I'm so cool 😎👌🔥
this is one of the things where if you have to ask, the answer is probably yes.
~ signed a comrade with ADHA diagnosed at 26
I know this is the response that every "should i self diagnose?" post on the internet gets but, you honestly probably have it, and you're not "just a fuck up"
i have moderate medical training from a double minor in college and tbh i havent been wrong yet on the self diagnosing. obviously i cant write myself prescriptions so it doesnt matter, i still have to talk to a doc about it.
At least you're a fuck up and not actively polluting the world so you can get a 5% rise of YTD Q4 profits.
But also, if you're having trouble getting to where you want to be you should get tested
I’m adhd and a fuck up, but I’m not cool. So you have that going for you comrade
Keep going until you can get one, check recommendations and specializations in ADHD. You'd be surprised how many psychs don't know how to treat it, don't know the comorbidities that come with it, and just don't take you seriously. A psych thought I'd be addicted to stims cause I smoked weed pre diagnosis to help me cope with my depression when it's been scientifically proven people abuse substances less when they have therapy and even the right meds like stims. She thought I was faking when I said the other meds made me suicidal. Left her sooooo quick. Keep searching. Took several years to find two people that worked amazing for me rather than terrible or just blah.
Before getting actually diagnosed I dealt with getting actually diagnosed with depression and the self-diagnosed.
And those those online tests only get you so far. The questionnaire portion of my diagnosis test left them on the fence, but the computer test of my focus went so awful that I was in the 99th percentile and pretty much got diagnosed off that alone.
If you can get a way to get a test, do it.
If you keep thinking that and keep beating yourself up for it too, you probably have ADHD and depression to boot. Get diagnosed if you can! I still haven't been as great as I've wanted (currently, mainly cause I lost my pyschs cause insurance, unemployment and covid but whatevs) but I've gotten to the point where I know what steps to take to not totally hate myself, my life, be totally unproductive and can see positive in life. You'll be still be down occasionally, and won't change overnight, but you can learn to build a set of support pillars so you won't deep into that terrible pit of self despair and hopelessness again. You'll know what you need to do to pull yourself out of shit moments. You'll give yourself the tools to finally make some change. You'll still fail a TON and maybe feel like shit, but you'll understand how to get through it to find happy and will hopefully never be as bad as your worst diagnosed depressed moment on a personal level.
