy aubrey-happy it sounds like you have a really kind and supportive family, even if they dont quite "get it" sometimes. And, what can I say, lovely people like yourself are often well loved kris-love

                                                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                    12 days ago
                                                    ^^

                                                    dialects

                                                    oh god it's even worse than finland emilie-come-on

                                                    söötti

                                                    yeah it's longer, rule of thumb there are no silent letters in finnish, the words are said literally just like how they're written, following finnish pronounciations obviously, and that is hard for most people lea-wasnt-me

                                                    food

                                                    we roasted some vegetables in the oven and I made another pizza for myself, because auntie's experience with veganism is that cheese, fish and eggs are fine. smdh. anyway they grilled some meat and we air fried some sliced potatoes, topped with vegan aioli pingu-horny it was excellent.

                                                    drunk

                                                    i bet you're a really cute drunk shy

                                                    really kind and supportive family

                                                    yeah lea-happy really lucked out in the trans bingo tbh, parents took a real leftward turn when i came out and mom's side of the family have seemingly been soc dems at worst so it's pretty great, honestly lea-blush

                                                    lovely people like yourself are often well loved

                                                    oh shtaph aubrey-embarassed

                                                    pls dont actually i love it undyne-owo

                                                    • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                      12 days ago
                                                      ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

                                                      dialects Its... Pretty amazing tbh. Theres a piece on NRK from a while back about two people with very thick dialects from different parts of the country talking to each other, and they cant understand each other. I love it, but it can be difficult. It can also be fun with sentences that are only tiny monosyllabic words (e.g. " d e d d e å d e d d va" or like "æ e i a æ å æ")

                                                      finnish

                                                      Ok that does sound rough. I bet I could do the pronounciation but learning how to break up words into syllables can be real difficult.

                                                      drunk

                                                      Idk, i either get way more anxious or way less anxious. But if its just me and one other person i tend to get more cuddly shy

                                                      family

                                                      Its so nice to hear people taking left turns aubrey-happy There have definitely been some people in my family where I was worried id have to get all aubrey-bat with them. But at worst theyre well meaning libs (aside from the hardcore reactionaries and fash we no longer talk to).

                                                      oh shtaph

                                                      anya-heh make me, söpöliini

                                                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                        12 days ago
                                                        ~happy lesbian noises~

                                                        "æ e i a æ å æ")

                                                        wtf this is on some welsh shit

                                                        finnish

                                                        there's a lot of fun things you're allowed to do with the words and most will understand the meaning like mussukka is like a milder version of cutie, but not really cutie-pie... it doesnt really translate. but for example i could say: "olet suloinen sussukka." and it's understood that i' ve tried to make you blush by calling you a "cute little cutie-pie" lea-finger-guns

                                                        drunk

                                                        cuddles are great! i get these very straight yearnings when i'm drunk enough shy

                                                        family

                                                        well my brother is a rightoid so it all balances out i guess niko-concern

                                                        make me

                                                        you're tempting my switchiness to turn towards the top part via this bratty behaviour, sweetness soviet-pout

                                                        • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                          12 days ago
                                                          mildly bratty sub sound

                                                          My day just took a fun turn! One of my friends invited me to come make cookies with her and grab some dinner together! Im gonna touch so much grass today! but this means im leaving soon and not giving undivided attention to söpöliini in my phone :(

                                                          this is on some welsh shit

                                                          sicko-lea

                                                          But I mean, norwegians got nothing on welsh, that language is confusing!

                                                          olet suloinen sussukka

                                                          hyperflush you may have succeeded :3

                                                          yearnings

                                                          Those yearnings, oh those yearnings :anti-volcel-daydream:

                                                          brother is a rightoid

                                                          badeline-concern Theres always at least one

                                                          switchiness to turn towards the top

                                                          I wonder if youre all bluff ;p or do i need to knock a wine glass off the table? ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ nia-smug

                                                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                            12 days ago
                                                            more grass touching!

                                                            it's actually pretty good since im getting eepy, and would love nothing* more than that someone would keep company to this cute little kitten cat-trans

                                                            *ok there's a few things crush

                                                            yearnings

                                                            wistful sigh yeah lea-blush

                                                            bluff

                                                            my bluffing game is pretty solid lea-think

                                                            i also have some heavy duty necklaces i would love to test, for the rest, i learn pretty fast by doing, sweetheartlea-smug

                                                            have a wonderful day, sweetness ralsei-wave i'll chat with you more in the morning

                                                            • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                              11 days ago
                                                              grass touching (mostly) successful

                                                              aww you were all cute and eepy, and I bet when you wake youll be all cute and groggy cuddle

                                                              this cute little kitten

                                                              ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ kitten reporting for company ^^

                                                              love nothing* more [...] *ok theres a few things

                                                              Yeah? You wanna tell me about them? Id love to hear bridget-smug

                                                              My time out was mostly good! We made cookies, had a good time talking, played some cards, and just hung out for a good while. My other friend who is also her roommate was there and it was also nice to talk to her.

                                                              (Edit: also i just want to make clear, if you get uncomfortable or are not wanting to continue this, please say so and we can drop it; i dont want to make you uncomfortable)

                                                              more heavy flirt

                                                              my bluffing game is pretty solid

                                                              Oh yea? So what would you do if i knocked a glass off the table? 😈

                                                              i also have some heavy duty necklaces i would love to test, for the rest, i learn pretty fast by doing, sweetheart

                                                              Ooo what kind of necklaces do you have? And how would you test them? maya-devious id love to see your fast learning ;p

                                                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                11 days ago
                                                                yay! ^^

                                                                cute and groggy reporting for duty niko-yawn

                                                                •ﻌ•

                                                                meow-petted

                                                                You wanna tell me about them?

                                                                alright uhh counting fingers existing in the same timezone. existing in the same country. existing in the same city. existing in the same hou... uhh neighbourhood. .. . shy yeah

                                                                cookies

                                                                hell yeah, what kind? lea-happy

                                                                I'm glad you have friends, sweetness. One of the best feelings when you can just chill with the gals lea-w

                                                                heavy you say?

                                                                i have a remarkably well trained disdainful look that I could plaster on, just for you sweetie. Also I seem to remember we've discussed my kinks before; biting, blood, pain and knives crush I do have some expertise with knives, but I also have some skill with my teeth lea-finger-guns

                                                                the necklace is a hoop in the end of a long chain, looks kinda goth/punk, but you can tighten it very nicely around someone's neck one handed sicko-lea

                                                                dont know much about ropes, sweetheart, but to live is to learn as they say lea-blush

                                                                • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                  11 days ago
                                                                  eeeeeeeeppppyyyy

                                                                  Im getting very eeepy, and soon i must sleepy. Its getting hard to keep my eyes open... I want to stay here in this thread with you, but i might have to just dream about this instead. sleepi

                                                                • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                  11 days ago
                                                                  ^eeeeeeee^

                                                                  Cute groggy söpöliini meow-melt

                                                                  cookies

                                                                  Oatmeal butterscotch with lemon glaze ^^ I bet you would know how to replace the butter (then theyd be vegan)

                                                                  counting fingers

                                                                  Maybe next time im in europe ill have to give you a call lea-blush help i have no money and söpöliini is in finland

                                                                  I'm glad you have friends, sweetness. One of the best feelings when you can just chill with the gals

                                                                  Me too, its really nice ^^ i just wish i was less anxious and could fully enjoy myself

                                                                  👉👈

                                                                  teeth

                                                                  Oh bite me no literally bite me hyperflush tear into me, leave me covered in marks. Make me giggle and wimper and scream

                                                                  pain

                                                                  I love floggers and whips and little implements :hyperhyperflush: The sting of whips¹ is just, idk, its magical.

                                                                  Ive never had someone draw my blood, the thought terrifies me... But is also a little exciting...

                                                                  the necklace

                                                                  smiling at the thought you want to keep me tightly bound, knowing my place, with your necklace there holding me still?

                                                                  ropes

                                                                  To live, to learn, bind me, burn
                                                                  To tie, to wrap, my body, slap
                                                                  To strike, to hit, the flesh, bright lit
                                                                  To see, to feel, to touch, be real

                                                                  ¹ info

                                                                  Whips are just so cool! Ive been trying to learn how to make them. I wove myself a leash for my collar a while back to familiarize myself with weaving. I really want to get a range of impact toys. Its just so fun! Well, it depends i guess. Sometimes I can handle only 15 minutes, other times I can go for over an hour, but it does eventually stop being fun when im past my limits.

