You're not alone in having height dysphoria Not sure how you feel about hrt, but that is something that can (maybe, not guaranteed) reduce your height by a few inches. If you haven't already I highly recommend reading through The Gender Dysphoria Bible, it helped me out a lot back when I was questioning stuff and figuring myself out.
Feel free to ignore if you're not comfortable answering, but why can't you do anything? Is there something specific that's preventing you from trying on clothes and makeup?
Three inches still puts me as taller then basically all women I guess it would still be better then nothing though. I didn't know hrt could do that. That's such a good resource! Maybe I need to reread it if I missed height being effected by hrt though
I still live at home. And my parents aren't super supportive of trans people. Plus I have a younger sibling/siblings. I don't know. I just don't think they'd really like it and that would be really upsetting. I really wish this could just wait until I leave
The height thing is mostly because of how your posture may change after fat redistribution. But also, if you're under 25, HRT can affect how your hipbones fuse, which I think also affects it?
Yeah, there's a surprising amount of changes that can come with hrt! Hormones have a really big impact on biological sex, much more than chromosomes.
It really sucks that you're not in a supportive environment :( Maybe you can get away with growing your hair out and doing some voice training while you're still living at home. And you can probably find skinny jeans and pink t-shirts or hoodies in the men's section, could be a way to get some more fem clothes without looking too sus.
Also maybe look into finasteride. It's something cis men take all the time, so your doctor should be able to give you a prescription. It's not hrt, but it will remove any risk of balding, and can potentially reverse balding if it's already happened. There's also a very low chance of it having some feminizing effects, apparently.
You're not alone in having height dysphoria
Not sure how you feel about hrt, but that is something that can (maybe, not guaranteed) reduce your height by a few inches. If you haven't already I highly recommend reading through The Gender Dysphoria Bible, it helped me out a lot back when I was questioning stuff and figuring myself out.
Feel free to ignore if you're not comfortable answering, but why can't you do anything? Is there something specific that's preventing you from trying on clothes and makeup?
Three inches still puts me as taller then basically all women
I guess it would still be better then nothing though. I didn't know hrt could do that. That's such a good resource! Maybe I need to reread it if I missed height being effected by hrt though 
I still live at home. And my parents aren't super supportive of trans people. Plus I have a younger sibling/siblings. I don't know. I just don't think they'd really like it and that would be really upsetting. I really wish this could just wait until I leave
The height thing is mostly because of how your posture may change after fat redistribution. But also, if you're under 25, HRT can affect how your hipbones fuse, which I think also affects it?
Yeah, there's a surprising amount of changes that can come with hrt! Hormones have a really big impact on biological sex, much more than chromosomes.
It really sucks that you're not in a supportive environment :( Maybe you can get away with growing your hair out and doing some voice training while you're still living at home. And you can probably find skinny jeans and pink t-shirts or hoodies in the men's section, could be a way to get some more fem clothes without looking too sus.
Also maybe look into finasteride. It's something cis men take all the time, so your doctor should be able to give you a prescription. It's not hrt, but it will remove any risk of balding, and can potentially reverse balding if it's already happened. There's also a very low chance of it having some feminizing effects, apparently.