What's up cousins, welcome to your weekly mental health thread. How is everyone doing? How was your week?
Honstly? Shit. The planet is dying, the capitalists are in charge. I don't see the future being a good one for anyone.
I'm with you on that one. Real doomer hours :doomer:
But we have to keep fighting I guess. Optimism of the will and all that shit.
I know, I switch between doomer and bloomer like crazy usually, but doomer has been winning out lately. I just see how little the powers that be care about climate change, conservation of the environment, COVID and poverty and I start thinking, "why even bother planning for the future anymore, there isn't going to be a future for humanity at this rate."
Get's real hard to feel like anything you do has any real meaning. It feels like only terrible people have control and that nothings going to change that.
Not too hot honestly, gender dysphoria a fuck. Dealing with the realization that earlier this month I hit 3 years on HRT, and still haven't ever been gendered correctly by people who didn't already know me. But I can share pics of myself to friends and all I get back is a total refusal to believe that, no, seriously, it's not confirmation bias, I'm not exaggerating, it has legitimately never happened once. They've just got no other suggestions for anything I could change.
And the changes slow down a lot after 2-3 years. So like, alright, guess I'm dealing with this forever and all this trouble's been for nothing, people are just gonna see me as a dude either way, so the thing I was most worried about before starting - that it wouldn't do enough - ended up being true. Great. Real fuckin cool. Then I go look at trans communities and hear about people who are consistently doing well on that front like, 8 months in, and just. :doomer: ok cool i guess
idk sorry for just dumping all my sadbrains into public. its just. a lot.
I don't think you need to feel sorry, I think that's what this thread is here for. It's not like I can offer any real advice but I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. Even if some other people have an easier time with it, I'm pretty sure you're not alone either.
Have you thought about surgery? It sucks to hear that you cant be identified correctly because of your body. I see trans surgeries get crowdfunded on Twitter quite a bit so maybe it might be an option?
Oh shit, that must be terrible. I hope you feel better soon. Is it a short term thing?
Thanks, it lasts anywhere from a few weeks to several months.
I'm in the process of officially going no contact with my abusive mother. And it sucks. This isn't fun. At least my cousins and aunts are being supportive, but it's still y'know, awful. I'm going to be talking to my grandparents about it later this week, and they've been trying to be supportive of my transition which is cool, but it's still not a conversation I'd want to be having. This all sucks and I feel bad. We as socialists are called on to be optimistic, if we weren't optimists then we wouldn't be socialists. But this is giving up all hope on a relationship that should have been better. But I didn't burn the bridges, and I shouldn't have to deal with her abuse, so I'm walking away. Still sucks.
Honestly really bad im having alot of trouble finding a new place for my fam in my budget and my sisters refusal of treatment for her alcoholism finally hitting its breaking point of her losing her job and going through severe alcohol withdrawl and having to take care of her has my anxiety so high i cant eat unless i force myself
Take it easy on yourself cousin, this has been an objectively shitty year. :unity:
ordered a lot of very embarrassing things to my dorm building and its got me nervous. I know my school technically can't search through my packages but its still got me really nervous if someone finds out lmao
Bet it's not the most embarrassing thing to be ordered to a college dorm.
i mean technically true since i ordered this stuff to my dorm last year and the package wasn't searched, still doesn't make me any less nervous lmao
Had surgery #8 last week and I've been stuck in bed since. Had to quit my job and put my life on hold again. Not doing too hot honestly. The one person I'd talk to doesn't talk to me anymore so it's been pretty lonely too.
Sorry to hear that comrade. I wish you a speedy recovery! :heart-sickle:
Verizon wont stop cucking me. one thing after another and every issue requires 3 calls to support each. I'm getting so tired of contacting them but fuck you, you wont get my 100 dollars.
Don't give up. Every time you don't pay telecom companies a dollar, a CEO gets clam sauce on his shirt.
The woman of the phone is very nice but she's totally stumped. My account in the system must be totally fuckt
College is so much harder online, but hopefully I can get my low grades marked as covid so my GPA doesn't get fucked over, and hopefully I can get some adderall so I can actually pass classes
Based on your story disco elysium might hit a nerve. Hang in there comrade.
After finally learning to be ok with being single, I make the mistake of sleeping with someone who is romantically unavailable, and now the pain of lonliness is more acute than ever.
So not great, especially if I am posting about it here.
Idk. At least some of the lights are on. Sometimes I feel brief moments of contentment. Mostly just numb or blurry, drifting between small events until I get to my bed and wonder where the day went.
