Yeah, I do fine when the person I'm talking with is also a good listener and gives the conversation some room to breathe, but I can't stand overbearing motormouth people.

i feel this, and yet I am one of those people who can't stop talking sometimes honestly, i have the classic "gotta get the words out" problem if i'm even remotely interested in the conversation, it's probably a lot to deal with tbh. i'm sure that tendency comes across in the frantic word jumbles with multiple immediate edits i call "posts" on this site (i jump around a lot when i'm writing, i already wrote the second paragraph...)

i worry a lot that when people get to know me that i can be overwhelming once the mask starts to slip, and well i overcompensate sometimes by trying not to have too many irl friends, although i want to change that a bit, even if we chat primarily over text itd be nice to have people that know my name, maybe live nearby so we can help each other out, etc. i'm trying to figure out all of this now that i understand myself better.

i even get really insecure about my posting online here "am i responding too much?" "is this really an appropriate context for an infodump?" "am i showing too much emotion?" "am i being creepy/clingy/annoying?" etc. i'm telling myself "it's ok it's ok, people here understand, they know you're autistic and this is a valid way to be." some friends in my past were not as kind