Not too hot honestly, gender dysphoria a fuck. Dealing with the realization that earlier this month I hit 3 years on HRT, and still haven't ever been gendered correctly by people who didn't already know me. But I can share pics of myself to friends and all I get back is a total refusal to believe that, no, seriously, it's not confirmation bias, I'm not exaggerating, it has legitimately never happened once. They've just got no other suggestions for anything I could change.
And the changes slow down a lot after 2-3 years. So like, alright, guess I'm dealing with this forever and all this trouble's been for nothing, people are just gonna see me as a dude either way, so the thing I was most worried about before starting - that it wouldn't do enough - ended up being true. Great. Real fuckin cool. Then I go look at trans communities and hear about people who are consistently doing well on that front like, 8 months in, and just. :doomer: ok cool i guess
idk sorry for just dumping all my sadbrains into public. its just. a lot.
I don't think you need to feel sorry, I think that's what this thread is here for. It's not like I can offer any real advice but I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. Even if some other people have an easier time with it, I'm pretty sure you're not alone either.
Have you thought about surgery? It sucks to hear that you cant be identified correctly because of your body. I see trans surgeries get crowdfunded on Twitter quite a bit so maybe it might be an option?
Not too hot honestly, gender dysphoria a fuck. Dealing with the realization that earlier this month I hit 3 years on HRT, and still haven't ever been gendered correctly by people who didn't already know me. But I can share pics of myself to friends and all I get back is a total refusal to believe that, no, seriously, it's not confirmation bias, I'm not exaggerating, it has legitimately never happened once. They've just got no other suggestions for anything I could change.
And the changes slow down a lot after 2-3 years. So like, alright, guess I'm dealing with this forever and all this trouble's been for nothing, people are just gonna see me as a dude either way, so the thing I was most worried about before starting - that it wouldn't do enough - ended up being true. Great. Real fuckin cool. Then I go look at trans communities and hear about people who are consistently doing well on that front like, 8 months in, and just. :doomer: ok cool i guess
idk sorry for just dumping all my sadbrains into public. its just. a lot.
I don't think you need to feel sorry, I think that's what this thread is here for. It's not like I can offer any real advice but I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. Even if some other people have an easier time with it, I'm pretty sure you're not alone either.
Have you thought about surgery? It sucks to hear that you cant be identified correctly because of your body. I see trans surgeries get crowdfunded on Twitter quite a bit so maybe it might be an option?