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rant about voice training, self directed ableist language (sorry, just can't think of how else to say things sometimes)
First, thank you AmandaBynesThought for writing a whole effortpost to help me. I hope no one feels like they have to write another to try and help me (right now) because honestly I haven't tried very hard (story of my fucking life)
GOD I don't even know if I'm fucking HUMMING properly. I'm so fucking stupid. How can I not know how to hum. And how do I know when it "cracks" like wtf, or what's a couple "notes" down. What's fucking RESONANCE MEAN. Its all just so frustrating and I feel so stupid. I'm such a fucking quiter too. literally try for like 10 minutes two days and want to give up. how the fuck am I supposed to transition when I give up on fucking everything so god damn fast. Whatever, I'll try harder later.
Hope no one feels the need to spend a bunch of energy explaining shit to me, I'm sure I could google it and find the answers. If you have a favorite guide or something I'd appreciate it though.
I know this sounds like a really negative post but I've actually been completely girl vibing all night and plan on going to bed very happy. Just frustrated at myself, but not in a sad way.
This voice training stuff is not easy, especially in the beginning. If it gets too frustrating you can always take a break and try again later
This video by TransVoiceLessons and the sound clips by Selene explain it much better than I can, but essentially your main goal when voice training should be to reduce the vocal size/resonance and weight, while keeping the two in balance in order to achieve fullness.
Thank you for the videos :cat-trans:
I'm sure the videos will explain (so don't feel like you need to/should or anything I'm just complaining) but
What the hell does this mean agggghhhhhhh :agony-shivering:
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:
It's hard, but it's soooo worth it. Hard is underselling tbh. It's a process better measured in years than months. I remember what it felt like starting, I had to have the entire house to myself no roommates no one. It's like the one thing we have that isn't dominated by genetics - you CAN get the voice you want, just like with makeup kinda (you can get the eyeliner look you want with time and experience for example).
It does so much for passing, which is great sure, but it also does so much for your own euphoria. One day... you may be able to listen to a recording or video with yourself and not feel any of the cringe, because it'll be the voice you want to be coming out of you on the recording!
And yes I'm sure! Its one of my greatest dysphorias right now. I haven't been able to hear my own voice since puberty, not cringing would be amazing. And of course,
there's passing. Hopefully I can start working towards my perfect voice soon.
You can do it! You'll be very happy you started now in 2 years. You'll be very thankful to yourself for sticking with it even when the initial start seemed impossible. I know because that's exactly how I felt for me starting a little over 2 years ago
I know I will be, I really try to focus on how good it is starting now and not constantly wishing I figured it out earlier.