I can help out with such a project. I first got into doom level editing over 20 years ago and since then I've gained experience in creating graphics, sounds, and such as well as modding for gzdoom including decorate and zscript code experience. I can PM you some of my work.
My partner and our pets keep me going, I feel I can't let them down. I also have treatment resistant depression and am poor and trans so I'm usually miserable and use alcohol and weed to disassociate from life when I can't deal with it. When my depression temporarily lifts I live to create. My hobbies lately have been creating music and working on a video game mod. I'm also looking forward to gardening soon.
I only know about the modules I have and the ones I use the most are as follows:
Mutable Instruments (MI) Yarns - MIDI to CV converter, if you want to use a midi keyboard with it then you'll need something like this.
-Maths - Envelope generator, I use this in pretty much any patch.
-Piston Honda - Digital VCO, expensive but I love it.
-MI Clouds - grain delay w/ reverb. I use this for creating atmosphere.
-MI Ripples - VCF with CV for freq, res, and FM.
-Dual VCA - Kit I got from synthrotek, nothing special as any VCA will do.
-Buffered Multiples - I don't know the brand I have. Takes one input CV and outputs multiple copies, good for routing clock signals, pitch CVs for multiple VCOs, ect.
-Circuit Abbey Unify - Mixer and output with headphone jack.
-MI Grids - Drum sequencer, takes clock signal from yarns or set your own tempo. Has kick, snare, and high hat trigger outputs. You can hook this up to drum modules or anything that takes a trigger input.
-Basimilus Iteritas Alter - kick drum module, wide range of sounds, one of my favorite modules.
I have others but I don't use them a lot. I hope this helps. If you have questions feel free to PM me.
I have a rack and I love it, definitely expensive though. You can save money if you get modules you have to assemble but you'll need to know how to solder. I built my own case too which saved some money. I love the complex rythyms and unique sounds that my modular can make which to me makes it worth the cost.
It is overwhelming. I'm transgender with avpd too and it sucks. I just avoid looking at other transpeople. Have you started transitioning?
I have AVPD as well and have transitioned in that I'm out to everyone and had my name legally changed. I certainly understand the anxiety - transitioning was a very slow process that took about a decade for me. This was heavily because of my anxiety about what others would think. I took things one small step at a time - like starting to grow my hair out or starting electrolysis. A few people might know but not many so it's a form of exposure but so minor you won't even be concerned after some time. My initial goal was to be androgynous, full transition seemed like way too much anxiety at the time. So I think you are capable, maybe just make small changes over time.
I'm reading Empire of Illusion by Chris Hedges, it's a bit depressing by so is reality.
Maybe try recording your interactions with her with your phone so you have evidence to show someone that works there that has authority over her. Her behavior sounds mostly passive aggressive but if you can record her saying you're useless or something then that's perfect for getting back at her. I really hate when people in positions of power pull shit like this.
Sounds like hell.
Pretty much my exact thoughts but also include hair sample testing being illegal for weed use. My last job required that and I thought that was overkill. I didn't even use weed prior to that and I thought it was quite invasive for a dumb manufacturing job.
I don't know but I love me some Eric Andre, Tim and Eric, and On Cinema (my personal favorite).
Thanks for the link, that was very interesting. Most shows have a lot of fluff and not much content but this was very information dense which is a nice change. I'll be watching some more of these videos for sure since I love nature shit.
It certainly takes strength, I don't know how I still continue to live otherwise.
My favorite started as fallen branch off of my mom's jade plant. I planted it around 20 years ago and it is still alive and healthy. I now have a decent succulent collection and it is still my fav.
In response to the communism killing so many people I would state that "socialism / communism is about working together for the benefit of all members of society. Capitalism is all about individuals focusing on their own personal gain and ignores what is best for society as a whole. Which system intuitively causes the most suffering, especially due to greed?"
It may not be a perfect statement but it's simple and clear to understand.
Same, I take it for sleeping too and it works well for that. I have to be on a couple other meds to alleviate depression and anxiety symptoms though.
Nice! I'm trying to get there myself but it's such a challenge, I want to stop drinking completely. My snri has been working for the past week so at least cutting down on the alcohol is helping.
My favorite is Mad Max Fury Road.
I have an associate's in electronic engineering technology.
Looks nice! It's cool that other people do video game editing here. I'm into modding for gzdoom but can't make a game from scratch, that's impressive.