                                                                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                    11 days ago
                                                                    ^^

                                                                    söpöliini

                                                                    hee hyperflush

                                                                    Oatmeal butterscotch with lemon glaze

                                                                    oh me oh my pingu-horny replacing butter is the easiest, i might need the recipe, sweetness lea-think

                                                                    europe

                                                                    ugh i knooooow, this sucks lea-ugh maybe one day, sweetie aubrey-sad

                                                                    wish i was less anxious

                                                                    mood fr fr kitty-birthday-sad

                                                                    going to have to go offline again (9h in the car kill me pls). sorry, sweetheart lea-sad

                                                                    :3

                                                                    biting was the plan, sweetness. emilie-smug

                                                                    would love to delve deeper in this, but running out time. Will revisit this on the pc later today, sweetheart. Forgive me pls aubrey-sad

                                                                    • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                      11 days ago
                                                                      :3

                                                                      one day, sweetie

                                                                      crush

                                                                      9h in the car

                                                                      I hope your car ride wasnt too terrible meow-hug

                                                                      ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

                                                                      biting was the plan, sweetness

                                                                      biblically-accurate-kitty i like this plan, tell me more ;p

                                                                      Forgive me pls

                                                                      Always cat-trans

                                                                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                        11 days ago
                                                                        hewwo uwu

                                                                        I hope your car ride wasnt too terrible

                                                                        surprisingly painless this time around, read some gay slop and fell asleep twice, i think? not bad. mentally really tired and going to take a long shower soon but i have been neglecting the cute girl in my pc so i have to rectify this lea-happy

                                                                        currently wearing some cat ears and some slight smoky eye going on because my makeup has run a bit meow-melt will probably post some pics into the main megathread tomorrow after i get out of work niko-yawn

                                                                        how did you say it? heavy flirting, yeah that's good

                                                                        so let me lay out the scene: You naked in my bed, hands tied. Blindfold? Hm maybe. I'm sitting on your stomach squeezing your midsection with my thighs (which are quite thicc as you recall). I'll lick my way up your sternum to your left ear and nibble it a bit, then I'll move lower to the spot where your neck and shoulder connect and bite down hard, sucking it a bit and letting go with a muted pop sound. I'll slowly nuzzle my nose on underneath your chin and do a little nibble right at the center of your throat. Then I'll move to the right side and give a little kiss to the neck there. I'll lower myself on your chest and cross my arms over it, whispering lightly "Beg for it."

                                                                        Will you beg for it, sweetness?

                                                                        • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                          11 days ago
                                                                          heia ^^

                                                                          have been neglecting the cute girl in my pc so i have to rectify this

                                                                          meow-melt

                                                                          currently wearing some cat ears and some slight smoky eye going on because my makeup has run a bit

                                                                          Omg cute! Smokey eyes are kind of amazing, but I dont do them very well on myself.

                                                                          first the idk procedural anxiety sating bit sorry i know its not fun im just an anxious person

                                                                          I just want to be sure of things, im not asking you to dox yourself, but i do want to know if youre a minor before this gets heavier. From the way youve talked, Im fairly certain you arent, but i had a moment of anxiety here and felt the need to ask, cause i know I did stuff like this when I was a young teen. For what its worth, im in the 25-35 age range meow-hug

                                                                          Also just as an aside, are there things youd like me to avoid mentioning in the heavier bits here? On my end, i have some difficulties/dysphoria with my genitals, and dont like to think about or use them in the standard cishet way.

                                                                          heavier :3

                                                                          Laying here, sightless, held in place by your thighs. I stare up into the dark of the blindfold. Unable to move, feeling the wetness of your tongue as it slinkily parades its way up to my ear. A nibbling follows, and is punctuated with the sharp pain of a powerful bite and a yelp escaping my lips. A small muted pop reverberates through the room as you move your attention elsewhere. I feel you nuzzling up against my throat, and the little nibbles that follow send shivers through me. A kiss on the right side of my neck follows, and i feel you settle on my chest. "Beg for it" i hear you say. "please, I want-", the words are almost pulled out of me "I need you, more, please". A moment passes before the words escape my mouth: "please, I need it"

                                                                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                            11 days ago
                                                                            anxiety stuff

                                                                            let's say that I'm in the 30-35 demographic. gloriously ruined by capitalism and definitely don't have my shit in order lea-breakdown yeah, let's just veer away from the genitals, need to get a surgery first lea-finger-guns . Never done this stuff before though, oooo let's see if my gay slop reading has been worth anything....eh besides the obvious. I definitely have a perfectionist streak, I'm being reminded basil-anxious

                                                                            heavier

                                                                            "Good girl." I murmur and start to slowly move forwards again, slowly nuzzling my way up to the cruelly neglected right side of the neck. Slowly painfully slowly tracing my teeth across the neck and bite down, pulling the skin a bit as I move and leaving a trail of bites all the way to the left side, where I stop again. "What do you need?" I ask while slowly moving my right hand along the line of marks already blossoming along the neck. "And do you think you deserve it?"

