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Toyosatomimi no Miko is a character in the Touhou Project series introduced in its 13th installment, Ten Desires.
Miko was once Prince Shoutoku, a Japanese leader in the 600s known for promoting Buddhism and streamlining the Japanese government. In the Touhou lore, she was visited by Taoist hermit Seiga Kaku, who had heard about Miko’s longing for immortality. Seiga introduced her to Taoism, but she rejected it as a religion unfit for placating an entire country. She was intrigued by its promise of immortality, however, and privately converted to it, advocating for Buddhism to keep Japan stable. After drinking an “immortality elixir” (mercury sulfide), however, she was forced to let go of her body and become a supernatural hermit like Seiga, notably taking on the form of a woman, making her a canonically trans character (
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After convincing a hermit from a rival clan (Mononobe no Futo) to sleep without decaying, Miko followed in suit, waiting for a time where a Taoist Japan would revive her in search of guidance. However, Buddhist monks were able to keep her mausoleum sealed, and the legends surrounding her were slowly brushed off- which led to her transportation into Gensokyo, where the folklore of old is a reality of everyday life.
When she awoke in Gensokyo, it was right after Buddhist monk Byakuren Hijiri opened her own temple, however, leading to a surge of divine spirits across the realm, setting up the events of Ten Desires.
What look like headphones on her are canonically earmuffs- Shoutoku was allegedly able to discern between ten questions asked at once, an ability carried by Miko (although with her enhanced abilities, she can also analyze each person and determine their inner desires (thus the title of the game))- although it means her hearing is highly sensitive and has to be muffled to prevent pain.
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This is how I feel about most labels, I don't feel gender no matter what presentation though I like presenting Femme. I don't really get dysphoria or euphoria either. Within me is a void so that's it. I just dress how I feel like or mix and match styles.. I don't associate much with gender for me personally but I know the binary exists because you see the choices everywhere..
My anxieties are more having to deal with NT people, not really anything gender related. I shut down verbally when overwhelmed or just not interested in talking lol,
I am confident and don't really care what people have to say or think generally I am very strong willed and minded. So don't worry about brainworms for me, I'm quite resilient ^^
As for masking I never learned and I was ostracised for being autistic and looking queer lol I grew up with no friends, abusive household and constant bullying at school, it shaped me to rise against shit and it gave me my confidence I guess.. so I wear what I want, I wear whatever however I want. I wear makeup how or when i want, I truly have a no fucks given attitude.
When I found out I was autistic I went on a 3 year research special interest lol but that included a lot of other forms of neurdiversity too. Though I've taught myself quite a bit and because I analyse quite a bit I can read people fairly decently, but I still have blind sides to some NT cues and such, it can be frustrating. I would recommend learning as much as you can because it can clear up some things you probably haven't thought of, it's great to finally understand yourself better even if it takes a while..
I'll respond because it's a good post c:
thank you for sharing, that's cool as hell if you don't mind me saying
:O i hope you don't mind me making this a transition goal
yeah i hear you, i'm 2 months in to the reading and it's been really really helpful so far. i'm branching out a bit too just so that i can be a more understanding person in general and because i like understanding people better. it's really starting to hit me that figuring out what's a mask and what's me is going to take a very long time (and also re-contextualizing a lot of memories, which so far has been healing)
It used to cause me a lot of worry and feeling alienated until I figured out it's just being agender and then that lifted the veil so to speak.
of course not, feel free
I found every time something helped me understand myself it was like finally being able to see things clearly and then I was able to work towards accommodating the quirks or things to help me going forward. I learned I had misophonia and a load of other things too.
Hopefully in time you'll find more things to help heal/help you going forward, it can be a slow process but rewarding to finally have insight into how you experience the world.
thank you!
You're welcome c: