even more bluntly: What were those completely and utterly ridiculous thoughts that you had in hindsight that make you wonder how on earth you ever even managed to convince yourself that you were cis? I'll start:
I remember browsing through a bunch of trans memes on reddit (already very cisgenderly) and I kept coming across ones that were some variation on stepping out of a time machine to meet your past self as a different gender. For maybe about 2 months until I realized that it really was true, I admitted to myself and two of my close friends who are both trans women that i would just not be surprised if I stepped out of the time machine from the future as a trans woman. my only thoughts on that were basically to laugh it and say "yeah that tracks". Somehow I could admit that I think it's totally plausible to be a trans girl in the future yet still be 100% cis
anyone have any other fun thoughts like that?
As a teen, if I had found a way to safely perform self-orchi, I would have. I thought they were gross/pointless and I thought riding a bike would be more comfortable without them.
Oh and also as a teen, I never participated in anything that involved a locker room. The idea of taking off my clothes in front of a bunch of boys felt violating for reasons I couldn't articulate at the time.