                                                                            • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                              11 days ago
                                                                              anxiety stuff

                                                                              meow-bounce meow-hug

                                                                              heavier

                                                                              good girl A shudder runs through my body a smile across my lips at the words. I feel the movement towards my neck, ever so slowly. A flash as I feel your teeth graze my flesh, and then more, they sink into me, not so deep as to break skin, but deep enough that I truly feel them. Deep enough to communicate intimate knowledge; I know my place beneath your teeth, wrapped in your thighs, Yours. The bites come slowly, so slowly. Moving across my neck. I feel my skin blooming at each one, until you come to stop at my left side. "What do you need?" the words slide from your lips into my mind as i feel you trace your fingers over your handiwork "And do you think you deserve it?". "I- you- I dont- I- you- need-" I stammer, unable to even begin forming a cogent answer to the questions. What do I need? The thought lingers for a moment before I reply: "You, your marks, your touch. I need to please and pleasure, and be pleasured. I need to belong and be yours. And I know I probably dont deserve it. Please, help me, help me deserve it."

                                                                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                                11 days ago
                                                                                Rated H for Heavier

                                                                                I hum and move my lips closer, sucking on the skin slightly and rising up. I move my hand up the right side of your neck into your scalp and grasp the hair in a tight grip. "Oh, sweetheart, no one is allowed to talk down to you, not even you." I whisper against your chin and tug your hair hard enough to expose more of that wonderfully soft skin and start biting and sucking on it, moving very slightly each time. Eventually releasing your hair and starting to scratch down your scalp soothingly, while moving my mouth to your ear and biting on the lobe and pulling it slightly with my teeth. "Are you sure you don't think you deserve this?" I whisper into your ear as I release the lobe, and softly move my hand from your hair over to your throat. Doing a slight squeeze with my thighs, and my hand at the same time. "Tell me you deserve this, sweetness."

                                                                                • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                                  11 days ago
                                                                                  blood type H+ cause its positively heavy

                                                                                  With your hand tightly gripping my hair, I hear your voice in my ear.

                                                                                  "Oh, sweetheart, no one is allowed to talk down to you, not even you."

                                                                                  The words stir something in me, a feeling for which I have no name. Welling up inside me it spills over into devotion and emotional release, juxtaposed by the control you have over my head, the comfortable discomfort of the biting and sucking upon my skin, the pleasurable pain of it all. As your hand releases and scratches down my scalp in a soothing calming motion my head tilts back upright to meet your lips upon my ear, nibbling and grazing upon it, before whispering:

                                                                                  "Are you sure you don't think you deserve this?"

                                                                                  Words have abandoned my thoughts, and only color remains. Flashes of green and red compose the grammar, golden streaks form words, and blue undertones lay out the intonation. White hot points punctuate this sentence of color. I realize your hand is at my throat; I had been so distracted I hadnt noticed its soft movement thereto.

                                                                                  "Tell me you deserve this, sweetness" The words are accompanied by a coordinated squeeze of your thighs round my torso and your hand on my throat, and crystallize my thought into words:

                                                                                  "I deserve this, I want this, I need this; I want you"

                                                                                  As the words vacate my lungs I feel your grip tighten slightly, not enough to choke or strangle, but enough that I know youre there, and know youve heard me.

                                                                    • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                      11 days ago

                                                                      Forgiveness forever, im eeeeepy and going to sleep now. I hope your car drive is less rough than the drive out there! Nn lovely meow-hug

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                                                                      11 days ago
                                                                      recipe

                                                                      It was 2 sticks butter, 1¼ cups flour, ¾ cup white sugar, ¾ cup packed brown sugar, 2 eggs, some baking soda, zest of 1 lemon, cinnamon, vanilla, and salt. Also 3 cups oats and as much butterscotch as youd like (we used a whole bag)

                                                                      Mix the dry ingredients (sans sugar) all together. Mix the softened butter with the sugar, then beat in the eggs, lemon zest, and vanilla. Slowly mix in the dry ingredients. Then stir in the oats and butterscotch.

