Have you written stuff like this to your parents? You're coming off as pretty reasonable and self-aware, which I imagine you don't during your episodes. Just to avoid having cops called in the future, maybe you should cooperate with your parents and figure out a game plan for next time. I'm not a mental health expert in any regard so my advice is worth as much as the bytes it's written on.
Wishing you the best. From what you’ve described you sound like you have a very loving family, and I’m sure they would appreciate that kind of communication.
Thanks for the share, it was a good read. May life be smoothier for you in the near future. I too, am struggling with bits of manic or depressive state, quite happy that I know nobody in my closet social circle would call the cops to defuse a situation. ACAB
Do British pigs put on that same "cop voice" that American ones do?
Not just the women officers, all of them with that "I'm edging myself just by the use of my own authority" tone.
Also used by con men 🤔
As someone w/autism I had to also deal with anger issues and "ooga booga" mode. Also the cops, fuck cops.
The anger issue got a lot better after I started treating my autism. Here are some tips that helped me with it and can hopefully help you out too.
I will explain this to you in the nerdiest way I can think of.
High functioning Autism is like having an overpowered, specialized engine for a brain. You are capable of being really, really good at the stuff that interests you. In gaming lingo it's like having a min/max build. It is possible to find a comfortable life, but you'll have to find your niche.
Because your brain is a high powered jet engine, it burns out faster than a neurotypical brain. Since your senses are all out of whack, things that wouldn't tire or stress out a normal brain will wear you down a lot faster.
Communicating takes energy, sticking to your tasks takes energy, diverting from routine takes energy. Then BOOM, engine blows out, ooga mode kicks in. Bad time is had by all.
You can counteract this by keeping a regular routine Having a routine helps b/c your brain won't leak energy so much if it knows what to expect. I also recommend getting 30 minutes of high intensity cardio (your choice, and it doesn't have to be all at once), and having 'calm' times for 2 - 3 hours a day where no one can bother you. At the end of the day you are not much different from your caveman ancestors, and like them you need to find ways to expend energy or it will come out as anger.
For me, I like to wake up, do my work out/walk. Then I do work (school, in my case) . Followed by a mid day cool down where I sit under my weighted blanket (GET A WEIGHTED BLANKET!!). After the rest period I work on other stuff or do chores. I am fortunate that I have the support to live this lifestyle.
I recommend volunteering with a non profit, and doing work that fascinates you. Ppl like us can't do bullshit jobs. Our brains can't handle the monotony. We can see all the bullshit happening and can't ignore it. Working w/a non profit can help you socialize, without taking up too much of your time.
I get it. I went on school break and crashed hard from my routine being shaken up. It's normal. Baby steps, you got this!