                                                                      Bake at 375°F for like 10 minutes i think? Adjust baking times as needed.

                                                                      Finally, juice a lemon and mix as much powdered sugar into the lemon juice as needed to make a glaze, and drizzle it over the cookies ^^

                                                                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                        11 days ago
                                                                        spoiler

                                                                        thank you, sweetness. can never have too many recipes meow-petted feels good to be back on the keyboard lea-finger-guns

                                                                        • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                          11 days ago
                                                                          spoiler

                                                                          Ofc! ^^ if you can make it vegan id love to know how meow-bounce

                                                                          feels good to be back on the keyboard

                                                                          Never stop posting posting

                                                                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                            11 days ago
                                                                            the posting will never stop

                                                                            vegan

                                                                            everything can be made vegan, i just gotta workshop it a bit. I'll keep you posted, sweetie. lea-blush

                                                                            They will hate to pry this board from my cold dead hands 07

                                                                            • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                              11 days ago
                                                                              yayyy

                                                                              I'll keep you posted, sweetie.

                                                                              Yayy \^^/

                                                                              I need more vegan and vegetarian recipes! I had a pretty good vegetarian enchilada recipe, but i lost it the last time i moved ralsei-pout.

                                                                              cw carnist-ism

                                                                              Ive been trying to move in a less meat-oriented direction with my food. Its been somewhat (?) successful, i only really eat meat if im eating out with people or someone is throwing away something (im not gonna let food go to waste, and especially meat, like, something died for this, im not gonna let it end up in the trash unless its literally rotting/unsafe for consumption).

                                                                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                                11 days ago
                                                                                ^^

                                                                                butterscotch might be hard to veganise, i mean i found a recipe already, but i could just use something that requires less effort, but would be about the same, have to look at this more tomorrow when I'm less tired edit: ah nevermind, found a good source from which to shop for a vegan variant ^^

                                                                                I have so many vegan recipes bookmarked! here's one for enchiladas

                                                                                I mean, that's fair. The whole idea is that you refrain from using animal products within your own means, if you're going to starve it's better to eat the meat. Ideals are hard to munch on, when your belly starts to high five your spine lea-why Atleast you're doing things, sweetie. That's more than like 95% of people in the west fucking seem to care aubrey-angry

                                                                                • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                                  11 days ago
                                                                                  omg tysm!!!

                                                                                  I have so many vegan recipes bookmarked! here's one for enchiladas

                                                                                  This is wonderful tysm!! I really need to start making a recipe book for myself... I should get one of those moleskins and write everything down all pretty like ^^

                                                                                  belly starts to high five your spine

                                                                                  Ugh thats the perfect description for that feeling kitty-birthday-sad

                                                                                  Atleast you're doing things, sweetie

                                                                                  cuddle I try! I just dont have the brainspace to manage it while also managing the rest of my life aubrey-cry-1

                                                                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                    11 days ago
                                                                    ^^ part 2

                                                                    pain

                                                                    eh i think we can work up to the knife, sweetheart. need to learn the proper etiquette of whip use first anyhow sicko-lea

                                                                    the necklace

                                                                    outdoor catgirls need to be leashed at all times, don't you know. wouldnt want anyone to abscond with you. lea-blush

                                                                    ropes

                                                                    crush the combination of you being a sweet poet and the subject matter is giving me a pleasant whiplash, sweetness.

                                                                    • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                      11 days ago
                                                                      o hai :3

                                                                      whip etiquette

                                                                      crush omg yes

                                                                      Theres so much fun with whips and floggers and impact implements bridget-smug i have some old leather jackets i bought at thrift stores that I want to turn into collars and cuffs, but one is so incredibly massive that it might have enough material to make a little signal whip :3

                                                                      leashed

                                                                      hyperflush my leash is so short tho! Its only about a meter and a half! Need to get a longer one for outdoor excursions :3 Will you help me get down when I get stuck in a tree? shy

                                                                      pleasant whiplash

                                                                      Well, ill just have to keep on writing then lea-smug

                                                                      But darlin, arent i the one whose supposed to be getting lashes ;p

                                                                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                        11 days ago
                                                                        witchy switches wore wrist watches

                                                                        signal whip

                                                                        ooooh, i did see some paddles on etsy but this would basically function as one, but being a whip at the same time. niko-wonderous

                                                                        Will you help me get down when I get stuck in a tree?

                                                                        of course, sweetness. No one is allowed to hurt my precious kitty cat, not even mother nature. meow-hug

                                                                        Well, ill just have to keep on writing then

                                                                        please do lea-blush

                                                                        But darlin, arent i the one whose supposed to be getting lashes ;p

                                                                        you forget that I'm just a humble switch bleh not a full top emilie-smug

                                                                        • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                          11 days ago
                                                                          what a lovely switchy witch

                                                                          signal whip as paddle

                                                                          Kind of? If you used the handle it could function as a thuddy thumper, but idk if that would damage the whip? (I might be misunderstanding you). In general with whips youre aiming to lightly graze your target; the difference of a few centimeters can be the difference between a whip mark and fully split skin, depending on how hard your strikes are. Watching people play with singletails is almost like watching someone dance, they move back and forth on their feet and sort of swing the whip from side to side. Tbh its kinda mesmerizing ^^

                                                                          No one is allowed to hurt my precious kitty cat

                                                                          meow-melt curling up on your lap, all safe and cozzzzyyyyyy

                                                                          you forget that I'm just a humble switch not a full top

                                                                          True, i forget myself. Maybe we could mark each other maya-devious shy

                                                                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                            11 days ago
                                                                            switchy witch witching switchily

                                                                            I might be misunderstanding you

                                                                            no no, probably not. my understanding of whips is woefully inadequate, love to see your nerding about them though, sweetie. makes me want to learn more lea-blush

                                                                            Maybe we could mark each other

                                                                            powercry-1 promise?

                                                                            shy

                                                                            • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                              11 days ago
                                                                              ....am I a sub? Or a sub leaning switch.....?

                                                                              makes me want to learn more

                                                                              You want me to tell you about them? lea-happy

                                                                              promise?

                                                                              Ok ive not wanted to mark someone before but youve got me feeling things that are markedly unsubby... I could bring out the implements and we could choose, i which to have you use upon me, you which to have me use upon you :3 Ive never Dommed before though, its not something i quite understand, and i may need some guidance...

                                                                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                                                11 days ago
                                                                                ....more like a sub learning to switch

                                                                                lea-finger-guns

                                                                                You want me to tell you about them?

                                                                                oooh yes please! lea-happy

                                                                                never Dommed before

                                                                                I'm sure we can mold a service top out of you, sweetness lea-smug I have two things that I'm not into. Degradation, just....ugh. I mean sure if that's what people want, but I'd like to forcefully make people feel better about themselves, really. The second is being tied down, I think I have some childhood trauma related to toy handcuffs that were made out of fucken STEEL lea-breakdown but like being held down is very hot lea-blush

                                                                                sadly it's pretty late here and I do need to go to work tomorrow lea-sad which reminds me, we should probably move over to PMs, trying to find a nice thread to linger seems unlikely to happen twice, even though I would love to work on the comment numbers on the megathread. anya-heh

                                                                                You have a wonderful rest of the day, sweetheart. cat-trans

                                                                                • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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                                                                                  11 days ago
                                                                                  ive been told im a fast learner :3

                                                                                  whips

                                                                                  I think ill do a little write up on whips in another comment ^^

                                                                                  mold a service top

                                                                                  Subby lilypad reporting for molding!

                                                                                  degredation

                                                                                  Yeah, I like a handful of degrading talk but its so specific and has such potential to send me spiraling if misapplied that I dony really ask for any degredation when with someone.

                                                                                  steel handcuffs

                                                                                  Im sorry you were put through that meow-hug idek why they would give such things to children

                                                                                  being held down

                                                                                  Im not very strong shy but i can try to hold you down!

                                                                                  move over to PMs

                                                                                  That sounds fine to me!

                                                                                  You have a wonderful rest of the day, sweetheart.

                                                                                  aubrey-happy I will! But only if you promise youll have a lovely night of sleep, my lovely söpöliini, you deserve to be well rested for work tomorrow <3

                                                                                  Now go get a lovely long rest niko-sleep and dream lovely wonderous dreams <3

        • lilypad [she/her, undecided]
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          13 days ago
          im trying!

          Sinä olet söpö ^^

          Sinä pidät leipä ^^

          I didnt use a translator so its probably wrong lol. I couldnt figure out what case to use with leipä 🙃

          (Trying to say: you are cute, and you like bread)